18 min
My Father In Every Men I Have Missed Becoming Xuan
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- Mental Health
Even though I'm living in series of polyamorous relationships I still feel shame and guilt for my deep desire for romance. Only until recently I finally got an idea why I'm so addicted to the feeling of being in love. It's intoxicating and there are moments of intimacy where I wished that they would never stop. Thank to my last romantic break up another door to my past has been opened. And one of the most important person in my life emerged from my subconscious mind. My father. The separation from him in my young age has caused deep trauma. And his absence has defined more about my romantic relationships than anything else.
Even though I'm living in series of polyamorous relationships I still feel shame and guilt for my deep desire for romance. Only until recently I finally got an idea why I'm so addicted to the feeling of being in love. It's intoxicating and there are moments of intimacy where I wished that they would never stop. Thank to my last romantic break up another door to my past has been opened. And one of the most important person in my life emerged from my subconscious mind. My father. The separation from him in my young age has caused deep trauma. And his absence has defined more about my romantic relationships than anything else.
18 min