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HIDING BEHIND GREEN EYES, DARK EYELINER & SMILES Santana Lauren
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- Society & Culture
This is the story of a girl who was forced to grow up too fast starting at the age of 8. 20 years later, she's learning to not just accept the past but to use it to make her stronger while helping others. She's going to tell the story of her life while being unfiltered and raw for the first time. She reveals the deepest secrets of her past & discuss the pain hiding behind the green eyes, dark eyeliner & smiles. She’s peeling back the layers to reveal who she is and how she grew from the trauma & pain. New episodes released every Tuesday & Saturday. Please listen with an open mind & open heart. Support this podcast: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/BehindGreenEyes/support
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The DREAM I Had When I Was A Little Girl (9) That COMFORTED me WHEN My MOM DIDN'T | Dreaming Of You
In today’s podcast, I’m kind of all over the place. Usually I try to be prepared when talking because I mess up on words and I get anxiety when I do. It’s almost a fear of mine to not speak freely since I know I’ll mess up and be called the dumb “blonde” again. But, today.. I didn’t prepare what I was going to say by writing down a script. I wanted it to be as authentic and raw as it could be.
When I was a little girl, I tried to find comfort in the arms of my mother. For six years, I grew up with my “father” & brother by my side until one day, he was gone. In 1999, I was then more responsible for my brother. During these 10+ years, I never had a moment to myself. I didn’t listen to music, I didn’t watch tv.
I was afraid of the thunder and the noises that I’d hear outside my window. (The house I was living in was kind of haunted) I remember begging her to let me know I had nothing to be afraid of but she never did. A couple of nights when I was afraid to sleep in my room, I’d sneak into my mothers room to sleep on the floor. But, I’d wake up before she did so she wouldn’t get after me. Then, I heard an angel sing to me one night in a dream. I didn’t know who she was or what she was singing till years later. But, I’ll always my mother looking at me like I was crazy when I told her the dream and I never understand why.
But, I realized from the one dream that I’m going to be okay. I felt at peace. I felt like I had an angel during my childhood years guiding me when I felt the world on my shoulders. Life didn’t get easier but I knew that I didn’t need my mother to comfort me, I could comfort myself. I could take care of myself and that’s what I did.
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50 RAPID & RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME: GROWING UP EDITION
Nobody asked for it but I delivered it. I’ve been sick for the past 3 + weeks and kept telling myself I’ll do my next podcast when I’m not sick but it’s been too long. So here is something light hearted and quick.
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My Podcast Will Be Published..
I’ve been sick. I removed my last podcast episode to add it to my sober podcast. I can’t wait to get everything in gear.
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