30 episodes

Listen to heartfelt and heart wrenching stories of real people from the early days of the 3HO Kundalini Yoga Community, those born into it, and those converted or influenced by the “Teachings” in the last 50 years of “light-washing” the truth. These are the stories you haven’t heard. The untold truths and abuses that have infused into the consciousness of the Healthy, Happy and Holy Community of KundaliniYoga globally.

Uncomfortable Conversations Podcast The Untold Stories of the 3HO Kundalini Yoga Community GuruNischan Khalsa

    • Society & Culture
    • 4.9 • 34 Ratings

Listen to heartfelt and heart wrenching stories of real people from the early days of the 3HO Kundalini Yoga Community, those born into it, and those converted or influenced by the “Teachings” in the last 50 years of “light-washing” the truth. These are the stories you haven’t heard. The untold truths and abuses that have infused into the consciousness of the Healthy, Happy and Holy Community of KundaliniYoga globally.

    Episode 30: Simona aka Dharma Devi (Joined 3HO in Italy; 2000 -2019)

    Episode 30: Simona aka Dharma Devi (Joined 3HO in Italy; 2000 -2019)

    Today's guest is Simona, aka Dharma Devi, a professional yoga and meditation teacher, as well as a dance educator. She's been practicing yoga and meditation since she was 9 years old. 
    She entered the Kundalini Yoga community in 2000/2001, and even though the red flags were quite red, she didn't listen to her intuition, and started her path within the 3HO/Kundalini community anyway. 
    She graduated from KY TT in Rome,Italy in 2003, and as an Associate Teacher Trainer officially in 2012. During this time frame, she alsa graduated as a Shakti Dance Instructor, which is a technology that is based on Kundalini Yoga as taught by Yogi Bhajan. She graduated as a Lead Trainer for this discipline in 2012.
    She taught Shakti Dance at the summer and winter solstice until 2017, when she started to realize something was wrong within the community. 
    In 2019, she left and broke ties with KY and SD, which has been so painful, after being ostracized and dedicating her entire life to these two technologies. 
    She’s grateful for her background as an artist because the pain of letting everything go, has been excruciating. She graduated in 2004 from the University of Turin, Italy, in History and Anthropology of Dance and Theater. She currently owns her own business teaching ancient movement and dance healing practices including her sacred modality Kundalini Rhythms Dance. She loves guiding people back to their power through the joy and sacredness of dance and Qigong. 
    Song Credit: Mon Amie La Rose by Natasha Atlas 
     
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    • 3 hr 22 min
    Episode 29: GuruNischan Kaur Khalsa (Born into 3HO 1977; Phoenix, AZ)

    Episode 29: GuruNischan Kaur Khalsa (Born into 3HO 1977; Phoenix, AZ)

    GuruNischan Kaur Khalsa was born and raised in the 3HO Kundalini Yoga community in 1977 in the Phoenix, Arizona area. Navigating a challenging early childhood with lots of chaotic changes, including her mother leaving the Dharma in 1978, custody battles and despicable communication between fighting parents, among other things.
    She grew up resilient, feisty and full of positivity to give to the world that she thought was the "power of her light", rather than recognizing these symptoms as deeply rooted trauma patterns.
    At age 19 she lived and worked in the Johannesburg, S.A. 3HO Ashram, and later in the Herndon, Virginia Ashram as well (with interesting stories to share from both).
    After experiencing "burn-out" in her decade long sales/wellness business career. She took Kundalini Yoga Teacher Training with Krishna Kaur in Los Angeles in 2009 to "get back to her center and heal". She had zero interest in teaching KY as her living.
    After the final collapse and "eerily familiar" demise of her business enterprise in 2012, she began to teach KY in Chicago as a way to move through her grief, confusion, fear and vitriol surfacing.
    SLOWLY, (many, many years), she began to recognize trauma patterns of "emotional with-holding", "emotional bypassing" "white-washing positivity", and other symptoms her body was communicating as "standard operation", and begin to recognize how KY was actually holding her body captive, NOT opening it up to freedom and space.
    It would take several more years and MANY more sexual embodiment practices before she could recognize her almost constant "disassociation from her body", a shame-based self image disguised as "perfected projection", & "bright-light energy" as her outward persona.
    For several yeas she stopped teaching and practicing entirely except at the European Yoga Festival in 2016/2017/2018 as she oscillated between her "love of KY" and her vitriol for aspects of "The Teachings" that felt false, and riddled with corruption.
    In March 2020, she experience total liberation, and what felt like "unhooking" from her 10th gate/Crown chakra/Source-Current, to finally SEE and HEAR publicly what her body had been communicating to her LOUDLY for the last 8 years; but her MIND could not accept.
    Lies, deceit, sadistic predatory abuse and manipulation were at the heart of her "conscious community upbringing".
    Her story reveals details and descriptions of the complexity of love and abuse in an incestuous community upbringing; navigating uncertainty, the detriment of "over-training your will-power", as well as tantalizing tales of SELF reclamation.
    Song Credit: The Rose, Bette Midler
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    • 2 hr 37 min
    Episode 28: Porter Singer aka Sirgun Kaur (2009 - 2020)

    Episode 28: Porter Singer aka Sirgun Kaur (2009 - 2020)

    Today's guest is Porter Singer (aka Sirgun Kaur)
    Porter Singer took her first Kundalini Yoga class at the Golden Bridge in Hollywood, CA in 2009. Drawn to the allure of this space and (mainly) the music they played, she signed up for a children’s teacher training program that same day. It was in that training she met a fellow musician who invited her to be part of the Summer Solstice sound team, in June 2010.
    At Solstice, she learned about the month-long Aquarian teacher training at the Española ashram in August, which she ended up taking that year too.
    Upon returning from this 1-month intensive, she felt her identity slowly morph, adopting her spiritual name completely and wearing a head covering any time she went out.
    Propelled by what she believed to be positive changes in her life, she decided to skip Christmas with the family that year in favor of attending Winter Solstice. There, she reunited with two men from the Summer Solstice Sound Team who would launch her further along her 3HO path.
    At Summer Solstice 2011, she married Harimander Singh and also released her first mantra album "The Music Within" with Sat Darshan Singh. This album contained the single “Bliss”, which would become the soundtrack for a Yogi Bhajan slide show entitled “Facets of the Master”— played at every White Tantric Yoga event in the world. Things seemed to be evolving "magically", and in 2013, after the birth of her first son, she released her second album.
    Postpartum depression was really her first clue that kundalini yoga, or “Yogi Bhajan”, might not have, or be, the answer to everything. She started to seek alternate solutions to wellness.
    The more she researched and branched out, the more confining her life started to feel. And in 2019, she finally made the decision to separate from her husband and move from the Phoenix ashram community.
    She now lives in Washington state with her two boys and her new partner.
    Song Credit: "She Used To Be Mine" by Sara Bareilles 
     
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    • 1 hr 52 min
    Episode 27: Jivan Elizabeth Kaur (1994 -2012)

    Episode 27: Jivan Elizabeth Kaur (1994 -2012)

    Jivan Elizabeth Kaur found Kundalini Yoga in 1994 when she sought help and attended a holistic therapy center where she met Shiv Charan Singh (The Founder of the Karam Kriya School in Europe) who was the head counselor there.
    In 2001 she qualified as a KY teacher at the Karam Kriya School , and in 2005 she went to India with her daughter (born 1995) who enrolled at MPA.
    After 5 months in Amritsar, Jivan moved to Dharamsala HP Where she met her future husband.  In 2008 they married.
    She and her husband moved to London in 2012 where they live currently.  Her daughter Karta joined them a year later after graduating MPA in 2013. Jivan is now at college studying hairdressing finally feeling the joy of learning.
    Song: "Do you love me" by The Contours
     
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    • 1 hr 38 min
    Episode 26: Sofía Becerra (Joined 3HO in Mexico City; 2007 -2014)

    Episode 26: Sofía Becerra (Joined 3HO in Mexico City; 2007 -2014)

    Sofía Becerra was born in Mexico City, to a non-practicing catholic family. She was always interested in spiritual experiences, and when she was 21-22 years old she lived two very traumatic experiences that involved sexual abuse and drugs, that left her very confused and in a cuasi schizophrenic state. 
     
    In 2007, as part of her search for healing, she started practicing Kundalini Yoga in a place called "Iztac". In 2008 she went to live in "Guru Ram Das Ashram" in Mexico City, led by a couple of Yogis named Jai Hari Singh and Jai Hari Kaur. 
     
    After around half a year of living there, she started having a sensual/sexual relationship with Jai Hari Singh; who quickly decided to divorce his wife, and begin a serious relationship with Sofia. 
     
    This relationship lasted until 2014, until Sofía finally had the courage to step out of it. Around 2018 Sofía started to realize that the relationship had not been entirely consensual, because of the mental state that she was in when the relationship happened. 
     
    Today Sofía works as the director of an education NGO in a rural area in Mexico. She lives with her partner, two twin daughters, and one boy due to be born in May.
     
    Song: Blackbird by Brad Mehldau
     
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    • 2 hr 7 min
    Episode 25: Olivia Taglioli (brought into 3HO in Italy at age 6; 1985 - 2010)

    Episode 25: Olivia Taglioli (brought into 3HO in Italy at age 6; 1985 - 2010)

    Today's guest is Olivia Taglioli. Originally born in Italy and lived there until 1998.
    At age 6 years old, her mom announced that Olivia was to receive her spiritual name, Atma Kaur, from Yogi Bhajan, whom she met in the summer of 1985 in Spain. 
    From then on, under her mom's guidance and sometimes insistence, she began practicing Kundalini Yoga and later Sat Nam Rasayan, and other 3HO lifestyle practices.  
    She met Guru Dev (Master of Sat Nam Rasayan) in 1990 at age 11. She attended her first European Yoga Festival in Loches, France in 1992 at age 13; Also the first time she sat through White Tantric Yoga.
    She was “counseled”, and receiving "Healing Treatments" by GuruDev Singh and was regularly sexually abused by him at the age of 16/17.  She was forced to keep quiet by her mom and Guru Dev Singh and overall community atmosphere.  
    At 19 (1998) she was "moved" to the Amsterdam Ashram, working for the ashram, the 3HO Foundation and the Yogi Tea Company for several years in numerous capacities.
    In 1999 she married a former MPA student from San Diego, CA (who’s parents are well-known members in 3HO) and their wedding was officiated by GuruDev Singh at Solstice 1999.  
    They had three daughters together and later divorced in 2010.  She currently resides in San Diego, CA with her four daughters.) She’s a massage and cranio-sacral therapist part time, a writer and a self healer. 
    Song credit: No Ceiling by Eddie Vedder
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    • 2 hr 13 min

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