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You have found a podcast about surviving life after a suicide loss, which is nothing short of devastating, leaving you not knowing how to begin picking up the leftover pieces of your shattered heart. The host, Melissa Bottorff-Arey, who lost her 21-year-old son Alex to suicide on August 7, 2016, speaks to this from her own experiences. You will hear her have honest, hard conversations with other loss survivors, healers, and mental health experts on the podcast. She also produces shorter, solo episodes where she shares her own thoughts & experiences in this journey (thus far). She explores relevant topics and asks the hard questions. Nothing is 'off limit' as she delves into all areas of this grief, such as trauma, hope, healing, self-care, legacy & stigma. Melissa believes we learn to live alongside our grief, not get over it. We can make a difference only through authentic, meaningful connections and mindful choices. For a supporter or educator, these conversations hold nuggets of awareness and shine a spotlight on suicide and grief honestly and unapologetically. As a suicide loss griever, one can find the comfort of a community and hope for a little brighter tomorrow. Melissa wants to help others, like herself, go from surviving to finding a life with meaning, maybe even happiness, amid their own leftover pieces.
[Please NOTE: This podcast is for only relational, informational, and entertainment purposes. It candidly and openly discusses sensitive and sometimes activating topics. There will be no in-depth or graphic descriptions of the method, but merely the possible mention of suicide, murder, rape, and the like. Be guided and care for yourself accordingly. Also, Melissa is not a doctor or licensed therapist, and nothing on this podcast should be taken in place of, or as, medical/mental health advice or recommendations.]

The Leftover Pieces; Suicide Loss Conversations Melissa Bottorff-Arey

    • Health & Fitness
    • 4.9 • 59 Ratings

You have found a podcast about surviving life after a suicide loss, which is nothing short of devastating, leaving you not knowing how to begin picking up the leftover pieces of your shattered heart. The host, Melissa Bottorff-Arey, who lost her 21-year-old son Alex to suicide on August 7, 2016, speaks to this from her own experiences. You will hear her have honest, hard conversations with other loss survivors, healers, and mental health experts on the podcast. She also produces shorter, solo episodes where she shares her own thoughts & experiences in this journey (thus far). She explores relevant topics and asks the hard questions. Nothing is 'off limit' as she delves into all areas of this grief, such as trauma, hope, healing, self-care, legacy & stigma. Melissa believes we learn to live alongside our grief, not get over it. We can make a difference only through authentic, meaningful connections and mindful choices. For a supporter or educator, these conversations hold nuggets of awareness and shine a spotlight on suicide and grief honestly and unapologetically. As a suicide loss griever, one can find the comfort of a community and hope for a little brighter tomorrow. Melissa wants to help others, like herself, go from surviving to finding a life with meaning, maybe even happiness, amid their own leftover pieces.
[Please NOTE: This podcast is for only relational, informational, and entertainment purposes. It candidly and openly discusses sensitive and sometimes activating topics. There will be no in-depth or graphic descriptions of the method, but merely the possible mention of suicide, murder, rape, and the like. Be guided and care for yourself accordingly. Also, Melissa is not a doctor or licensed therapist, and nothing on this podcast should be taken in place of, or as, medical/mental health advice or recommendations.]

    Moms Leaving a Legacy; Healing, Bonding ...& a Book

    Moms Leaving a Legacy; Healing, Bonding ...& a Book

    NEW EPISODE!! Today SUNDAY, Feb 4, 2024 The Leftover Pieces; Suicide Loss Conversations Podcast officially launched Season 5 !! I am honored to be back behind the mic talking with other loss survivors and experts....so that I can share these conversations with you - fellow griever.So, yes, I AM BACK!!! AND I did take a bit of a “pause” and I can’t wait to share with you why...(psst, episode 2 tells all of the details -- or at least some!)I am launching Season 5 with this very exciting episode...

    • 53 min
    What's New Here; I Am Back & Why I Paused the Podcast

    What's New Here; I Am Back & Why I Paused the Podcast

    SUNDAY, Feb 4, The Leftover Pieces launched Season 5 with 3 new episodes ...with more coming EVERY WEEK! I am honored to be back behind the mic talking with other loss survivors and experts....so that I can share these conversations with you, fellow griever.So, yes, I AM BACK!!! AND I did take a bit of a “pause” and I can’t wait to share with you why...(psst, this episode tells why)I am launching Season 5 with a very exciting first episode directly from the book launch Zoom event for the late...

    • 22 min
    Serendipities & Synchronicities; An Essay to (My) Alex

    Serendipities & Synchronicities; An Essay to (My) Alex

    This episode (the 3rd of 3 in the initial drop of Season 5) is releasing on SUNDAY, Feb 4, 2024. I am honored to be back behind the mic talking with other loss survivors and experts....so that I can share these conversations with you, fellow griever.So, yes, I AM BACK!!! AND I did take a bit of a “pause” and I can’t wait to share with you why...(psst, episode 2 episode tells why if you haven't listened in order)THIS episode is me reading my recently published essay to (my) Alex “Serend...

    • 32 min
    Deciphering the Words People Use; Untangling Acceptance

    Deciphering the Words People Use; Untangling Acceptance

    In this episode, I go down the rabbit hole to discuss the concept of acceptance, or acceptable, as it pertains to our loss. Words can be so very tricky.I am anxious to know your feelings after you listen to this episode. Do you agree? Have you encountered this with others wondering why you can’t “accept” your loss? Is your loss acceptable to you? .I launched Season 5 last week with a very exciting first episode directly from the book launch Zoom event for the latest legacy book “Because ...

    • 16 min
    The Final Salute LLC; A Sister Honors her Brother's Life

    The Final Salute LLC; A Sister Honors her Brother's Life

    Today I am sharing a poignant & heartfelt conversation I had with an amazing woman named Jessica Timmerman. She lost her brother to suicide & everything changed. Jessica & Zach were not a typical brother and sister.... losing both of their parents before they were 18, they became each other's whole family and also the very best friends. Zach died by suicide in 2022 while serving his country (he was 15 years in when he died) - leaving Jess to pick up the pieces and figure out how t...

    • 55 min
    Mindsets, Motivation & Monkeys" Pt 1; What IF Asked Yourself THIS Question?

    Mindsets, Motivation & Monkeys" Pt 1; What IF Asked Yourself THIS Question?

    Today I go (deep) into the rabbit hole to discuss a haunting question -- haunting for anyone, but even more so for us suicide loss survivors. Everything is harder now, right? (but that's NOT the question).Sing with me “I can do hard things. I can do hard things...” (it may just be the weirdo in me, but yes, I sing it out loud to myself often ...when I feel frustrated or discouraged), and then I DO “it” -- whatever the current “it” is. Or at least TRY to. How about you? (STILL NOT THE QU...

    • 27 min

Customer Reviews

4.9 out of 5
59 Ratings

59 Ratings

Docmom3460 ,

A Friend at night who understands…

I lost my dear son to mental illness and suicide in February 2022. There are many nights when I fall asleep to the kindness of strangers and fellow itinerants on this journey. Melissa combines wisdom, learning, humor, practical tips and a sense of calm, knowing that we would all choose not to be here if we could. One of the best resources I have found, and I’ll be listening tonight….

Grieving In Ohio ,

Thank you

My world came crashing down when my youngest died unexpectedly. While faced with finding my way through the most difficult journey of my life, I stumbled across this podcast. I didn’t sign-up to be in the grieving mother club, yet here I am trying to navigate life without my son. Melissa’s podcast and book have been a blessing.

Rickeyta 222 ,

Forever 15 was my son too

Just losing my son 7/28/23 5 days prior to his 16 birthday this podcast has been a blessing for me. Just knowing and processing that I am not alone. We also have a younger son in grateful to know that our journey is normal and real. Thank you both for sharing

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