Different, not broken

Lauren "L2" Howard
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Different, not broken

You’ve spent your whole life feeling like something’s wrong with you. Here’s a radical thought: what if you’re not broken - just different? Welcome to Different, Not Broken, the no-filter, emotionally intelligent, occasionally sweary podcast that challenges the idea that we all have to fit inside neat little boxes to be acceptable. Hosted by L2 (aka Lauren Howard), founder of LBee Health, this show dives into the real, raw and ridiculous sides of being neurodivergent, introverted, chronically underestimated - and still completely worthy. Expect deeply honest conversations about identity, autism, ADHD, gender, work, grief, anxiety and everything in between. There’ll be tears, dead dad jokes, side quests, and a whole lot of swearing. Whether you're neurodivergent, neurotypical, or just human and tired of pretending to be someone you’re not, this space is for you. Come for the chaos. Stay for the catharsis. Linger for the dead Dad jokes.

  1. 5D AGO

    Find yourself needing to mask at events? Here's how I avoid it.

    Have you ever caught yourself rehearsing your 'acceptable' self before walking into a room full of strangers? You know — slapping on that thin, artificial smile, smoothing out every quirk for the comfort of everyone else, and realizing you’re running a (very professional) version of a one-person Broadway show called, “Make Me Palatable”? Hi, I’m Lauren Howard (People call me "L2"), and this week on "Different, Not Broken", we’re pressing record on a conversation most of us never have out loud: Do you find yourself needing to wear a mask? In this episode, I admit something that surprised even me: I almost never have to mask anymore. Freedom, right? But — plot twist — it turns out that’s not because I’m some brave authenticity unicorn. So, what happens when a self-declared, professional non-masker lands in the exact kind of 'grown-up' cocktail hour her younger self would’ve run from? Let’s just say it involves neurodivergent pre-planning, existential dread, and exactly zero interest in “introducing myself to some stranger just because that’s what adults do.” If you’ve ever felt like the real you is just a bit too much (or not enough) for the room, this one’s for you. (P.S. If you find a secret trick for ordering drinks like a normal adult at a work party, please message me. For science.) Useful linksJoin our Patreon community - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/patreon Sign up for our updates - http://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/newsletter Timestamped summary00:00 Selective Social Engagement 05:04 "Fashionably Late Party Entrance" 09:24 First Impressions Evolve Quickly 10:57 "Obligations and Friendship Dynamics" 15:16 Ending Calls Unconventionally 17:06 "Ending Conversations Simply" Mentioned in this episode: Join our Patreon Have you signed up for our Patreon yet? Our Patreon

    23 min

  2. JUN 4

    Autism registry? RFK can suck a lawnmower!

    Yep, I'm back, caffeinated and undeterred, ready to take on the swirling mess of “autism registries,” junk science, and that perennial fixture of Twitter meltdowns: RFK Jr. himself. This week’s episode - “Autism Registry - RFK can suck a lawnmower.” It's not for the faint of heart—or for anyone who thinks the federal government has a “big red medical record button” (newsflash: it doesn’t). Are you exhausted by the flood of misinformation around autism and tired of policymakers who couldn’t diagnose a runny nose, let alone understand complex neurodiversity? I've got your back. I've been running national mental and behavioral health organizations, helping autistic folks get real, accessible diagnoses, and pushing for patient-first, clinician-also-first, accessible-always care. And I'm not here for the fantasy that “good autistics” and “bad autistics” are some kind of moral spectrum, or to let anyone label people as “burdens” because a guy with a microphone doesn’t understand science. This episode pulls back the curtain on why the proposed national “autism registry” isn’t just misguided, but fundamentally impossible. Listen as I call out the shadow incentives behind these political crusades—why it’s less about public health than…well, padding the pockets of a few very persistent anti-vaxxers. It’s market research, not science, dressed up like a crusade. And it comes directly at the expense of real autistic people who are already fighting for space, resources, and dignity. If you’re wondering how these hot takes at the top reach deep into everyday community life—shaping infighting, stoking fear, and making the realities of being autistic even harder—you'll be wanting to listen. And, as always, we'll answer a question from our community in our "Small Talk" segment. Ready? Press play. Spark some hope. And get the real story. Ready to join our Patreon community? - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/patreon Signed up to our newsletter yet? - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/newsletter Timestamped summary02:00 Eugenics Rhetoric - Ugh! 05:17 Autism Registry Data Mismanagement 07:36 Inaccessible Universal Medical Data 13:11 Flawed Data Sharing Assumptions Exposed 15:33 Debunking Autism-Vaccine Myth 17:40 RFK's Vaccine Injury Profit Motive 21:41 Handling Unwanted Job Discussions 25:23 "Truck Driver's Evasive Answer" Mentioned in this episode: Sign Up For Our Newsletter Stay updated on all the things! Get added to our newsletter mailing list. Newsletter

    27 min

  3. MAY 30 · BONUS

    Analytics Anxiety: Why Numbers Make Me Sweat

    I’m obsessed with my own podcast stats. There! I said it. If the first step is admitting you have a problem, then…well, consider this episode my very public confession. But here’s the real kicker: I never saw this coming. I didn’t realize hitting 'refresh' on the analytics page of my podcast hosting dashboard would become my new form of adrenaline. Or that watching the listener count go up (or, terrifyingly, down) would trigger a rollercoaster of feelings straight out of a neurotic coming-of-age movie starring a main character who really needs to learn to enjoy the ride. If you’ve been following along on Threads or ever found yourself spiraling because you suddenly cared way too much about something you didn’t even know you could care about? This episode is about stats, ego, validation, self-doubt, and, yes, generational trauma—all tangled up with the anxious humor only someone with a dedicated “kinahura” detector can provide. I talk about what it’s like to watch the numbers climb (and sometimes fall), and how ego, imposter syndrome, and a hefty sense of “why are you all here again?” combine to create the weirdest kind of nervous excitement imaginable. Thanks for being here, friends (repeat listeners, you’re my favorite kind of statistical anomaly). Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to refresh the analytics—again. Love you, mean it.

    7 min

  4. MAY 28

    Behavioral health - why does it have to be so hard?

    Why is behavioral health so impossibly hard to access, navigate, and survive—especially if you’re wired a bit differently? Maybe you’ve asked yourself that before. We have too. Heck, we’ve made a whole business (and apparently, a whole podcast) out of asking exactly that: Why does it have to be so hard? Welcome to “Different, Not Broken”—the podcast where bureaucratic tangles, soul-draining waitlists, and “bring your own magic decoder ring” healthcare red tape get ripped apart, re-examined, and (when possible) outsmarted. I’m Lauren "L2" Howard and I can promise you this: In this episode, I peel back the curtain and share how a simple (if stubbornly repeated) question—"Why does this have to be so difficult?"—became the engine for everything I do. Clinical dead-ends? Check. Six-month waits and insurance mazes for autism and ADHD care? Rechecked. People winding up in the ER instead of finding someone who could actually help, before the crisis boiled over? Double-checked and regrettably, deeply familiar. But what if you didn’t have to run that gauntlet? What if someone just built a bridge? When my team and I ran face-first into the “that’s impossible” wall, we started looking for secret doors. Sometimes, all it took was radical honesty and a burning refusal to accept the status quo. PLUS: In this week’s small talk, the community asks, “How do I answer, ‘Tell me about yourself?’ without feeling like I’m humble-bragging my way to nowhere?” Hit that follow button, share with your friends, or drop us a note about your own impossible-seeming battle with the system. Every listen helps us make it just a little less hard for the next person. And if you need daily reminders that you’re good enough, weird enough, and human enough—even without a signed diagnosis? You know where to find us. Let’s make behavioral health make sense… for all of us. I'll talk to you as soon as you click play... Timestamped summary00:00 Access Barriers in Mental Health 04:32 Simplifying Crisis Care Access 07:19 Streamlining Adult Autism Testing 10:23 Streamlining Healthcare Processes 14:44 "Rethinking Autism Diagnosis Necessity" 17:11 "You Deserve Softness and Light" 20:17 "Championing Self-Accomplishment Over Stereotypes" Links to all our goodies: Patreon - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/patreon Newsletter - http://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/newsletter Mentioned in this episode: Sign Up For Our Newsletter Stay updated on all the things! Get added to our newsletter mailing list. Newsletter Join our Patreon Have you joined our Patreon community yet? Our Patreon

    24 min

  5. MAY 21

    The fear of asking 'stupid questions'.

    Why you have to ask the 'stupid' questions. Seriously. And, Freud's boring. Not opinion. Actual science.Now, I know what you’re thinking: “But, L2, I’d rather set my hair on fire than look clueless in front of a room full of people (or, for that matter, one person I secretly—or not-so-secretly—want to impress).”   Hi! I’m Lauren Howard (but you can call me L2—everyone does), and this is Different, Not Broken—the podcast for anyone who’s ever wondered if they’re the only person who can’t quite read between the lines. Spoiler: you’re not alone, and you definitely aren’t broken. Today, we’re taking on one of the stickiest, sweatiest, most universal social anxieties: the fear of looking 'dumb' by asking questions everyone else must already know the answer to. (You know, the questions you furiously Google at 1am because—let’s be honest—Google is not here for your nuanced, deeply personal, extremely context-specific conversational crisis.) We’re talking about the actual reason it feels like everyone else in the room knows what’s expected. Except you. And more importantly, why the people who seem the smartest might actually be as confused as you are. Come for the reminders that communication isn’t one-size-fits-all; stay for the dead dad jokes, the unfiltered storytelling, and the small but mighty nuggets that might just make life make a little more sense. Plus—Patreon insiders get access to our text line for real-time social script help. It’s a thing. It’s working. You’re invited. Here's the link - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/patreon If you’ve ever second-guessed yourself out of asking for what you need, or just want to feel less alone in a world full of unsaid rules, press play on this episode. P.S. Oh yeah... if you want to learn how trauma, grief, and novelty work in your brain—and how repetition is the magic ingredient for making even the worst things boring in the end—don’t skip the final ten minutes. For the Freud stuff. Plus, you might catch a glimpse of the Dungeons & Dragons/DSM-5 crossover you never knew you needed. IYKYK. Hit play. You have questions. So do we. Turns out, that’s actually the point. Timestamped summary03:13 Just Ask 08:47 Encourage Open Communication 09:48 Embrace Reactions, Clarify Boundaries 15:04 Wartime Child Evacuations in WWII 17:28 Brain Processes Trauma Repetitively 21:40 Dungeons and Dragons? WTF? Want in on our mailing list so you can keep updated on all the cool stuff we're doing? (I can't promise I won't just email you about Marvel stuff) - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/newsletter Mentioned in this episode: Join the Patreon Different, not broken Patreon -  https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/patreon Our Patreon Sign Up For Our Newsletter Stay updated on all the things! Get added to our newsletter mailing list. Newsletter

    24 min

  6. MAY 14

    A paycheck is not a permission slip for abuse

    I'm saying it out loud - a paycheck is not a permission slip for abuse.I added some bullhorn for effect. Hey, It’s "Different, Not Broken", and I’m Lauren Howard — "L2" if you’re friendly or just prefer to keep things efficient. And I’m here to shatter one of the workplace’s worst-kept secrets: the idea that a direct deposit into your bank account means you have to swallow abuse, keep quiet, and thank your lucky stars someone’s tolerating you. Spoiler alert — it doesn’t. But it’s not all righteous fire and rage-quits around here. I’ve been there—trapped, anxious, warped by a job that paid my rent but cost me chunks of my mental health. If you’re reading this, odds are, you’ve been there too, or you’re not sure if you have…which, as I’ll tell you, is usually its own answer. So, what’s in this episode? If you’re tired of advice that boils down to “just quit!” (as if you can pay your landlord in righteous anger), or if gut-level honesty about workplace dysfunction is your jam, you’re in the right place. We’ll cover survival tactics for the in-the-trenches folks, whether you’re just trying to outlast management’s latest round of corporate "Hunger Games" or you’re documenting every microaggression just in case you need to lawyer up. You’ll hear how to find and fortify your safe spaces (even if one is just the friend who knows exactly what your "dunk” is), and why no, actually, you shouldn’t have to choose between sanity and survival. It’s not just you. You deserve to feel safe at work—like, day-one safe, “where’s the fire exit” safe, not “will HR gaslight me if I bring this up” safe. Because most of us need our jobs, but none of us need to be broken by them. And because finding one small, practical step of control can be the thing that gets you through another day (or the thing that lights the spark that starts real change). Oh, and if you needed one more reason? If you’ve ever needed to scream into the void that you really, truly deserve better—or just want to hear me call out corporate bullsh*t with the gusto it deserves—you’re our people. Hop in. As always, we’ll be loud. We’ll be real. We’ll be here—different, not broken. And by the end of the episode, you might just believe it a little more. (PS: If you know where to find a magical “donk” for your phone charger, or a support group of people who just get your weird sound-laden language, don’t keep it to yourself. Some of us are still looking.) Listen now. Let yourself feel seen. And remember: A paycheck is not a permission slip for abuse. Ever. Timestamps:04:05 You're Entitled to Safety at Work 07:14 Navigating Job Mobility and Abuse 10:13 Document Your Experiences, Consult Legal Help 15:21 You Deserve Better: Recognize Abuse Mentioned in this episode: Join the Patreon Different, not broken Patreon -  https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/patreon Our Patreon Sign Up For Our Newsletter Stay updated on all the things! Get added to our newsletter mailing list. Newsletter

    21 min

  7. MAY 7

    Professionalism - a white supremacist scam for your imposter syndrome

    Welcome to "Different, not broken." I’m Lauren Howard—most people call me L2—and I’m here to shake up everything you think you know about 'professionalism'. In this episode, I’m explaining why professionalism, as it’s sold to us, is pretty much bullshit. We’re told we have to fit this narrow, stuffy standard to survive in the workplace, but let’s be real: that standard was designed to exclude anyone who isn’t a 45-year-old white guy. I talk about how, especially in mental health and helping professions, there’s this weird expectation that you should be neutral and never challenge harmful ideologies—even when those beliefs are actively hurting people and keeping them from accessing care. Spoiler alert: I don’t subscribe to that. You’ll hear stories from my own life—yes, including plenty more 'dead Dad jokes' around my memories of running my Dad’s practice. Also, for our little side-quest, I'll talk about why imposter syndrome creeps up on us, and why you’re probably a lot more qualified than you feel. If you’ve ever felt like you don’t belong, that you’re making it up as you go, or that your path wasn’t 'professional' enough, you’re in good company. Let’s throw out the old rules together and celebrate exactly who we are—tabs open, messy stories, and all. Companies mentioned in this episode: Toyota Hyundai Honda Elon Musk Newsletter In case the link is broken, you can hop on our newsletter at https://www.lbeehealth.com/ and I really think you should. Mentioned in this episode: Sign Up For Our Newsletter Stay updated on all the things! Get added to our newsletter mailing list. Newsletter Join the Patreon Different, not broken Patreon -  https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/patreon Our Patreon

    20 min

  8. APR 30

    You're not supposed to be here and other Dad wisdom

    The world often feels rigged. And this episode is a wake-up call to recognize the barriers that exist for those who don’t fit the traditional mold. In this episode, which is a kind of tribute to my dear departed Dad, I recount some powerful lessons from the man who was a brilliant psychiatrist and my biggest champion. He taught me that if something feels off about the environment you’re in, it probably is—and it’s absolutely hella-not your fault. We dare to break into the uncomfortable truth that many workplaces are designed for a very specific demographic, leaving neurodivergent individuals, particularly those on the autism spectrum, feeling excluded. I share three stories in which my Dad imparted to me more than my fair share of his wisdom, and I'm hoping you to can feel empowered. You'll learn that we can advocate for ourselves and others to create a more inclusive work culture. Newsletter Paste this into your browser if the newsletter link is broken - https://www.lbeehealth.com/ Join our Patreon - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/patreon Mentioned in this episode: Sign Up For Our Newsletter Stay updated on all the things! Get added to our newsletter mailing list. Newsletter Join the Patreon Different, not broken Patreon -  https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/patreon Our Patreon

    30 min
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You’ve spent your whole life feeling like something’s wrong with you. Here’s a radical thought: what if you’re not broken - just different? Welcome to Different, Not Broken, the no-filter, emotionally intelligent, occasionally sweary podcast that challenges the idea that we all have to fit inside neat little boxes to be acceptable. Hosted by L2 (aka Lauren Howard), founder of LBee Health, this show dives into the real, raw and ridiculous sides of being neurodivergent, introverted, chronically underestimated - and still completely worthy. Expect deeply honest conversations about identity, autism, ADHD, gender, work, grief, anxiety and everything in between. There’ll be tears, dead dad jokes, side quests, and a whole lot of swearing. Whether you're neurodivergent, neurotypical, or just human and tired of pretending to be someone you’re not, this space is for you. Come for the chaos. Stay for the catharsis. Linger for the dead Dad jokes.

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    Lauren "L2" Howard
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