This is the story of my life as I live it.
Week by week, state by state, you'll see me at my best and worst.
I listen to these later, and I reflect on my own experiences and my own thoughts.
It's an interesting thing to do, and you're welcome to partake.
The world is playing a beautiful melody no one is listening to, and I'm trying my best to listen.
When everything is silent, we find the peace to really listen.
Welcome to the clarity of the night.
Welcome to the story of my life.
Week 108: More Structure
I went through the situation in my mind a million times. How this thing could have affected that, how when I did this that happened. How he might have been joking, how he was, how he was also crazy.
There's more structure now, for sure. I craved it, have been craving it and am very glad for it.
I'm glad for it.
Week 107: Open the door
My housemate's gone mad.
Week 106: Punch to the Heart
Recorded on the 5th of November 2020. Felt like a good day. Regaining flow.
I just got off the phone with my grandfather now. And was just present with him. Sunday 8th of November 4:37 pm.
It's good to have him in my life, who knows how long I'll have him for.
Things speak to me at night. And I speak to myself.
Formulating sentences, putting them together. Thinking it all through. I wish I could dedicate all my time to my art. But I am going through what I need to, should and have to go through as it all comes together.
I think of her, always. But not all the time.
Regaining the self.
Anger. A consistency. A rage.
Week 105: After Party
Can't be too bothered.
Week 104: Life is nice
24th of October 2020
2 years now, on the dot. I had nice dreams last night. A priestess on an oval boat.
My Life: Week 103
I recorded this week on my phone, at different times and segments after doing things and throughout all of it.
I find it a much more interesting way to do it if I want to keep a real time journal I can look back to and reflect on.
Reflected on why pure reflection is considered the highest form of intelligence, even if someone isn't 'smart'. (11 minutes) Didn't come to any real answer.
Started new job
Got back into a nice rhythm
Went to Hamburg and saw Dennis and Jan for the weekend
Now I'm back (2-3 minutes)