She Left With $350, Her Daughter, and No Plan. It Was Still Better Than Staying | Nika Keilani

She had been trying to leave for years. It took a knife above her head to finally make it the last time.

In today's episode, Haley sits down with Nika Keilani, founder of Sacred Sisterhood retreats in Mexico, to talk about what it actually takes to walk away from nine years inside a narcissistic relationship when you have no money, nowhere to go, and a daughter watching everything.

What starts as a story about leaving becomes a conversation about addiction, survival, plant medicine, and what it means to rebuild a life from scratch in a foreign country with nothing but trust.

• How Nika spent six years in a secluded mountain property, isolated and unable to leave, until the suicidal thoughts became her only visible way out
• The night he pulled a knife, and the stranger across the hall who opened her door and changed the course of everything
• Starting over in Mexico with $350, washing sheets in the shower, eating potatoes and avocado for months, and her daughter training six hours of martial arts a day to protect her
• How ayahuasca gave Nika the vision she had never had before, and why that vision was the thing that finally made going back unthinkable
• The friends who chose him when she left, the guilt she still carries about her daughter, and the moment she screamed into a pillow and felt the last chain finally break
• Crying in a supermarket over four bananas because she still felt guilty asking for what she needed, and why that is what healing inside an abusive relationship actually looks like

This one isn't just about narcissistic abuse or leaving. It's about what it costs a woman to stay so long she forgets she is allowed to want things, and what it takes to trust the universe enough to jump anyway.

About Nika:Nika Keilani left a nine-year narcissistic relationship with only $350 and her daughter, choosing uncertainty in Mexico over staying in a situation that was slowly killing her. She now runs Sacred Sisterhood retreats in Mexico with her daughter Manela, holding space for women's transformation through ceremony, plant medicine, and deep healing work. She is also developing an app to help people resolve shame, guilt, and anger from abusive relationships. Her story is still being written, and she is finally the one holding the pen.

Connect with Nika:

• Instagram: @nika.keilani
• Website: www.nikakeilani.com

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