5 episodes

A husband and wife embark on a journey of catharsis and reflection as they read an old diary chronicling the struggles of an undiagnosed autistic teenager growing up with reality TV's Duggar family and fundamentalist Christianity. Through laughter and tears, they deconstruct the past in an entertaining and unvarnished examination of a unique upbringing.

I Pray You Put This Journal Away I Pray You Put This Journal Away

    • Society & Culture
    • 4.9 • 332 Ratings

A husband and wife embark on a journey of catharsis and reflection as they read an old diary chronicling the struggles of an undiagnosed autistic teenager growing up with reality TV's Duggar family and fundamentalist Christianity. Through laughter and tears, they deconstruct the past in an entertaining and unvarnished examination of a unique upbringing.

    S01 Episode 05: Run With the Wolves

    S01 Episode 05: Run With the Wolves

    In our final episode of the season, we discuss our love story, the slow process of moving on, discovering autism, and what it means to run with the wolves.

    • 40 min
    S01 Episode 04: Being Human

    S01 Episode 04: Being Human

    In part one of our final session, we laugh and cry as we discuss burning passions, the weight of doubt, and what it means to fully embrace our humanity.

    • 1 hr 38 min
    S01 Episode 03: Shame & Betrayal

    S01 Episode 03: Shame & Betrayal

    In a very personal episode, we unpack the impact of shame and self-punishment, recall how a friendship ended in betrayed trust, and discuss why the traumatic profiteering behind popular reality shows needs to end.

    • 1 hr 23 min
    S01 Episode 02: The Trauma Machine

    S01 Episode 02: The Trauma Machine

    We react to Josh Duggar's bond hearing, continue reading journal entries, and break down how fundamentalism exploits the vulnerable in order to reserve power for a select few.

    • 1 hr 16 min
    S01 Episode 01: Duggars & JCPenney

    S01 Episode 01: Duggars & JCPenney

    In this introductory episode, the process of opening up begins with a serious (and occasionally lighthearted) look at the journal's first entries. We discuss the first Duggar meeting as well as early indicators of struggle with Josh. Family bands, JCPenney catalogs, home church, and congregational confession are discussed.

    • 1 hr 59 min

Customer Reviews

4.9 out of 5
332 Ratings

332 Ratings

FLAPPY FACE STRIKES AGAIN ,

Relatable!

I grew up very conservative but liberal for fundie circles.

This brought back a lot of memories and I’m glad I’m not the only one who experienced such a childhood.

StellaB75 ,

Great Podcast, Great Podcasters

This was a wonderful series - super engaging, interesting and well-paced. If you’re in the fundie snark community or just enjoy listening to good storytellers, you’ll love this. I beg Justin and Julia to keep podcasting. I totally understand and respect that this was a difficult journey and I’m grateful they’re shared it with us, I just selfishly enjoy their storytelling and so much and would love it if they continued podcasting. It doesn’t have to be about the Duggars, but the other parts of their journeys and everyday life. 10/10!

lmsuchn ,

So very moving

As a former homeschooler and fundamentalist Christian, thank you so much for sharing your story. I “woke up” about 4 years ago right after I had my two kids. Listening to your story has been so validating. I wasn’t crazy all along. I wish I could go back and reassure myself as a child that there was nothing wrong with me. I resonated with pretty much everything you had to say.

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