Dinner For One Sutanya Dacres

It’s been almost 4 years since I started the podcast. In 2018 I was very much on a ‘no boys allowed’ train. I needed to get my shit together by myself and was very wary of falling into the trap of using a relationship to help me.
Time has passed, things have changed and now for the first time I find myself in a place where I think I *may* actually be ready to open myself to the possibility of falling in love again. I’m ready to share everything I’ve learned about myself, my mature outlook on love and life, essentially a new and improved Sue B with the lucky bugger that captures my heart.
In this first episode of season 5, I cook a finger-licking good, stick to your bones, make you feel warm and cozy fried chicken and herb-infused mashed potatoes while talking about love. Specifically, I talk about how my idea of love has evolved, I randomly share what I consider my first love (hint: it was in Jamaica and I was like 3 years old haha)  and I go on a few tangents but it all makes sense in the end….trust me.
Throughout the season I’ll invite friends into my kitchen to cook and discuss all types of love: long-term love, love in a second language, love post-divorce, etc. Hope you’ll stick around.
Et voilà, quoi. On y va. 

I’m not cooking in this episode and there is no chatting about my current life in Paris instead, I’m going to tell you a little story about what led me to you and you to me.

So find a cozy spot, your fave beverage of choice, and listen to me tell you about the fateful Saturday that led me to start cooking dinner for one by reading the prologue of my memoir.

I did get a *little* EMOSH during the reading 🤪. I can’t help it. Maybe with every reading, it’ll become a bit easier….

As always, thanks for listening and rocking with me. Happy Holidays and talk to you soon. 

19 years, 3 children, 2 long-distance stints and the love that Camille has for her husband Bruno is as strong and palpable as when they met in school at the tender age of 18 years old.
It really is just a coincidence that this episode is being released on Valentine’s Day and their anniversary. I didn’t plan it this way but my unwavering procrastination led to this twist of fate.
I spoke to Cam about how she’s sustained her relationship through the ups and downs of life, how they’ve grown as individuals, as a couple, and in love. I found our conversation very insightful and reassuring. And as I was editing the episode the one thought that was on replay in my mind was:
Love is patient, love is kind
Merci encore Cam for your friendship and taking the time out of your schedule to talk to me and for sharing your experience and wisdom. 
Happy Valentine’s Day à tous.

Sometimes we forget to take stock of and appreciate the love we have in our lives when we feel like it's lacking. In this episode, I talk about a time in taking for granted the care, support, and affection I have around me and the things that happened that made it very clear that I need to focus on what I have versus what I perceive as a lack.

Ciao a tutti! I recorded this episode from a much bigger kitchen during my stay in Monopoli, Italy a few weeks back. In this episode I talk about why I went to Italy, the pull that the country, and specifically Puglia, has on me, traveling solo as a lady and I answer your IG questions (you guys are REALLY curious about TFM!) all while attempting to make pasta alla gricia. I hope you enjoy it and buon ascolto!
 
 

In this episode, I talk to my very Parisienne, very chic, very cool pal, Marie Chalamet. 
Like me, Marie is divorced. And like me, her marriage ended when she was in her early 30s. In this episode, we talk about food, of course, but we also talk about divorce and romantic relationships.  Her approach to relationships and life, in general, is quite different from mine. Where she goes with the flow and takes things as they come, I am someone that needs to plan, understand, and analyze. Essentially, I overthink everything. Especially when it comes to matters of the heart. I’m getting better at not doing that all the time, but it’s still my default.
I walked away from this conversion with the following questions: why am I worried about what’s going to happen in 3 months when it’s day 4 of me getting to know someone? Why am I putting so much pressure on myself? Why am I getting SOOOO WOUND UPPPP???  I won’t say that this conversation completely changed me but, if you suffer from overthinking like me, I hope this conversation helps you to BREATHE take it easy and, as Marie suggests, just live in the moment.