Mamo 1andonly

Woke up quite late with a massive disappointment for self. Have not been very kind to my wife last night. We were engaged with a number of length fight lately despite attempting to avoid it any cost. A 6 hour time zone difference between us, life is already quite difficult and this unpleasant fight is already pushing me far from her. And would you believe we are married for just 4 months? and we were childhood sweethearts. Why am I slowly realising that marriage is not for me?

On top that, my younger brother is not doing well in the University. For a middle class family in a third world country, sending his youngest to study in Europe was no mean feat for my retired father. Yet, he did. But the younger is not appreciating it, I think. In his first year of Undergraduate, he is not getting a reasonable score that would give him hope to secure a job after completing his study in Europe. It's time to pay for his second year fees and dad is anxious to know how he was doing in his first year. How am I going to tell my father the results my younger brother got? He is going be shocked and his blood pressure definitely going to rise in dismay.

And me, hitting 35 now, jobless, desperately trying to make a living but again karma kicks in. To be honest, I deserve this after what I have done in last 10 years. I know many of you will tell me, it is quite righteous what is happening to me, but I can't undo it now. No, I was not rapist, nor was a drug addict. I was no menace to society but I did not any good to people who once loved me. The hate me for so many reasons and I don't blame them.

Stay tuned.