Performance Anxiety Marc Shea

Today’s guest makes me feel grateful in many different ways. One person I’m grateful to is Ryan Smith for introducing me to Mark Mallman. Mark’s story is incredible. But the recurring theme is victory. He’s overcome so much throughout his life and it all boils down to his mother’s message: It’s going to be OK. He grew up with music all around. It was there from his earliest memories. He began studying piano at age three with his mother. But his childhood wasn’t easy. He grew up in, as he calls it, “a house of depression”. His mother was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. But he found positivity through the darkness with music and his mother’s message, which has become his own. He has done it all, musically speaking: band projects, solo albums, video game music, incidental music for General Hospital (which has a universe that is more complex than Star Wars), and music marathons. But these marathons are INTENSE. The last one in 2012 was 8 days and 150 hours of non-stop playing.
When Mark lost his mother, he himself fell into a depression. To break out of it, he created The Happiness Playlist. He talks about what it is and how it’s grown. He recently release a single, Seen My Own Ghost, and is poised to release another in a few weeks, called Cancer. He’s also working on a new album, a tour, and a new book. Follow him on TikTok, X, Instagram, and Facebook all as Mark Mallman. His videos are great and you learn something! You can follow us @PerformanceAnx on X and Instagram. Reach out and let us know what you’d like to see next!You can pick up our merch at performanceanx.threadless.com. You can also send us a coffee through ko-fi.com/performanceanxiety. Now check out Mark Mallman on Performance Anxiety on the Pantheon Podcast Network.
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Today’s guest is truly multi-talented. Welcome modern renaissance man Eerie Von to the podcast. Eerie talks about his varied creative talents. Whether it’s drums, bass, singing, photography, painting, or whatever he sets his mind to, Eerie is a force to be reckoned with. He’s also one of the most down-to-earth people I’ve ever had on the show. He’s an open book about his time in Samhain and Danzig. He talks about how those bands formed and why he ended up leaving Danzig after the fourth album.He talks about Rick Rubin and the influence he had on Danzig’s image as well as their sound.
But we go all the way back to the beginning, when he was photographing The Misfits and playing in Rosemary’s Babies. His images with The Misfits have become iconic. They even became part of his book, Misery Obscura. Eerie also talks openly about the music he’s made after leaving Danzig. There’s an album that’s a horror soundtrack without the movie. There’s his more punk influenced album. Then there’s his country album. He also talks about the album that bridged the gap there that was unfortunately lost when his hard drive crashed!
His latest album, Not 4 Nuthin’ is out. But don’t try to stream it. It’s only available from Eerie and only as a CD. So reach out to him at eerievon777@gmail.com to get your copy. Follow him @eerievon777 on Instagram or look him up on Facebook. Follow us @PerformanceAnx. Grab merch at performanceanx.threadless.com. Or send coffee money at ko-fi.com/performanceanxiety. And I hope you enjoy my conversation with Eerie Von on Performance Anxiety on the Pantheon Podcast Network.
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Today’s guests make me rethink the saying “Don’t meet your idols”. I’m joined by Tom Flynn and Mia Dean of Antler Family. Tom’s extensive musical career features bands like Fang and Cornelius Asperger and the Bi-Curious Unicorns. Mia is operatically trained and spent time studying opera in Austria and Italy. She was a huge fan of Tom’s music and jumped at the opportunity to play with one of her idols. But before all that, Tom reveals an early love of hard rock and prog before starting Fang, his roles with The Melvins, and selling his leftover shirts to a band with the same name. 
Mia tells how she decided to sing opera at the age of eighteen, how she started a punk rock venue/opera house, and meeting her husband/bandmate, Tom Dean.
Antler Family’s debut album came out early this year after a five year delay. It’s like if Crazy Horse played punk rock. There are so many surprises in there! Tom and Mia reveal a few alternate band names and I reveal the Youtube typo that COMPLETELY changes the meaning of one of their songs. Pick up the album wherever you get music, except Amazon. Maybe try Bandcamp or midheaven.com if you like vinyl. Follow their socials @antler_family. Follow the show @PerformanceAnx. Slide us a coffee at ko-fi.com/performanceanxiety. Buy merch at performanceanx.threadless.com. And check out Mia Dean and Tom Flynn of Antler Family on Performance Anxiety on the Pantheon Podcast Network.
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Today’s guest reminds me that sometimes, I need to shift my focus. Welcome the multitalented Harry Ostrem to the podcast. I met Harry through a project I started two years ago. But I’ll explain that in a minute. Harry is a bassist, actor, singer, songwriter, comedian, writer, and more. The guy is crazy talented. He grew up about as far away from showbusiness as possible, in a small town of 20 in rural Montana. Yes, I know, that’s redundant. But it’s true. In 5th grade, he was the person in the 5th grade.
But he escaped the wilds of Montana for the bright lights of…Spokane, Washington and Gonzaga University. 
He didn’t go directly into the entertainment industry from college. Instead he was a social worker. This is where things change. Literally. Somehow, my phone connected to the bluetooth in my car and Harry had a nice conversation with my son instead of me. But once we recover, we get into Harry Muff’s Disco, how he almost got divorced collecting props for a music video for one of his songs, and his connection to my project. You’ll learn more about it in the episode, but it’s a Spinal Tap tribute album for The Who’s Teen Cancer America charity. I’ll be releasing more info about it as we inch closer to the release of the Spinal Tap Sequel and the album release.
In the meantime, go to harryostrem.com or Harry Muff’s Disco on Youtube to check out HArry’s music/comedy. Follow us @PerformanceAnx on social media. Support us at ko-fi.com/performanceanxiety and performanceanx.threadless.com. And keep watching our accounts and Teen Cancer America for updates on the Spinal Tap Tribute album project. Now enjoy Harry Ostrem on Performance Anxiety on the Pantheon Podcast Network.
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Today’s guest reminds me why I do this podcast. It’s Lance Whalen and we met because all he did was make a nice comment about one of my episodes. That’s it. I thought “Hey, let me check out this guy’s music” and I suggested we record an episode. Lance’s story gets very difficult at times. And he hits me with some straight up sorrow out of the blue. But everything he’s had to endure has gone into some tremendous music. It’s also gone into some music that he’s trying to erase from the internet. 
But not everything is sad. In fact, Lance has a great DIY outlook on just about everything! He has recorded upwards of 40 songs using the podcast studio at his local library. That’s brilliant! He also tells me how he had to search to find his own voice, writing and performing. Then Lance turns the tables on me and starts asking some questions about the podcast and photography. 
Recently Lance has changed his philosophy on music; how and when it should be released. He definitely recognizes the shifts in the business and is quickly adapting. That’s part of the beauty of being independent. 
Check out Lance’s music on YouTube and streaming platforms. He may start putting stuff out on Bandcamp. You just never know. Give him a follow @lancewhalen on Instagram. Go to lancewhalen.com for more links, including his Patreon page. Follow us @PerformanceAnx on socials. Our merch is located at performanceanx.threadless.com. Our fuel is coffee, which you can provide at ko-fi.com/performanceanxiety. Now here’s Lance Whalen on Performance Anxiety, part of the Pantheon Podcast Network. Check it out.
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Today’s guest reminds me that not everyone is born at the right time. My guest is singer/songwriter Stephen Bluhm. To say he is an old soul is an understatement of the highest degree. I mean, the man put a heckelphone on his latest album. Don’t know what that is? Stephen does! And he explains it on the podcast. His latest release, Out Of The Nowhere. Into The Here, throws it WAAAAAY back. It’s a brave album in so many ways and once you give it a shot, you’ll know exactly what I mean. But this album was started several years ago. In fact, he began writing this and his debut album at the same time. But Out Of The Nowhere took awhile to come out. You can probably guess why. 
Stephen is influenced by luminaries like Stephen Sondheim and Nick Cave. And they both find a comfortable place in Stephen’s music. And he said he has no plans of writing the same album twice. If you listen to his first two releases, you can tell he means it. But enough bumpin gums! Go grab Out Of The Nowhere. Into The Here wherever you guys and dolls listen on the virtual ether. Pick it up on Bandcamp or check out stephenbluhm.fun! It won’t be a trip for biscuits! And you can be aces by ponying up some shekels for a cuppa giddyup at ko.fi.com/performanceanxiety. You can also get yer boots on and check out threadless.com/performanceanx for some zooted out threads. And don’t forget to follow us @PerformanceAnx on the socials. Enough frisking the whiskers, check out this real clambake with Stephen Bluhm on Performance Anxiety. Part of the Pantheon Podcast Network.
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