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Sharing authentic raw excerpts from my own life and from the lives of people who inspire me, to help us all remember the extra in the ordinary, the divine in the daily and the beauty in the messy.

A Beautiful Mess Stephanie Yu

    • Personal Journals
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Sharing authentic raw excerpts from my own life and from the lives of people who inspire me, to help us all remember the extra in the ordinary, the divine in the daily and the beauty in the messy.

    A Beautiful Mess- I'm going back to school

    A Beautiful Mess- I'm going back to school

    Life Update: I'm going back to school.
    That's really all that needed to be said, but apparently when I turn on the mic and just let myself talk, what happens is a ramble for an hour, tell you my story of doing magic mushrooms and go on a zillion different tangents. This episode is 100% unedited raw audio, so if you're not into long pauses, coughing fits, and me getting lost in my own confusing trains of thought, maybe skip this one.
    All in all, so glad to be back in the recording studio, aka my laundry room.

    Much love,
    Steph.

    • 59 min
    A Beautiful Mess - Hi Dad

    A Beautiful Mess - Hi Dad

    Hi Dad, I know we've had our difficulties and misunderstandings, but I love you, and I'm so grateful for you.
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    Hope you guys enjoyed this episode, it was a little different from what I usually post, but I really felt like this conversation was a long time coming, and I know that many of you can relate to the difficulties I've had with my dad, so hopefully sharing this can help just one another person relate with their family members.

    Much Love,
    Steph.

    PS if you have any questions DM me @happyandhealthy96

    A Beautiful Mess - On Being Sad

    A Beautiful Mess - On Being Sad

    A Beautiful Mess- On Being Sad

    I’ve been feeling sad the last few days, so naturally I thought I’d turn on my mic and chat about with you all ahah. I hope you all enjoy!

    If you have any questions send me a message on instagram @happyandhealthy96

    And as always, thanks for listening.

    This is a piece I wrote on being sad for instagram, thought I’d share it here as well.

    I have a naturally sunny, happy disposition, so though I often move through life with a smile, I, like most people experience times of sadness. I’ve been feeling kind of sad the last few days so I just want to chat about it with you all.

    Sadness is one of our 6 basic emotions (fear, happiness, surprise, disgust, anger & sadness) & they all serve a valuable purpose both evolutionarily speaking & in our ability to live a meaningful life. Feeling all these emotions is a natural part of life & being human.

    The etymology of the word emotions comes from the latin term EMOVERE which means moving or movement. And it’s such a great way of understanding our emotions as dynamic & in flux. They come & go like waves, so holding onto one particular emotion or trying to avoid another is futile.

    We’ve been taught by society that certain emotions are better than others & that we should try to avoid the “negative” emotions. But in doing so we rob ourselves of a beautiful part of life. The contrasts & polarities that exist are what give this life greater meaning. Our times of sadness are what give our joy more richness & depth, our experience of unease give our moments of peace that much more magic.

    In Buddhist philosophy life is suffering & it’s Inevitable that we feel pain, get hurt, rejected, experience loss, heartache etc. And looming over us constantly is this existential angst of understanding the meaning of life & why we’re here. But though it’s tempting to want to close ourselves off from feeling pain, there’s no selective numbing that allows us to only choose certain emotions. when we numb ourselves to pain, sadness, suffering, We end up losing touch with our ability to truly feel joy, love & wonder.

    The greatest purpose these different emotions have served in my life is that they bring more colour, shape, texture, & meaning to my experience of life. They give context & provide a greater understanding for mine & other peoples feelings. And when we can let ourselves surrender to what we’re feeling in an honest manner, let that emotion move through us, and allow ourselves to feel without needing to justify our necessarily understand why - it can be like a wave, that reaches its peak, then washes over us- eventually dissolves into the sand. Leaving us open to learning from it, growing, & feeling grounded & balanced within ourselves.

    In the case of sadness, I personally think it motivates us to take stock and reflect on our lives, and oftentimes move forward with renewed goals, clarified direction and better understanding of ourselves and what matters to us. Sadness communicate to me what I’ve been neglecting, what I really love and helps me prioritize what will bring me fulfillment. And by understanding and accepting our internal experience of sadness, we are validating ourselves. This self-validation is almost like a huge sigh of relief to me. It helps me feel accepted by myself (we are often our harshest critics) and that I’m fine just the way I am, and not in need of being “fixed.” It helps me feel at peace with knowing that I’m exactly where I need to be, and that everything is- eventually- going to be okay.

    • 30 min
    A Beautiful Mess - Pastor Dean on Self Worth, Radicle Love & The Power of Prayer

    A Beautiful Mess - Pastor Dean on Self Worth, Radicle Love & The Power of Prayer

    A Beautiful Mess - Pastor Dean on Self Worth, Radicle Love & The Power of Prayer

    My wonderful friend and Pastor, Dean makes a return to the Podcast for an incredible conversation on Love, the Divine, Embracing Change, Prayer, and so much more.

    Hope you all enjoy!

    And if you have any questions please message me on instagram @happyandhealthy96.
    You can also find Dean on instagram @deaner.

    As always, thank you for listening.
    Much Love,
    Steph. X

    • 1 hr 43 min
    A Beautiful Mess- How we Deal with "Bad" Days, My Book & Reflecting on This Year With Akeem

    A Beautiful Mess- How we Deal with "Bad" Days, My Book & Reflecting on This Year With Akeem

    If you haven't listened to my podcast episode with Akeem, you can listen to it here.

    Akeem from episode 7 returns to the podcast for a casual but very inspiring conversation. We just turned on the mic, started asking each other questions, exploring emotional weight, how we deal with bad days, and so much more.

    Leave a review of the podcast if you’re enjoying it. And as always thank you for listening.

    If you have any questions message me on Instagram @happyandhealthy96 xo

    A Beautiful Mess- Hillary McBride on Loving our Bodies, Eating Disorders, and How to Live More Embodied.

    A Beautiful Mess- Hillary McBride on Loving our Bodies, Eating Disorders, and How to Live More Embodied.

    Todays conversation is a deep dive into Hillary McBride’s world of work as a Therapist, Researcher, Author & Speaker specializing in the field of Embodiment, body image, mother-daughter relationships, and how to live a more full life. We explore Eating disorders, the process and concept of loving ourselves and our bodies, the process of healing, and really at the end of the day - what it means to be human.

    This is one of my favourite conversations of all time and Hillary has quickly become one of my biggest mentors and inspirations in my life.

    If you’re interested in learning more about Hillary definitely check out her website and blog at http://hillarylmcbride.com/. And if you’re interested in reading her book, you can find it on Amazon here: Mothers Daughters, and Body Image.

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