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The torment is so traumatic. It’s like blackouts and demonic, I have reoccurring flashbacks on a day to day basis, with past horrific memories, then came, the voices, I try to mute them but sometimes they trick me, my personality and opinions varies, I find it confusing to find who I really am! It’s like a personality disorder, but not diagnostically.

Autobiography Kaylah Spinka I

    • Self-Improvement

The torment is so traumatic. It’s like blackouts and demonic, I have reoccurring flashbacks on a day to day basis, with past horrific memories, then came, the voices, I try to mute them but sometimes they trick me, my personality and opinions varies, I find it confusing to find who I really am! It’s like a personality disorder, but not diagnostically.

    AUTOBIOGRAPHY

    AUTOBIOGRAPHY

    Born with a high pulse rate and palpitations, as a result it lead to critical anxiety, throughout the years, I developed hypertension, equally to high blood pressure. My heart races and beats so rapidly that I feel breathless, I feel like choking, in fear, fainting, upset stomach, feeling nauseous, my digestion dissolves quickly, with lightheadedness, drowning in my tears, as they roll down my apple cheeks…..

    What’s true, a woman is a deep ocean of secrets. Just like that iceberg sinking down below the navy ocean.

    The torment is so traumatic. It’s like blackouts and demonic, I have reoccurring flashbacks on a day to day basis, with past horrific memories, then came, the voices, I try to mute them but sometimes they trick me, my personality and opinions varies, I find it confusing to find who I really am! It’s like a personality disorder, but not diagnostically.

    I suffer from obsessive compulsive disorder; I have overthinking, over planning and repetitive thoughts. At night, my thinking goes from one thought to another until I fall asleep. I get dejavu often as well.

    I swim but I’m so fatigued. More so, exhausted! Something crawls in my full body and in my bloodstream, its draining and weighing me down. I feel pressure in my heart and drowsiness in my brain, that it’s unbearable at times! I take life day by day, and I fly like a hummingbird to wherever it takes me to.

    However, I also feel so peaceful and in felicity. I’m in harmony from the joyful music, the sunny and the blues. But I feel unconscious and numb, I feel dead. I feel like I will be immortal eternally…… but unfortunately, death exists! So I must not waste my time when alive!

    Where to now? How far can I go? This is insufficient there is so much more to it! My thinking cap is as gigantic as the ocean! 



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