13 episodes

Songs I Wrote When I Wanted To Die is a podcast where songwriters are invited to get very, very real about the music they wrote at their lowest and darkest points. In each episode we’ll dive into a specific song or album of our guest’s choice, discuss the story behind the piece, the words, and the process. We’ll also catch up on where they are now, and see what we can learn from their stories. It’s our hope that these vulnerable conversations will make others feel less alone in their struggles while simultaneously satisfying fellow songwriting nerds' love of learning how tracks came to be.

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Songs I Wrote When I Wanted To Die is a podcast where songwriters are invited to get very, very real about the music they wrote at their lowest and darkest points. In each episode we’ll dive into a specific song or album of our guest’s choice, discuss the story behind the piece, the words, and the process. We’ll also catch up on where they are now, and see what we can learn from their stories. It’s our hope that these vulnerable conversations will make others feel less alone in their struggles while simultaneously satisfying fellow songwriting nerds' love of learning how tracks came to be.

    Kala (Kitsune) on Nothing Makes Me Happy Anymore

    Kala (Kitsune) on Nothing Makes Me Happy Anymore

    In this episode, Kala from Kitsune comes on to talk about battling through in the context of Kitsune's album Nothing Makes Me Happy Anymore. And then we listen to a song that isn't on that album, because it's season 2 and we do what we want.  Also, Kala is a famous streamer so that's a really cool thing. 

    Kitsune on Spotify | Kala on Twitch. 

    Team announcements: shoutouts to Will for being the best.

    • 36 min
    Intra/Inter-Season Update!

    Intra/Inter-Season Update!

    Wowee. It's been a few months since we signed off. Why? Well you're going to find out in this episode. You'll also learn about what's coming up for season two, maybe some merch, and how you can help us succeed at our mission of helping people feel less alone and less suicidal. 

    Our producer Will's band Arlo Wells dropped a new single and it's actually DOPE. Check it out here. 

    Congrats to Angela on her wedding! 

    This episode is sponsored by horses. It's not a brand, I just think they're pretty majestic. 

    hello@wheniwantedtodie.com :)

    • 19 min
    Shayley Bourget (Dayshell) on Share With Me

    Shayley Bourget (Dayshell) on Share With Me

    Wow. We made it to the end of the season alive and stoked - and we have a bonafide rockstar guest with a mind-blowing story to tell to cap it all off.

    Shayley Dayshell Bourget is the man behind Dayshell. He's also been in Of Mice & Men, and Covette. He's a legend. On this episode, he talks with us about the breakdown that led to his exit from Of Mice & Men, alcoholism, writing processes, and how he views life from a more balanced perspective in 2020.

    Check out Dayshell on Instagram: @dayshell.
    Find Dayshell's Patreon at www.patreon.com/Shayleydayshell.

    Songs I Wrote When I Wanted To Die:

    Instagram: @wheniwantedtodie.
    Facebook: Songs I Wrote When I Wanted To Die. 

    Team: 

    Angela Valiant, Host. 
    Bryce Lokken, Host. 
    Ross Vanosch, Creative Director. 
    William Langlais, Producer. 

    Want to be a guest? Tell us how to be better? Give us a boilerplate PR email? hello@wheniwantedtodie.com 

    • 1 hr 5 min
    Bryce is the Guest, His Therapist is the Co-Host (Pt. 2)

    Bryce is the Guest, His Therapist is the Co-Host (Pt. 2)

    We really hope you listened to part 1 before this! In this episode, the second of two parts, Bryce gives up his co-host chair to his therapist. She's been given written permission to dish on behind-the-scenes stuff from their journey together through the lens of No Anchors song Hypervigilant (which can be heard in the first episode). Listen as Mary the Therapist and Angela dive in and we talk about trauma, abuse, self-doubt, and breaking up thought patterns in REAL-TIME. 

    Buckle up, this is a ride. Hopefully, it's a ride that shows some listeners the true value, and process, of having a professional in your corner.

    • 36 min
    Bryce is the Guest, His Therapist is the Co-Host (Pt. 1)

    Bryce is the Guest, His Therapist is the Co-Host (Pt. 1)

    Lofty title, hey? In this episode, the first of two parts, Bryce gives up his co-host chair to his therapist. She's been given written permission to dish on behind-the-scenes stuff from their journey together through the lens of No Anchors song Hypervigilant. Listen as Mary the Therapist and Angela dive in and we talk about trauma, abuse, self-doubt, and breaking up thought patterns in REAL-TIME. 

    Buckle up, this is a ride. Hopefully, it's a ride that shows some listeners the true value, and process, of having a professional in your corner.

    • 42 min
    Baby C on Rewind

    Baby C on Rewind

    In this episode, rapper/writer/lyricist Baby C comes on to talk about grief, hard work as a means of self-therapy, Beatles samples, and writing for other artists. Also, you can hear how anxious Bryce is the whole time for a double dose of mental health content.

    Song: Rewind.

    SIWWIWTD:

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    Your hosts: Angela Valiant and Bryce Lokken.

    Creative Director: Ross Vanosch, gravesidemanner.ca. Find him on IG @grvsdmnr. 

    Producer and General Handsome Boi: William Langlais. 

    Please rate this show, ideally 5 Stars. I mean, you CAN give it less, but you should just email us that complaint instead. Please leave a comment! 

    Want to recommend a guest or connect with us? hello@wheniwantedtodie. 

    • 42 min

Customer Reviews

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6 Ratings

6 Ratings

Sitting Pie ,

Amazing

Thank you for doing this powerful podcast. These stories touch my heart, makes me look in and do the work.

Baconaaaaator ,

Love you guys ❤️

World class podcast quality, you guys are killing it!

TheBLB ,

Thanks for having the conversation!

Good listen. Zero bias.

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