157 - Insights from the hardcore BDSM practice Open To Happiness

In this episode Nicoleta explores sexuality and happiness with the author of EXODAI Elizabeth Hendrick, British national living in Tokyo.
 
Happiness as the 100% contentment with who you are
Starting life in a happy loving family 
Discovering interest in girls at puberty
Fantasies of bondage at the age of 10
Identified as a lesbian at 13
Discomfort within due ingrained religious conditioning
Feeling miserable with own sexuality
Unconsciously attracting dysfunctional relationship 
Hitting the rock bottom at 35
7 years of seeking and self-discovery
How religion and politics shapes our perception of sexual fluidity
The myth that being gay is an abomination before God
Why is BDSM still stigmatised and misunderstood?
How 50 Shades of Grey is not a real representation of BDSM
Theories linking birthing process and BDSM
BDSM as an innate experience
The euphoria in the addiction to torture
Pain as a strong source of arousal in sadomasochism
Sexual (dis)harmony between a BDSM and not non BDSM partners
Fulfilling unmet needs outside of the relationship
The codependency in bending to please the BDSM partner 
In love and tortured by a sadistic Japanese dominatrix
Hardcore BDSM torture to bruises and cuts
The delusion of saving the dominatrix from her demons
The unconscious guilt and shame fuelling self-loathing
When BDSM becomes a vehicle to therapy and healing
Self-awareness that the disconnect over the sexuality led to self-punishment
The symbolism and hidden message of dreaming
Past live regression as a channel to relieve burdening emotions
Coming out from darkness into self-love, gratitude and mindfulness
Sharing the experience in the memoir book EXODAI
 
Find out more about Elizabeth here: https://exodai.co.uk/
Order the EXODAI book here: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CJDKPZMT