My Binge Diary part 2 My Very Last Life

Managed to fast all day yesterday, that’s a 38 hour fast, all total, and am deliberating whether to continue to lunch or have breakfast - but who am I kidding, breakfast is waiting in the kitchen and it’s spectacular, it’s carbs all the way, and even though I feel good about not binging the day before yesterday, before going into my fast, I feel like this fasting thing, reducing my total meals to 8 meals a week, means I am losing out on a lot of good food and drink out there I will never be able to experience before I die. 
From Christmas on – actually from Thanksgiving on – I have been eating like there’s no tomorrow. So I started fasting again and will fast (intermittently) until I get my weight back down below 75 kilos then to 72, which I have been aiming for for years now. My main problem is not the fasting itself – the is. For some reason, easy – but the binging afterwards, both with food and drink (alcohol).
So this is my attempt to solve the binge problem – after every fast period I will reflect and monitor myself and try to find out why I can’t stop binging and how to stop. 
These are mini-episodes – maybe 10 minutes each, through the month of January.