59 min
Amphetamine Psychosis, Spiritual Awakening, Total Acceptance | Adam Abramowitz Finding Help: Therapy, Recovery, & Community
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- Mental Health
A lot of times there’s a thin line between a mental breakdown and a spiritual experience. Adam has had his fair share of both. He shares them here and it’s quite a ride.
Things kicked up a notch when he was a NCAA Division 1 football player managing a worsening drug problem. In a televised ESPN game, he had a psychotic break. Spiritual experiences, continued drug use, 12 Step Recovery, and total acceptance eventually follow.
1:35 Amphetamine induced psychotic break during a D1 NCAA football game
5:05 Continued psychosis for 4 months
7:20 Psychosis ends then “things get weird”
9:08 An overwhelming spiritual experience; “losing total sense of time and space”
13:05 “the thin line between a mental breakdown and a spiritual experience”
15:35 Beginning to use black tar heroin
17:35 Instant relapse, going to the bluffs to score drugs
21:35 Why he stopped relapsing - the 12 Steps
23:05 Difficulty of what families experience
26:05 Lao Tzu and Taoism; peace, contentment, and creativity in recovery
28:00 A few second of contemplation
30:20 Being back on heroin, living in Tulsa with his mom, losing his girlfriend
32:35 Waking up dopesick, using heroin and cocaine
34:35 Getting back into recovery
37:35 Being deeply ashamed of who he was; out of dope, out of money, out of gas
39:05 Looking at a gun and contemplating suicide
41:35 Revisiting spirituality in recovery: Taoism, Zen, Bruce Lee, Alan Watts
46:05 Shared Space, building a recovery-focused social media software
47:35 Pema Chodron, “Comfortable with Uncertainty”
50:05 Taking the 3rd Step
52:35 Working in the treatment field, Life as play rather than work
57:25 What Adam would pass on to people listening
For more information, visit https://mattshedd.com
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A lot of times there’s a thin line between a mental breakdown and a spiritual experience. Adam has had his fair share of both. He shares them here and it’s quite a ride.
Things kicked up a notch when he was a NCAA Division 1 football player managing a worsening drug problem. In a televised ESPN game, he had a psychotic break. Spiritual experiences, continued drug use, 12 Step Recovery, and total acceptance eventually follow.
1:35 Amphetamine induced psychotic break during a D1 NCAA football game
5:05 Continued psychosis for 4 months
7:20 Psychosis ends then “things get weird”
9:08 An overwhelming spiritual experience; “losing total sense of time and space”
13:05 “the thin line between a mental breakdown and a spiritual experience”
15:35 Beginning to use black tar heroin
17:35 Instant relapse, going to the bluffs to score drugs
21:35 Why he stopped relapsing - the 12 Steps
23:05 Difficulty of what families experience
26:05 Lao Tzu and Taoism; peace, contentment, and creativity in recovery
28:00 A few second of contemplation
30:20 Being back on heroin, living in Tulsa with his mom, losing his girlfriend
32:35 Waking up dopesick, using heroin and cocaine
34:35 Getting back into recovery
37:35 Being deeply ashamed of who he was; out of dope, out of money, out of gas
39:05 Looking at a gun and contemplating suicide
41:35 Revisiting spirituality in recovery: Taoism, Zen, Bruce Lee, Alan Watts
46:05 Shared Space, building a recovery-focused social media software
47:35 Pema Chodron, “Comfortable with Uncertainty”
50:05 Taking the 3rd Step
52:35 Working in the treatment field, Life as play rather than work
57:25 What Adam would pass on to people listening
For more information, visit https://mattshedd.com
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Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/finding-help/message
59 min