the deep with nicole & james a deep exploration of what it means to be human through the eyes of conscoiusness

A letter of love, written by me, for me is what this piece is. 
For all I have wanted and waited for was a handwritten note, that letter of love delivered to my hand, filled with the sweetest of prose declaring an undying love. The romanticised feelings expressed, the simple… I love you, nice butt.
I know nowadays I guess a message or text could be seen as a love letter, but there is nothing quite like that tangible piece of writing you slip into your favourite book, stick to your fridge or frame and hang.
What is the way you love love being expressed to you? Is it words spoken? That special touch? Is it the beautiful meal?
For me, the show of love is the love letter.
Self love can be all of these things, showering ourselves with these gifts and tokens of love. 
So while I wait (with this massive hint of the letter written to me) should I not be the one to write this? 
If I can buy myself flowers, and take my own hand then I wanna write what it means to be loved by me, to me…
Nicole,
When I close my eyes and think of you, feel you, my heart swells for you, my eyes water. I am so proud to know you and love you. Your curiosity, your lust for life, your energy is boundless and immeasurable. Your quest for love has seen you take rocky paths with unstable ground and yet you keep showing all that beautiful heart. You keep loving from that beautiful heart. 
Many have tried to love you, many have wanted to. And the few you have chosen to love, have left you feeling unrequited. Your heart has been bruised and broken many times over and yet you still hold it open for all to see, feel and to be loved by you.
You have ridden your long and windy path, have felt in the past that you did not have enough love to go on. When will I arrive? You have asked more than once. I want you to know that love never was far from you. You have always held love close. You have such a capacity for love and I do not think you realise the effect you have on others with your love. 
I love you and cannot begin to say how grateful I am that you chose me, to be your soul. 
You are beautiful, you are magic and I am so lucky to know and love you. For the hardest paths we have had to walk, you are still here, soft as ever, as loving as ever. Big, big love is here for you, you thought it was only a dream, or a fantastic wish that may never come true. But believe me, big, big love is here for you. 
That light you hold within and allow to flow through you, when you are in full flight it is truly a feeling of exquisite expression. There is nothing that is not within your grasp. The big dreams you have, all you have already accomplished, just wait and see what is to come.
Forever you are changing and growing, forever you are learning more about love and the power of love. To love you is an honour, to be loved by you a rare gift. For any that receive your full heart wide open and the love that pours through it have surely been sent from heaven. 
I am so honoured to know you, to love you, to be with you every moment of everyday. I never want to forget how special you are, for you are the light that keeps me safe in the wildest storms, you are the start and end of all of my days, you are who I rise higher and higher for. With you, anything is possible.
Your laugh, your smile, that twinkle in your eye, always alludes to something more. More is here for you, more is here. I love you, and I am so thankful for you.
Love always, your beloved soul.
Writing this has had me in tears, I have stopped and started, distracted myself and then finally written the love letter to me. For it can feel uncomfortable to write how you feel about yourself, but I want you my love, my dear reader to try. Write yourself this love letter, write and see what comes through. Take a few breaths and open your heart, ask your heart, your soul, to help you write this letter for you.
This post was inspired by Andrea Gibson, if you are not following her on substack or instagram, she is an am

Do you ever have that feeling when talking to a friend, boy we should be recording this…
This feeling coming up of what we are talking about could help others, could be interesting, could change things for people trying to make sense of things in a wide weird world.
this is that thing.
James & Nicole share the view of bringing more love, more joy, more harmony to the world and their third podcast here together they have shared their own very real, very personal individual interactions with Jesus. This is the last in a three part series, where they go deep.
With this session, Nicole shares her thoughts on what is Christ Consciousness? and how does knowing or being in this energy changes our lives? and James talks about his supernatural energy exchange with Jesus, and how he discovered and was suspended within bliss state. They both talk about how it has changed, supported and helped them both to grow with the experience of having a higher power to lean on, and Nicole guides us through a meditation opening the energy of Christ Consciousness to experience this loving flow of energy for yourself.
This is not one to be missed!
Each episode  they will cover all different aspects in the world of spirituality, creative expression, surfing, art and all the things that make us human.
‘if you own your story, none can shame you…’
Welcome to the deep, with Nicole & James...
a dive into topics close to their hearts & what it means to be creative in a world of chaos, and how we got here.
Nicole Forrest is here to guide you back to you. She is a writer and teacher of consciousness, meditation, spirituality, a channel, mystic & psychic medium with a deep connection to the metaphysical world.
Her practices include reiki, energetic & somatic healing, reading the akashic records, hypnotherapy, guided meditation & journey work, connection to your spirit team & loved ones plus a completely holistic approach to your diet, sleep, movement & meditation practices.
She has been working with her clients and students all over the world, changing people's lives and transforming their love for self and those around them. A deep connection to the higher planes of consciousness unveil all access points and opportunities within your own connection.
She is also a mother, an avid surfer, and lover of sunrise & adventure.
connect with nicole via her website here -
https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/
connect with nicole for a personal energy session here - https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/book-a-session
connect with nicole on instagram here - https://www.instagram.com/nicole_loving_earth/
James McMillan is a multi-disciplined artist, author, healer, surfer, Father, and founder of Byron Bay Surf Festival. He is deeply connected to the ocean, the land, and the people of his community. He is passionate about culture, the environment, human evolution, and bringing people into a deeper connection with themselves and their purpose. Outside of his art practice James’ works in counselling, energetic healing and working with the energy centres (chakras) for optimum soul alignment, health, performance, & life purpose
James has been chasing his own spiritual evolution since he was 18 years old after the passing of his father Ken. He has supported this journey by completing studies in Visual Arts, Holistic Counseling, Transformational Life Coaching & Art Therapy. He has also studied yoga and has his Yoga YTT200, cert in energetic healing and has completed subjects at School of the Supernatural in Byron Bay.
“I have been meditating since 1999 and have been practising Kriya yoga, which is an ancient yogic breathwork, since 2016…I was initiated into this practice via a third generation disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda.” James
connect with james via his website here -
https://www.jamesmcmillanarts.com/
connect with james via instagram here - https://www.instagram.com/jamescmcmillan/
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hello beautiful people!!! 
For all questions for the next episode please send directly to James… Nicole will be channelling Jesus and will go blind into the recording. This means no idea of the questions before the next recording. So if you have a question to ask, pls send directly to - 
James on instagram - https://www.instagram.com/jamescmcmillan/
James on email - jamesmcmillanarts@gmail.com
(questions to be received before Tuesday 23rd April 2024 AEST)
What are we talking about? Well you will have to have a listen to find out!
Do you ever have that feeling when talking to a friend, boy we should be recording this…
This feeling coming up of what we are talking about could help others, could be interesting, could change things for people trying to make sense of things in a wide weird world.
this is that thing.
James & Nicole share the view of bringing more love, more joy, more harmony to the world and their second podcast here together they have shared their own very real, very personal individual interactions with Jesus. This is the second in a three part series, where they go deep.
With this session, Nicole shares how Jesus helped her through her energy work, and James talks about his supernatural healing that happened overnight with the assistance of Jesus and Angel beings. This is not one to be missed!
Each episode  they will cover all different aspects in the world of spirituality, creative expression, surfing, art and all the things that make us human.
‘if you own your story, none can shame you…’
Welcome to the deep, with Nicole & James...
a dive into topics close to their  hearts, stories of spirituality, surfing, art & what it means to be creative in a world of chaos, and how we got here.
nicole loving earth is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.

Nicole Forrest is here to guide you back to you. She is a writer and teacher of consciousness, meditation, spirituality, a channel, mystic & psychic medium with a deep connection to the metaphysical world.
Her practices include reiki, energetic & somatic healing, reading the akashic records, hypnotherapy, guided meditation & journey work, connection to your spirit team & loved ones plus a completely holistic approach to your diet, sleep, movement & meditation practices.
She has been working with her clients and students all over the world, changing people's lives and transforming their love for self and those around them. A deep connection to the higher planes of consciousness unveil all access points and opportunities within your own connection.
She is also a mother, an avid surfer, and lover of sunrise & adventure.
connect with nicole via her website here -
https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/
connect with nicole for a personal energy session here - https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/book-a-session
connect with nicole on instagram here - https://www.instagram.com/nicole_loving_earth/
James McMillan is a multi-disciplined artist, author, surfer, Father, and founder of Byron Bay Surf Festival. He is deeply connected to the ocean, the land, and the people of his community. He is passionate about culture, the environment, human evolution, and bringing people into a deeper connection with themselves and their purpose. James’ current work is in counselling, energetic healing and working with the energy centres (chakras) for optimum health, performance, soul alignment & life purpose. James has been chasing his own spiritual evolution since he was 18 years old after the passing of his father Ken. He has supported this journey by completing studies in Visual Arts, Holistic Counseling, Transformational Life Coaching & Art Therapy. He has also studied yoga and has his Yoga YTT200, cert in energetic healing and has completed subjects at School of the Supernatural in Byron Bay. “I have been meditating since 1999 and have been practising Kriya yoga, which is an ancient yogic breathwork,

What a week it has been and I want to say thank you to each of you who read these writings, who listen to the podcast, who send messages of support, or stop me in the street to talk about what I am doing - I love you, and know that we are all here to learn and grow from each other. I will now have with each newsletter an audio recording of the writing! this is connect with you in a way that I love - through the way I write, and how our voices carry our emotion and energy x enjoy my loves!
Oh my loves!
These days past, agitation and frustration were what I was feeling. I could say it was here because of eclipse season or mercury in retrograde but really I knew it was something within me, a force of nature blinding it’s way like a fireball of energy and wanting to rattle the cage. 
I knew I could figure it out, but not while feeling frustrated or agitated. That state just wants me to blame everyone and everything around me. I know that if I’m feeling this way the quickest way to lift it is to be of service, so I was. I opened a room on clubhouse and spoke of it. A beautiful meditation and message came through, and the peace I wished for and felt was only momentarily here. 
Then straight back to the feelings of agitation and frustration. 
I wanted to honour why I was feeling this way, give space to it but yet I was frustrated and agitated at being frustrated and agitated. 
I surfed, I changed the furniture in my bedroom around, I ordered comfort food, I wrote. Still the shadow hung. 
Finally I slept and when I woke the next day, pieces of realisation came through. Speaking of it on a call with one of my students as soon as I began sharing, the thread unraveled.
I realised I don’t like being in charge. I don’t like being in my masculine. I don’t like having to lead a partnership. I want to be taken care of. I want the other to lead me. When I feel let down, I charge into my masculine energy to lead, to pick up the pieces, to forge ahead. This was a lifetime of ‘I can do it’ energy after plans are made and have fallen through. 
I am purposeful and driven, I know my purpose and why I am here, still I wanted someone else to take charge on this latest project, I want to feel like for one area of my life I could rest a bit. It is tiring being both energies all the time. 
How could I be in my intuitive, delicious, feminine flow if I was in my masculine? Had I created this situation? Had I prevented this person from being in their masculine? Was I intimidating in my expression?
What I was seeing here was that because I had so easily stepped into my masculine - think years of being a Chef in a very masculine industry, think years of having to take charge in working relationships, in romantic relationships that I was leaving no room for anyone else to be given the chance or the invitation to step in.
I am a direct person, I love being direct with kindness, I was seeing this other side of me which was short, stand-offish and closed down. I was in a frustrated and agitated state and displaying these behaviours.
I saw that the other person was responding differently to me being this way. 
I was frustrated and agitated because I was seeing different responses and behaviour being displayed. 
It opened a whole new way of witnessing relationships for me. I was seeing how what we have experienced defines for us unconsciously what we find attractive.
I started witnessing different relationships around me and the dynamics of them. 
What we are attracted to and why. How it changes the levels of attraction when the behaviours change.
I always lovingly, kindly, knowingly, gently tell my students that agitation is always an invitation to expansion. 
(I smiled that smile I smile when my own words come to bite me on the ass)
What I was witnessing was my own behaviour and not liking it one bit. It wasn’t me, who I am at my core. And I now had this avalanche of insight as to why. 
I don’t play games, I don’t like misleadi

Do you ever have that feeling when talking to a friend, boy we should be recording this…
This feeling coming up of what we are talking about could help others, could be interesting, could change things for people trying to make sense of things in a wide weird world.
this is that thing.
James & I share the view of bringing more love, more joy, more harmony to the world and our first podcast here together we decided to open up about our individual connections to Jesus. This is the first in a three part series, where we really get to go deep.
This first episode find out our beginnings of connection to Jesus, what role he plays in our lives and how we connect to the energy. Bonus… we find out more about each other along the way. A voyeurs journey peeping into how friends speak of consciousness when we peel back the curtain of our everyday mask.
Each week we will be covering all different aspects in the world of spirituality, creative expression, surfing, art and all the things that make us human.
‘if you own your story, none can shame you…’
welcome to the deep with nicole & james...
a dive into topics close to our hearts, stories of spirituality, surfing, art & what it means to be a creative in a world of chaos, and how we got here.
Nicole Forrest is here to guide you back to you. She is a teacher of consciousness, meditation, spirituality, a channel, mystic & psychic medium with a deep connection to the metaphysical world.
Her practices include reiki, energetic & somatic healing, reading the akashic records, hypnotherapy, guided meditation & journey work, connection to your spirit team & loved ones plus a completely holistic approach to your diet, sleep, movement & meditation practices.
She has been working with her clients and students all over the world, changing peoples lives and transforming their love for self and those around them. A deep connection to the higher planes of consciousness unveil all access points and opportunities within your own connection.
She is also an avid surfer, mother and lover of sunrise & adventure.
connect with nicole via her website here - https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/
connect with nicole on instagram here - https://www.instagram.com/nicole_loving_earth/
James McMillan is a multi-disciplined artist, author, surfer, Father, and founder of Byron Bay Surf Festival. He is deeply connected to the ocean, the land, and the people of his community. He is passionate about culture, the environment,  human evolvement, and bringing people into deeper connection with themselves and their purpose.
James has been chasing his own spiritual evolution since he was 18 years old after the passing of his father Ken. He has supported this journey by completing studies in Visual Arts, Holistic Counseling, Transformational Life Coaching & Art Therapy. He also has his Yoga YTT200, cert in Energetic Healing and has completed subjects at School of the Supernatural in Byron Bay. “I have been meditating since 1999 and have been practicing Kriya yoga, which is an ancient yogic breathwork, since 2016…I was initiated into this practice via a third generation disciple of Paramahansa Yogananda.  Above all I believe in Love first” JMc
connect with james via his website here - https://www.jamesmcmillanarts.com/
connect with james via instagram here - https://www.instagram.com/jamescmcmillan/
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in this episode of nicole loving earth, nicole talks about the different energies and concepts relating to the act of softening vs surrender. 
how do we soften? 
why does she choose softening? 
she then guides us through a beautiful channeled meditation and explains afterwards how she sees and what she sees while channeling. 
there is a detailed description of our role here and how we can open to channeling information through consciousness and how we can each heal through the simple act of softening, of stillness, of a practice of meditation. 
definitely one to listen to, as nicole reveals more of who she is and how she connects. 
part exploration, part teaching, part meditation, part her loving way of being in the world. 
nicole is a writer & teacher of consciousness, spirituality & metaphysics; a gifted channel, akashic reader and energetic practitioner based in sydney, aus
to find out more about her upcoming workshops, click the link here - https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/events
connect with nicole via her website here -
https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/
to book your private session, or to find out more about being a student connect here - https://www.nicolelovingearth.com/bookasession
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