SELFWIFE Ani Easton Baker

**CW- child abuse, sexual assault, body dysmorphia and disordered eating are discussed**

Telling you some stories about how the male gaze was made the center of my life by my m*m since toddlerhood, what that's led to in adulthood, and how I've seen the light now (and want you to, as well) .

this episode is for the folks whose families hinder instead of help them // topics include: how to stay motivated, how to allow yourself to create if you don't come from creative people, the two dudes who made me believe i could make documentaries, continuing to create against odds and my decision not to make anything else until i'm out of student loan debt

Will I ever not get sick to my stomach about marketing my work? Other topics discussed: Anxiety! Alcohol! Contrast! Leaving my phone outside overnight and having deep realizations! Just listen to the episode.

topics discussed:
getting an agent in LA
auditioning
the commercial i booked
being called a blank canvas
BEING a blank canvas
unlearning being a blank canvas
allowing new (old) inspiration in
thoughts on
tori amos
stop making sense
tom waits
catching up with the world

Topics Discussed:

Making my first Happy List at age 31

New therapist

Creating small avenues to joy

Being a reformed pick me

The impact of your primary caretakers putting your needs last

What we can learn from narcissists

Changing my phone number two days before my birthday

Eating the earth

My changing tastebuds

Not dieting, but teaching myself about food

Being in the beginning stages of holding the boundaries I’ve developed

On episode 24 of SELFWIFE, I'm joined by my lifelong friend Coleen who grew up in the same very small, very strange, very fundamentalist Christian church that I did. In this ep we remember the good, the bad and the embarrassing - like performing at the local mall in a kids' Christian choir called "SOOL" but pronounced "soul" ☹️