64 episodes

Listen to heartfelt and heart wrenching stories of real people from the early days of the 3HO Kundalini Yoga Community, those born into it, and those converted or influenced by the “Teachings” in the last 50 years of “light-washing” the truth. These are the stories you haven’t heard. The untold truths and abuses that have infused into the consciousness of the Healthy, Happy and Holy Community of KundaliniYoga globally.

Uncomfortable Conversations Podcast The Untold Stories of the 3HO Kundalini Yoga Community GuruNischan Khalsa

    • Society & Culture
    • 4.7 • 54 Ratings

Listen to heartfelt and heart wrenching stories of real people from the early days of the 3HO Kundalini Yoga Community, those born into it, and those converted or influenced by the “Teachings” in the last 50 years of “light-washing” the truth. These are the stories you haven’t heard. The untold truths and abuses that have infused into the consciousness of the Healthy, Happy and Holy Community of KundaliniYoga globally.

    Episode 66: Manju Sadarangani - Kundalini Yoga 2020 - KRI Global Teacher Training

    Episode 66: Manju Sadarangani - Kundalini Yoga 2020 - KRI Global Teacher Training

    Manju Sadarangani was born and raised in India, surrounded by yoga. Her yoga teacher mother insisted on an upbringing informed by yoga and traditional medicine. In her teen years, her deeply spiritual brilliant father joined a Hindu cult, resulting in upheaval resulting in her immigration to the United States with her mother and brother.
    Manju found yoga in the US to be deeply puzzling. She would try yoga studios and styles of yoga in an effort to feel the spiritual solace of her childhood yoga practice, but felt extremely excluded at American yoga studios. Through most of her adult life, she avoided yoga, and practiced it only when she visited the country of her birth.
    In 2019, serendipity led her to a kundalini yoga class. She was intrigued by this unfamiliar style of yoga which she found absurd and amusing, but was soothed by the elements of Surat Shabd that she recognized in kundalini yoga practice.
    She enjoyed the element of play and creativity in her kundalini meditations, but found herself often flummoxed by the pastiche mantras and practices. She was offended by some practices (like excerpts of Japji inserted into kriyas) - but when she asked questions of kundalini teachers, they were not able to give her answers that felt logical or grounded in any yoga discipline. Her teachers encouraged her to take teacher training with KRI, telling her that was where she would get answers. Manju was understandably reluctant, especially after she read the book Premka.
    In 2020, she was approached by representatives of KRI, who recommended a brand-new global teacher training program. This new TT was advertised as trauma-informed, inclusive, egalitarian - a symbol of the new direction KRI and 3HO were embracing. Manju applied to this new teacher training global cohort. She was one of only three Americans, all women of color. It turned out to be one of the most traumatic and racist experiences of her life.
    Since then, Manju has relied on her command of languages, academic background in South Asian history, conversations with elders and teachers in India, and cultural background to deeply research, question, retrain, and reform her yoga practice. She connects deeply with the feminist, spiritual and historical foundations of yoga to counter problematic cultural appropriation. Her evolving yoga practice is grounded in a desire for equity, justice, emotional and mental well-being. She brings her spirit of play, body positivity and radical self-love to her yoga practice, acknowledging that her yoga journey makes her an inconvenient outsider the art of manju manjusadarangani.com
    Song credit: Vaishnav Janto Tene Kahiye by M.S. Subbalakshmi
    http://www.UndertheYogaMat.com
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    • 2 hr 25 min
    Episode 65: Shabd Singh {Born and raised in 3HO 1987 - 2016}

    Episode 65: Shabd Singh {Born and raised in 3HO 1987 - 2016}

    Shabd Singh was born and raised in 3HO Herndon, VA in 1987. His parents are Gurutrang Singh and Gurumata Kaur. He attended MPA from 1999-2005, was in the Eugene, Oregon ashram from 2006-2012, and taught at Miri Piri Academy in India as an economics teacher from 2012-2014.
    It’s been a slow but gradual disconnect from 3HO, and he fully disconnected in 2016. In 2017 he became politically active with Democratic Socialists of America and began to work in progressive politics eventually working on the Bernie Sanders 2020 Presidential Campaign.
    He now lives in Washington DC with his wife Sukhmani Kaur and does work in climate advocacy for Al Gore's non-profit organization The Climate Reality Project.
    You can find him on Instagram at shabd.one and the platform (formally known as) Twitter at @shabdsingh
    Song credit: Robin Hood Theory by GangStarr
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    • 3 hr 9 min
    Episode 64: Mel Hofmann {1970 - 1972; San Rafael, CA}

    Episode 64: Mel Hofmann {1970 - 1972; San Rafael, CA}

    Mel Hofmann, at the time was Melanie Calhoon started studying Kundalini yoga classes in 1970, at the age of 15 in Berkeley, CA . The local area ashram at the time was known as the “Banana Ananda” ashram in San Rafael, CA. She moved into the ashram in the Fall of 1971 at the age of 16 years old. Shortly thereafter, the name of the ashram was changed to Hargobind Sadan.
    Baba Bert, later named Sat Santokh Singh was the head of the ashram. She lived in the ashram until June of 1972, when her roommate, Jeannie, who later became known as GuruTarethKaur (Jivan Jhoti Kaur) was arranged to be married Robert Zwaag (also known as, GuruTarethSingh). The abrupt marriages, name changes and overall shift in the “lifestyle” led Mel to pursue her own path soon after.
    She's was married to Stephen Hofmann and had a daughter who is currently 32 years old. He had cerebral palsy and is featured with our daughter Emily in the documentary, Crip Camp. He passed away in 2017. She’s had a long time relationship to Kundalini energy, healing, and her own CPTSD recovery.
    Today Mel happily married to Jayne Roseman for 25 years. She’s a professional photographer, fine artist and energy healer. You can learn more about her art at melhofmann.com Song Credit: Truly, Madly, Deeply by Savage Gardens ______________________________________
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    • 1 hr 41 min
    Episode 63: Siri Whitecrow (1972 - 1988, Anchorage, Alaska)

    Episode 63: Siri Whitecrow (1972 - 1988, Anchorage, Alaska)

    Siri Whitecrow, was born Elias Seneca Whitecrow in 1972 in Juneau, Alaska. His mom, Sat guru Kaur, joined 3HO with his older sister, Siri Kaur, in 1976 and his name was changed to Siri Singh Khalsa.
    His early life was spent between two different ashrams in Anchorage, Alaska, then in 1979 he was sent to Española New Mexico at 7 years old, living with two different families. In 1981 he was sent to the newly (not yet) established India program GNFC, initially being sent to the girls school because he was so young and only in 3rd grade.
    After four years in India, and tons of horrific abuse, and plenty of righteous resistance, he was kicked out of that school and sent back to the USA. He spent half a year at Amritsar Academy in Albuquerque, New Mexico, where he was eventually asked to “not return”. He ended up in Los Angeles, near his mom and close to the ashram, but by 1988 he left 3HO/Sikh Dharma/Kundalini Yoga completely, never looking back.
    Graffiti became a huge part of his life and currently still is. His Graffiti name is ANGER and he runs one of the biggest graffiti crews in the world which began in 1993 when his life was forever altered when his mentor was hit by a train, and he was shot 4X by a Los Angeles police officer.
    He currently lives in Los Angeles, is married with two boys and continues to navigate his life through art, and creativity. You can learn about him and his Graffiti crew by supporting his work and watching the documentary “Can’t Be Stopped” on Amazon.
    You can follow and support his work
    @angercbscrew @cbscrew @defendmelrose @iwuzherefirst
    Link to Documentary film: https://www.amazon.com/Cant-Be-Stopped-Cody-Smith/dp/B0B8X5DG7Y/ref=sr_1_1?crid=3LI3AK16WUAX1&keywords=cant+be+stopped+documentary&qid=1692240095&s=instant-video&sprefix=cant+be+stopped%2Cinstant-video%2C461&sr=1-
    Song credit: Anger by Downset ___________________________________
    GuruNischan is the creator and host of the Uncomfortable Conversations Podcasts. She's a trauma-healing activist, and consultant in personal and professional reinvention.
    To learn more about her reclamation and recovery work, please subscribe to GuruNischan.com
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    • 2 hr 15 min
    Episode 62: Guruganesha Singh Khalsa (1972 - 2023) - Washington D.C. and Herndon, Virginia Ashrams

    Episode 62: Guruganesha Singh Khalsa (1972 - 2023) - Washington D.C. and Herndon, Virginia Ashrams

    Guruganesha Singh grew up in Natick MA, 18 miles west of Boston. Graduated high school class of 1968. In Feb 1972, he attended his first KY class at the boathouse at Smith College in Northampton MA, after seeing YB's tratakum pic on a flyer in the Student Union.
    Soon after he attended a weekend KY retreat at the Montague (montagew) in MA with Guru Shabd Singh. Very soon thereafter he moved into the Worcester (wooster)MA Ashram near Clark University where he was a senior year in college.
    The first week of Jan. 1973 he moved into Ahimsa Ashram on Q St. Washington DC, where he became the dishwasher at the Golden Temple Restaurant for many months. He was arranged to be married to Gurudarshan Kaur originally from Tuscon, AZ in May 1977.
    They had their son, Akal Sahai Singh in April 1978. In 1986, at age 8 years old, their son, Akal Sahai went to India for one year, which caused a rupture in their marriage, and Gurudarshan started divorce proceedings. In 1987 it was suggested by the head of the ashram that he marry Mata Mandir Kaur from the DC ashram (and they are still married 36 years later)
    He worked for all the DC ashram businesses thru 1989 when he resigned from the “family” businesses and started his own business Sandler Sales Institute, a sales training in the high-tech sector.
    In Jan 2000 he founded Spirit Voyage Music and started recording and touring with Snatam Kaur for the next 11 years. In 2011 he and Snatam parted ways, and he started the GuruGanesha Band. The revelations of 2020 exposed what he held at a distance for far too long, and the undeniable truth created a landslide.
    Most recently, after the results of the 2023 Siri Singh Sahib Corporation (SSSC) elections, he immediately resigned from Khalsa Council and the Sikh Dharma Ministry.
    Song credit: Landslide by Guruganesha
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    Book website link to Under the Yoga Mat: The Dark History of Yogi Bhajan's Kundalini Yoga - https://www.undertheyogamat.com/
     

    • 2 hr 58 min
    Episode 61: Ravi Singh {Chicago/New York City - 1973 - 1999} - Evolving Kundalini Yoga

    Episode 61: Ravi Singh {Chicago/New York City - 1973 - 1999} - Evolving Kundalini Yoga

    Ravi Singh began practicing Kundalini Yoga in 1973 and lived in the 3HO ashram in Chicago, IL. In 1974 he moved to New York City to be a writer and continued to practice Kundalini Yoga and began teaching. In the late 70's I had a brief stint as a resident of the 3HO ashram in Brooklyn, NY. He attended every Summer and Winter Solstice gathering from 1976 to 2000 and before 1999 would typically teach Kundalini Yoga at those events.
    In 1999 he discovered that YB had propositioned one of my students at Women's Camp. That was when the floodgates opened and the scope of what was going on behind the scenes became abundantly clear. When he attempted to alert people he was summarily kicked out of 3HO. His state of mind since then has been one of personal liberation, i.e., relief that he doesn’t have to continue to try to be someone he’s not. It became more obvious over time that there's no room in an organization like 3HO for artists, autonomous beings, or independent thinkers.
    Ravi Singh is Author (with partner Ana Brett) of the Kundalini Yoga Book - Life in the Vast Lane. He's been teaching yoga for 45 yrs. He is Founder of Evolving Kundalini, which was created via the need for a safe space for Kundalini Yoga Teachers to gather and process. EK is now a non-profit dedicated to ethics in yoga, and the forward evolution and the up-leveling of all things Kundalini.
    Song credit: The Revolution Starts Now by Steve Earle.
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    GuruNischan is a writer, trauma-healing activist, and consultant in personal and professional reinvention. Learn more about her reclamation and recovery work at www.GuruNischan.com
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    • 2 hr 6 min

Customer Reviews

4.7 out of 5
54 Ratings

54 Ratings

Harbunny ,

Honesty and compassion; personal growth facilitated

GuruNischan is skilled in asking the uncomfortable questions while compassionately challenging beliefs. Her podcast creates a space for sharing, support and witnessing each other. These podcasts have brought a lot of peace to me on my journey of leaving 3HO/KRI. The recurring themes and abusive techniques revealed in each person’s stories can leave me incredulous but they help cut through the gaslighting and brainwashing. I believe the space GuruNischan creates will continue to help others see the spiritual abuse for what it is. If you are questioning your role in perpetuating Kundalini Yoga and (3HO) Sikh dharma, I invite you to listen with an open heart. I encourage you to be brave.
After Guruganesha Singh listening update: this episode was a very healing experience for me and I finally grieved for the community I left behind in Espanola. I’m very grateful that there are elders who are willing to support people in this way. I’m still seeking out cult abuse counseling due to the encouragement GN shares each episode. Thank you GN for all you have given.

amritak108 ,

understanding social dynamics

Simply the best. This show should be requisite for anyone to understand social dynamics of power, control, oppression, suppression, systemic tactics, group think, supremacy and so much more. These are threads in our lives that manifest in all kinds of ways — and GN is untethering and unpacking it all here.

C. Laure ,

Shedding light on a dark subject

Thankful for the work, dedication and vulnerability that GuruNischan has given in this podcast. She is growing, evolving and giving us a firsthand no holds barred account of growth, insights and opportunities that he is experiencing as she explores so many different aspects of cults (be it 3HO or not).

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