The “self “ podcast “Self”

In this episode , I y’all about moving back to Spokane , after staying with my girlfriend for almost 5 months. What’s it been like transitioning back from living with my partner to living in my aunt’s basement. Being financially broke and the trials and tribulations of accepting where you’re at now isn’t where you always going to be . I also talk about my new job and how I feel this job will help my mental health journey and those who I work with .

The first part of the episode was recorded three weeks prior to the second half. I talk about my relationship with my girlfriend and how this summer I found myself seeking instant gratification outside of our relationship in a form of talking to women on tinder. In moments when I’m face with myself and made aware how my actions effected those closest to me, I start to disassociate, I use that as a method to escape the issues at hand. I’m currently making efforts to be more present in these moments and learning more about my deep conditioning that plead me since my adolescence. The second half was recorded at the summer job, I worked at for the summer and I talk about how I felt indifferent from the other workers there and also questioning there’s more to life than this?

This was a quick rant about how I feel in the moment in my life and how I’m going to value my time more .

In this episode , I recorded my three stages of consciousness before , during and after a mushroom psychedelic trip. I undercover some suppressed feelings about how I view myself. The audio gets a lil muffled in the middle of my trip .

This episode, I was on my way to work and got stuck in the snow for a good part of the episode but like in life , I kept pushing.

Hello everyone, this is the second Installment of my journal, in this episode I talk about we as an society take possession of things that we like and call it our own, but in actuality it’s for everyone. I reflect on myself acting from the “ego” and how that affects me.