Lost Soul Unspoken Utterance

Let me dive deep into the ocean
without the plopping sound
so that no one could find me
so that no one could trace for my existence
so that no one could yell for my absence
so that no one could ever find me,
as I am fed up of my own existence
as I am better being lost forever
as I am the worst being of the universe
as I deserve no happiness
as I deserve only pain
as I deserve the worst treatment from people
as I deserve to be fooled by every single person
as I deserve only hell being my permanent guest
as I deserve to be in pain for millions of decades
as I deserve only tears drops to roll down,
as I don't deserve to be alive
as I deserve nothing but only death to lull me to the hell....