16 episodes

Nate Postlethwait became “saved” at six years old. Being saved was the guide for every decision he made for the first 30+ years of his life. The mix of a conflicting faith with the internal battle with his sexuality, meant he had a lot to discover. For decades he was deeply rooted in his southern faith which continued to obscure the complex trauma he suffered. This podcast shares those stories. From his exposure to multiple sexual abusers, the emotional and mental abuse within his faith system, to spending years in conversion therapy. It is all here. It’s an honest story. It is a story that is hopeful as it attempts to reach those who are hurting and looking for a safe way to the other side.

The Other Side of Saved Nate Postlethwait

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    • 5.0, 171 Ratings

Nate Postlethwait became “saved” at six years old. Being saved was the guide for every decision he made for the first 30+ years of his life. The mix of a conflicting faith with the internal battle with his sexuality, meant he had a lot to discover. For decades he was deeply rooted in his southern faith which continued to obscure the complex trauma he suffered. This podcast shares those stories. From his exposure to multiple sexual abusers, the emotional and mental abuse within his faith system, to spending years in conversion therapy. It is all here. It’s an honest story. It is a story that is hopeful as it attempts to reach those who are hurting and looking for a safe way to the other side.

    Episode 16. Forgiveness

    Episode 16. Forgiveness

    There is not one among us who has not experienced rejection or pain. Nobody is immune from feeling wounded by their divorce, or scarred from a meaningful friendship ending. But when we hold the other in contempt, we delay time, to avoid looking at our pain. We believe the lies that come with pain. We think we deserved it, and we inhale the self-hate, because it mirrors how we already felt about who we are. Until...

    • 16 min
    Episode 15. Conversion Therapy

    Episode 15. Conversion Therapy

    I sat across from the staff psychologist at Love In Action, the most well known conversion therapy camp in the country, while he read a psychiatric evaluation he wrote from the forms I filled out. He followed up with telling me that I did not register on the Meyers-Briggs assessment, and that I was scary to him. I sat in the puddle of shame his words passed on to me. I was 20, and had just followed all of their instructions to get prepared to make Love In Action my home for the next several months.

    • 28 min
    Episode 14. Coming Home

    Episode 14. Coming Home

    Future plans + present growth = uncharted territory. I took a sabbatical for a year to travel the world in August, 2018. In January, 2019, I came home after visiting 22 countries and seeing amazing sights and meeting even more amazing people. What happens when you listen to your deepest knowing and the universe answers, “Yes!” Take a listen and you’ll find out.

    • 30 min
    Episode 13. What is repentance?

    Episode 13. What is repentance?

    I was taught that I needed to repent to feel relief. So, I did. I was taught that I was responsible for what happened. So, I apologized to God. I was told to fall on my face acknowledging what I kept secret. And with every bend in my body, I laid it all down. What happens when repentance is not enough?

    • 25 min
    Episode 12. The life of a christian gay teen

    Episode 12. The life of a christian gay teen

    In the course of my ambition to end my life there was mercy. To this day, I can feel the despair of what my 17-year-old self was facing: the terror of wanting to be someone different, while carrying the weight of not knowing how to change but willing to try anything. I lied by saying, "Hello." I lied by saying, "Goodbye." And I lied by saying, "I love you." 

    • 20 min
    Episode 11. New year, know you.

    Episode 11. New year, know you.

    I put too much faith in bad habits and isolation. When I’m learning to speak out, reach for help, reach for growth, these parts of me that have worked so hard to preserve my secrets feel threatened and confused. I knew it was necessary to be honest.

    • 19 min

Customer Reviews

5.0 out of 5
171 Ratings

171 Ratings

amr16088 ,

Full of light!

Shame lives in darkness and this podcast brings to light the experiences that are hidden in our most protected fears.

Thank you Nate for giving voice to your traumas, that sadly are a shared experience. Looking forward to more content and healing from you.

TiffanyGlee ,

Beautiful soul

I can hear and feel the beauty of your soul just in the first two episodes. I’m so sorry it took so long for you to accept your true self!I am not gay but repressed my true self in other ways. Like you, my faith was what kept me for embracing who I truly am and loving myself. It took me way too long as well, I am now 47 and finally, FINALLY, at peace.

ljupka schwantes ,

We are not alone

Nate’s podcast presents a delicate, poignant, intimate, yet powerful “coming of age” journey. His stories remind us that it’s never too late and absolutely possible to heal and grow from the most horrific life experiences. The incredibly written episodes bring tears and feelings of sorrow, rage, angst. Yet they also show us what a remarkable turnaround one can make when we have the courage to show, discover, forgive, appreciate, love and explore ALL parts of our human experience. These honest stories provide the ultimate message of redemption, hope, love and healing. And Nate’s way with words will continue to bring you back to the reminder that you are never, ever alone.

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