The Mr.Nobody Podcast: Season 3 Mr. Nobody

I probably fight because I didn't feel safe.
Are we the only animal that isn't born knowing how to protect itself?
Here's a thought.
I have finally become the father I would want to be for you.
Ironic.
Today I woke up from a dream.
I thought I knew how to fight, I found out I didn't
I am remaking myself.
You would love this.
Ironic.
 
 

 
In this document, I bring together my studies in shamanism, psychology,, religion, prehistory and archeology and process the material through my personal work with grief and ancient healing rituals that use entheogens.
I composed all the music but for a few sound effects and quoutes. I like to think of these pieces as dreamscapes, that allow for a broad pallet to explore difficult emotions. Use headphones.
Thank you to my Profesor and advisor. Mark S.
 
 

Thank you so much for sharing this journey. I share a primal fear and two dreams in this episode.
I feel like he's playing the guitar sometimes, thru me. Same thing with  training, it's an altered state, a symbolic language of human geometry. Don't give up. 
I share a book that laid on my night stand for 2 months annd then opened my mind to a new and yet ancient worldview. A see a path.
And I weave in a few standards for fun. Enjoy
 
 

What I would tell my son if he were alive. I imagine a radical art project. I can't seem to talk about the training.
I don't trust the system. How did we get here. 
He's is at the bottom, what can I do?
Did I push you too much?
Pythagoaras was murdered by a mob.
How do I undo me?
 
 

After my son died, I became aware of an inner life that I'd hidden from myself.
At points I was certainly experiencing an altered state, I went in and out for weeks and months of catatonic moments and welcomed them to the waking-reality of my son's overdose death.
I make these episode to reflect the delirium of an inner state, reflecting my subconcious.
Having experienced profound altered states, I wonder if I could drum myself into a trance, from waking to dreaming.
I had a breakthru in my training after many weeks of pressure. I play tomorrow night. Every gig is important.
Miss you son.
 
 

I'm heading into the serious portion of this semester of a masters program.
Lot's to read and consider. I'm concentrating on Shamanism, from the archeological, material and anthropological perspective for a while and then shifting to more experimental approaches. 
My second focus is on fighting competancy and all that implies and entails.
In addition to training, I'm reading inspiring books (Touching the Void). Everyday I'm pushed to my limit in search of honesty, efficientcy and good strategy.
I am humbled by my living-experience.