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2002-01-08 Carole Diary Carole Baskins Diary

    • Personal Journals

Peter Kent Letter to Carole


I am having a real tough time with my memory for the past two days; today was a terrible day for me.   I was very unproductive, and very forgetful.  While I got the work done it could have been finished by now, and, I kept forgetting things all day.   I felt 'low' all day.  I am embittered by this Jew in Sarasota that refuses to pay me thus far, and, some times I am not real proud of myself for being a handyman.  Today I could not get 'off' that position.  I think I had about two good hours, after, 4:00 the rest of the day was spent thinking how tired I was and that I will not be able to do this kind of stuff too much longer.  I need to feel good about who I am again.   While YOU make me extremely happy, YOU are all I want in a mate and that is more than 50% of my requirements to be complete; there is still the fact that I need to be content with myself, to be proud of where I am in life.   Surely I could put this in better words, at the moment I cannot.  Love, PK


 


The apartment is going to look great.  I am changing the color of the verticals in front and the grill work, it will make a big difference.   I like doing that kind of stuff, however, it is petty compared to the knowledge I have and intensity to do bigger things; things that have rewards other than monetary.  While I agreed with your stance a few days ago regarding direction, it left out the leading of my spirit.   Truly you are the first female in my life that I have ever listened to; you were right, however, I need the fulfillment of a bigger picture, a contribution to mankind sort of.   Today I am hurting; not physically, just hurting in my being, wanting to be more.  I am frustrated without having any power at all.  I am talking to you and thinking about all this at the same time.  I do not know what else to say right now.  Please know that I love you, what I suffer from today is not fatal.  Love, PK


 


I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views.  If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story.  The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/


 


I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story.  My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet. 


 


You can help feed the cats at no cost to you using Amazon Smile!


Visit BigCatRescue.org/Amazon-smile


 


You can see photos, videos and more, updated daily at BigCatRescue.org


 


Check out our main channel at YouTube.com/BigCatRescue


 


Music (if any) from Epidemic Sound (http://www.epidemicsound.com) This video is for entertainment purposes only and is my opinion.

Peter Kent Letter to Carole


I am having a real tough time with my memory for the past two days; today was a terrible day for me.   I was very unproductive, and very forgetful.  While I got the work done it could have been finished by now, and, I kept forgetting things all day.   I felt 'low' all day.  I am embittered by this Jew in Sarasota that refuses to pay me thus far, and, some times I am not real proud of myself for being a handyman.  Today I could not get 'off' that position.  I think I had about two good hours, after, 4:00 the rest of the day was spent thinking how tired I was and that I will not be able to do this kind of stuff too much longer.  I need to feel good about who I am again.   While YOU make me extremely happy, YOU are all I want in a mate and that is more than 50% of my requirements to be complete; there is still the fact that I need to be content with myself, to be proud of where I am in life.   Surely I could put this in better words, at the moment I cannot.  Love, PK


 


The apartment is going to look great.  I am changing the color of the verticals in front and the grill work, it will make a big difference.   I like doing that kind of stuff, however, it is petty compared to the knowledge I have and intensity to do bigger things; things that have rewards other than monetary.  While I agreed with your stance a few days ago regarding direction, it left out the leading of my spirit.   Truly you are the first female in my life that I have ever listened to; you were right, however, I need the fulfillment of a bigger picture, a contribution to mankind sort of.   Today I am hurting; not physically, just hurting in my being, wanting to be more.  I am frustrated without having any power at all.  I am talking to you and thinking about all this at the same time.  I do not know what else to say right now.  Please know that I love you, what I suffer from today is not fatal.  Love, PK


 


I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views.  If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story.  The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/


 


I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story.  My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet. 


 


You can help feed the cats at no cost to you using Amazon Smile!


Visit BigCatRescue.org/Amazon-smile


 


You can see photos, videos and more, updated daily at BigCatRescue.org


 


Check out our main channel at YouTube.com/BigCatRescue


 


Music (if any) from Epidemic Sound (http://www.epidemicsound.com) This video is for entertainment purposes only and is my opinion.

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