Lara-ism Lara Monica B. Magat

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: Self-harm
In this episode, I shared what I went through yesterday after harming myself. 

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: Suicidal Ideation Last night, I had a moment of severe depression. I broke down. But I reminded myself that it was just a symptom of my disorder. I thought of sharing it in case anyone is feeling the same. If that's you, here's a HUG.

In this episode, I shared what I've been going through while in a depressive episode. I've realized during therapy that I've been too harsh on myself lately so it's nice to be reminded to be kinder to myself, to let myself be because I'm not doing okay right now. I just need to do what I can at the moment to get by. Survive now, thrive later.

First episode of the year is a salad of things. I talked about 1) how officially, my diagnosis is bipolar disorder type 1 (not type 2) and the consequent medication adjustment, 2) how I've been coping, while still in a depressive episode, but now able to function enough to work half days, 3) how we don't have be optimistic all the time especially during this pandemic, the same way that we shouldn't tell people to see their trauma as a good thing because it's what made them who they are today and lastly, 4) how one of my childhood trauma is affecting my relationship and my perception of marriage. Whew! I hope you get something out of that chaos.

A short tribute to those who are spending the holiday season alone or in whatever other unconventional way. I SEE YOU. It’s okay. There’s nothing wrong with you.

Fresh from a therapy session, I recorded to share an epiphany about my diagnosis (as Bipolar Type 1 Disorder). In this episode, I focused on the other pole of the spectrum, that is Mania. I shared examples of manic behavior, which include my own. This, yet again, is another reminder that not all mental health disorders are extreme. Sometimes, they may seem like simple and normal behaviors, so don't be quick to judge people.