A son interviews his mother about her experiences growing up as a lesbian in the Mormon church, her nightmarish journey through the LDS Conversion therapy for homosexuals, and her escape from an abusive marriage. Sandra's son also wrote, performed, and recorded the music for the series.
Episode One - Idaho Tomboy
On the first Episode Sandra recounts what she can remember from her early childhood. Growing up in the 50s as a tomboy in Idaho, before knowing what it was to be a lesbian. Being bullied, fighting back, and discovering an escape through theater.
Episode Two - Carhop & California
On the second Episode Sandra takes us from her childhood into her early adulthood. She explains how she became a convert into the Mormon religion and how she was ostracized because her parents drank coffee and her dad smoked cigarettes. She chronicles her first romances and we hear about her first kiss. And the fateful circumstances that would send her to Utah to undergo conversion therapy.
Episode Three - The Anti Gay Saints
On Episode Three Sandra explains to her son how she was lured into the LDS church. Then we learn more about the long history of intolerance from the leaders of the Mormon church. And finally, she describes the nightmare that was her conversion therapy at Brigham Young University.
Episode Four - Mr. Smiles
On Episode four Sandra’s son finds out how she met his father, “Mr. Smiles,” and what events led up to them getting married. We learn about the red flags she ignored and we hear the nightmarish details of his abuse beginning to unfold.
Episode Five - A Man of God
On Episode Five Sandra has the shattering realization that she did not marry a Man of God. The abuse continues to escalate and she finds herself having another child with Mr. Smiles. Then Sandra and her son discuss what goes on inside the mind of an abused person.
Episode Six - Now Begins the War
The pressure cooker is about to blow. On Episode Six, Sandra and her son painfully recount the horrible events that led up to Sandra’s breaking point. When, completely shattered, she somehow finds strength from within to put an end to the marriage.
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This podcast was so enlightening. Miss Sandra is a warrior and her story is so very important. You never know what happens behind closed doors and this was a reminder to be kind to everyone. Thank you for sharing.
On episode 3. What a great son you are. You’re also very humble because you never give your name. It was quite beautiful to hear your mother’s story. Thank you for giving her a platform to tell this story. I can’t thank you both enough, I’m completely engrossed and affected.
A mother and son with quite a story to tell. What she went through because of her husband and the Mormon church was terrible and she seems so forgiving.