This Little Light of Mine is an LGBTQ+ tale of terror (growing up as a closeted Gay Christian in the Evangelical church) that led to trauma (cPTSD, religious trauma, spiritual abuse, sexual abuse, addiction) to what I intend to become triumph.
Join me on my healing and recovery journey towards mental health, spiritual health and emotional health as I find my voice by sharing what happened in my life as a Queer Christian where I was taught that I was not allowed to love.
SEASON 2 - Asking for help
By finding the courage to ask for the help I desperately needed I slowly started to understand that I wasn’t broken. I slowly started to understand that I was not alone. I slowly started to let go of holding onto the control that I thought was keeping me safe. I slowly started to understand that childhood trauma doesn’t simply disappear. Trauma morphs, transforms, and continues to inflict harm until we start to face the root of what harmed us.
I’m excited to have you join me for Season Two where I’ll share parts of my recovery journey after hitting bottom and finding the courage to start asking for help. Where I thought that I was alone, isolated, and detached from others, I started to understand and experience that I was surrounded by help. And much of the help that I’ve received came from some of the most unexpected places and people.
Throughout S02 I will also be introducing you to other individuals who will share their experiences of how their world has taken on new meaning, understanding, and purpose when they started to accept who they were created to be, love who they were created to be and had the courage to reach out, connect with others, and ask for the help they needed.
When we start asking for the help we need for ourselves, we stand up for love and start to prioritize mental health, emotional health, and spiritual health in our own lives, and start to give permission for others to do the same.
Surrounded by help
I never considered that I might be surrounded by help. For most of my life I’ve been afraid to ask for help, because asking for help meant getting hurt. And as a kid I thought I was supposed to avoid getting hurt.
What comes to your mind when the topic of 'asking for help' comes up?
Is asking for help something that comes easy for you? Is asking for help something that you avoid? Or does asking for help depend on the type of help that you need? Is it okay to ask for help moving a heavy object but not okay when the help you need is more emotional in nature?
I believe that a major part of our healing and recovery journey comes when we learn to ask for help AND accept and appreciate how beautiful, wonderful, and unique God has created each and every one of us... including me. And especially you.
Thanks for joining me today and I look forward to returning in two weeks' time for our first interview episode of S02 where I will be joined with Dr. Mike Rosebush who will share his WILD journey and ‘most unusual gay Christian Life’.
Book reference by Peter A Levine: In an Unspoken Voice - How the body releases trauma and restores goodness
Cover design: creative directed by David Laskovski
Honey, I think I'm a homosexual
Do you have any gay Christian role models or mentors?
On today's episode, I'm joined with Dr. Mike Rosebush who describes himself as somewhat of a gay Christian Yoda.
In this first part of our conversation, Mike will share how his wild journey of his 'most unusual gay Christian life' got started.
In Part 1 of our conversation Mike talks about:
growing up with 'John Wayne' as a fatherbeing top of his class in the US Air Force Academyspeaking life, for the first time, at age 30, to a homosexual personComing out while in the US Air ForceComing out to his pregnant wifeGoing into conversation therapyStarting as a VP with Focus on the Family
To read more from Dr. Mike Rosebush, check him out on Medium.
Raise a voice, hear an echo
Hello and welcome to This Little Light Of Mine, my name is James Powell and I'm so glad that you are able to join me for the second part of my conversation with Dr. Mike Rosebush.
If you haven't been introduced to Mike yet, I would encourage you to skip back to S02E03, Honey, I think I'm a homosexual.
In today's episode Mike will share what happened when he came out while working as a VP at Focus on the Family, his role as a conversion therapist, outing himself again on a national ex-gay conference stage, going back into the closet, and what helped him to fully love and embrace all of who God made him to be.
Connecting with Mike affirmed that we were designed to live and be fully alive. We were not created to be dead humans walking. The number one way that we start living, is when we are faithful to how we are each individually designed from love.
Our coming out process is about being faithful, authentic, and loving to ourselves. The more that we do this with ourselves, the more we can share this faithfulness and love with others.
This is our challenge today. What is the truth you want to stand up for and share with our world?
How will you share that your sexuality, no matter the form, can never be broken, wrong, or sinful? How will you love more and share more of yourself with the world around you? How will you help the next generation know that you are needed, you are important, you are wanted, you are included, and you are loved?
We need you now. When you raise your voice, the world will hear your echo for generations to come.
Raise your voice, hear IT echo
You are loved, James
To read more from Dr. Mike Rosebush, check him out on Medium.
Episode theme by Emorie: Raise a voice, hear it echo
JUMP! - the transformational power of travel
In today's story episode, I'm going to take you Peru where my friend Rob from OUT Adventures helped me to experience my own outer discovery adventure and inner journey for the soul.
Going into this trip, I had everything on the OUTSIDE that I thought should make me happy, but I wasn't. I was in desperate need of an inner transformation. I needed to find a space within myself where I felt safe enough and brave enough to jump.
It was this inner journey with OUT Adventures where I made one of my own life changing decisions to JUMP.
Transformational travel is an incredible set and setting to embrace and experience the fullest expression of your being. And we each have the opportunity to choose to BE that person right now. It's not the travel that creates the opportunity. It's YOU who gives yourself the full permission to be alive while travelling. You can give yourself that full permission with every breath you take.
For more information on OUT Adventures check out Rob at https://www.outadventures.com/ and @outadventures
For explore more about how Liz helps women find joy in their wellness journeys through travel you can meet Liz at @lizbeancrookston and discover The Archer Group at https://www.thearchergroupinc.ca
For pictures and more from today's episode please visit https://www.thislittlelightofmine.ca
I'm joined with Bonnie Violet. Bonnie is a trans femme genderqueer spiritual drag artist, digital chaplain and host of 'A Queer Chaplin' and 'Splintered Grace' podcasts.
In today's interview episode Bonnie and I will be talking about the recent Netflix conversation therapy documentary, titled 'Pray Away'.
We'll be talking what we found, helpful, hurtful, and what we hope for, should a possible part two be in the works.
Bonnie said it best when she said "Don't pray for me not to be trans. Don't pray for me not to be gay. Pray for me to get closer to God."
Imagine what our world could be if we didn't ask people to change. Imagine what our world could be if we honoured the individuality that God designed into each of us.
Imagine what our world could be if we helped and encouraged each other to go deeper within, to discover how beautiful they already are, instead of teaching people to Pray Away.
What are you praying FOR?
James shows us that loving God and being queer DO belong together
It’s incredible how much of an impact this podcast has had on my life. As a closeted gay Christian myself for 48 years, I’ve never felt safe enough to openly discuss the topics James does with his guests, and to do so with such depth and intimacy is incredibly moving. His own stories are so raw and personal that I want to reach through my iPhone and give him a huge hug for being brave enough and courageous enough to share his story with us. James is truly a positive role model for other queer men and boys growing up in the church and struggling to reconcile the truth of God’s love with the homophobic attitudes that prevail in organized religion. My journey into accepting and falling in love with the man God truly created me to be could not have happened without this podcast. Thank you, James, for showing us there is another way!
I can’t wait for more
Love everything about this. The rawness, the realness, the truth behind one human beings journey through his personal hardships that can be related to so many others. It’s brilliant and I hope James that you never stop sharing your truth.
5 PERFECT STARS
James is an incredible host. Connecting with his guests, while unpacking difficult topics with such ease and positivity is a true skill set. Exploring topics of queerness and healing, you walk away asking new questions and a more in depth perspective.