Efab? Who you talking to‪?‬ EfabulousHB aka #MommyFab

I love the idea of “love” and I love “love” for other people. It’s such a magical, beautiful thing to see and bear witness to in your loved one’s lives. I also know that I am capable of an amazing love deep down in my soul. There is no doubt in my mind or heart that I was at some point very tender, caring, and attentive to my past partners. Historically though, I keep giving my magnanimous love to the wrong people. So for me, love hurts, it is scary, and it has scarred me. --> There is nothing wrong in admitting that love hasn't been as smooth for me as finite math or AP Physics. LOL!! --> This podcast is related to this blog post -->  https://efabuloushb.wordpress.com/2020/12/27/dont-let-your-heart-wake-up/ --> Go check it out and tell me what you think. As always follow me online at EfabulousHB.com or on FB / Twitter / IG --> @EfabulousHB  ---> PS, I use colorful language allllllllll the time. Soz.

I wanted to grow up so bad. Why? Being an adult means you are constantly putting out fires. You are constantly writing emails to advocate for fair treatment, fair pay, fair healthcare, etc… Adulting is hard. Why the hell didn’t someone warn me like 75 times? Do not get me wrong. I'm not telling kids and wayward young adults not to grow up. PLEASE DO GROW UP AND BE AN ADULT THAT STANDS ACCOUNTABLE FOR YOUR ACTIONS. We need more accountable adults in the world. However, hitherto, and forthwith ... adulting is hard and it causes me to overthinking everything. Especially as a parent. My next move, always has to be my best move. ... and boy have I made some mistakes finding that wisdom. This podcast is related to this blog post --> read it here --> https://efabuloushb.wordpress.com/2021/02/24/adulting-is-a-hustle/ --> As always follow me online at EfabulousHB.com or on FB / Twitter / IG --> @EfabulousHB  ---> PS, I use colorful language allllllllll the time. Soz.

Growing up in Chicago, sometimes you experienced colorism and texturism inside your family. Yet when you went outside of the home and when you looked at American television, you experienced colorism, racism, texturism, and featurism 24/7. This episode just unpacks some of the things that I had to unlearn. I want Black American to know that we are beautiful. Bar None. Our beauty, talent, and humanity takes away nothing from any other ethnicity, creed or race. We have every right to celebrate, adore, exalt, and enjoy who we are -- as God made us. This podcast episode is related to this blog post:  https://efabuloushb.wordpress.com/2020/12/28/being-black-american-and-feeling-beautiful/ --> Go check it out and tell me what you think. As always follow me online at EfabulousHB.com or on FB / Twitter / IG --> @EfabulousHB  ---> PS, I use colorful language allllllllll the time. Soz.

First of all, Happy New Year. I hope you are well. Thanks for being in this space with me. I appreciate you. Let’s get right to it. For those sadistic little golden monkeys spewing the “if you didn’t hustle harder in 2020, the hustle ain’t in you” rhetoric, I have 3 words for you.. EAT A [BLEEP].  Do you know that people lost family members in 2020? Fathers, Mothers, Brothers, Cousins, Husbands, Wives, Children. They lost big. We all experienced collective trauma due to the virus itself, isolation, and the astounding ineptitude of the government. Hustle? When? We were trying to survive. -- this podcast is related to the following blog post --> https://efabuloushb.wordpress.com/2021/01/03/hustle-harder-bs/ -- Go check it out and tell me what you think. As always follow me online at EfabulousHB.com or on FB / Twitter / IG --> @EfabulousHB  ---> PS, I use colorful language allllllllll the time. Soz.

My last podcast episode was on October 16, 2020. The last quarter of 2020, a part of me "tapped out".  I had enough creative energy for the #photoadaychallenge #cherisheveryday365 project on Instagram. ( You can visit me at https://www.instagram.com/efabuloushb/ ) I did not write much on my blog. I was suspended in air just navigating my way through health challenges, the pandemic, parenting, and I had some personal things I was mulling over. There were moments of absolute joy and happiness in that quarter. It wasn't all bad, but the motivation to talk to myself in a microphone was not there. Oooooh, but I'm back at it. I'd like to think what I'm saying is important. Perhaps it is not. Perhaps it is, just to me. I don't know, but I found my motivation - FOR NOW. Don't know how long this creative or creating streak will last. Let's pray that it does.   As always follow me online at EfabulousHB.com or on FB / Twitter / IG --> @EfabulousHB  ---> PS, I use colorful language allllllllll the time. Soz.

So now, in 2020, year of the Murder Hornets and COVID19, I am faced with a huge health challenge. And all I want to do is RUN AWAY. I want to scoop up my kid, my dogs, pack some shit and run. As a Black American Woman, there is NO WHERE ON THIS EARTH TO RUN TO WHERE I COULD POSSIBLY BE SAFE. Read my related blog post to this podcast episode here:  https://efabuloushb.wordpress.com/2020/10/05/when-you-can-no-longer-run --> Follow me online at EfabulousHB.com or on FB / Twitter / IG --> @EfabulousHB  ---> PS, I use colorful language allllllllll the time. Soz.