43 episodes

This Little Light of Mine is an LGBTQ+ tale of terror (growing up as a closeted Gay Christian in the Evangelical church) that led to trauma (cPTSD, religious trauma, spiritual abuse, sexual abuse, addiction) to what I intend to become triumph.


Join me on my healing and recovery journey towards mental health, spiritual health and emotional health as I find my voice by sharing what happened in my life as a Queer Christian where I was taught that I was not allowed to love.

This Little Light of Mine - LGBTQ, Christianity, religious trauma, mental health James Powell

    • Religion & Spirituality
    • 4.9 • 50 Ratings

This Little Light of Mine is an LGBTQ+ tale of terror (growing up as a closeted Gay Christian in the Evangelical church) that led to trauma (cPTSD, religious trauma, spiritual abuse, sexual abuse, addiction) to what I intend to become triumph.


Join me on my healing and recovery journey towards mental health, spiritual health and emotional health as I find my voice by sharing what happened in my life as a Queer Christian where I was taught that I was not allowed to love.

    Love your neighbour

    Love your neighbour

    Are evangelical churches safe spaces for 2SLGBTQ humans? How can a space that may be considered 'unsafe' transform into a welcoming and affirming space? Is it possible to create a safe space for all people?


    In today's episode, I'm joined with James Sholl, my personal friend and Senior Pastor of Wellspring Worship Centre in Toronto. James helps us explore these questions and much more.


    One of the things I really appreciate about James' approach is that he is doing the hard and sometimes messy work with the people at Wellspring to show love to all of their neighbours, including the 2SLGBTQ+ community that other evangelical churches can fight to exclude.

    • 59 min
    Christmas survival

    Christmas survival

    Christmas survival tips for LGBTQ Christians


    This year has been a doozie for so many of us. And if you're anything like me the holiday season usually amplifies any feelings of loneliness, disconnection, or otherness that I may have swirling around in my head.


    I know that I'm not alone on this one. For many Queer people of faith, the holiday season can be really hard and really dark. That cheery exterior that we are expected to portray in pictures, at parties, and on social media, that's not the reality for many of us.


    Growing up I was constantly reminded that Christmas IS a time of warmth, happiness, chestnuts roasting on an open fire, singing carols at a candlelit Christmas Eve church service, and joyous family celebrations where you lovingly exchange gifts and where you spend time relaxing, connecting, and sharing meals with close family relatives. You know, all those fuzzy warm images and picture-perfect endings we see on the Hallmark Channel, and for some, that is their reality.


    But for others, people like me, that's a fantasy and it's a painful reminder of what I'm told I wasn't allowed to be.


    I get how hard this time of the year can be. I know how desperately hard so many of us want that perfect Hallmark Christmas fantasy to be our reality. It's not easy NOT being part of what is 'generally accepted' and what 'everyone else may be doing', but that doesn't make you wrong. 


    My hope is that these top 7 Christmas survival tips for LGBTQ Christians will help you navigate any choppy waters in the weeks ahead.


    No matter what your reality is this holiday season I want you to know something with absolute certainty.


    You are loved unconditionally by God who made you exactly as you are.


    Merry Christmas


    James


    www.thislittlelightofmine.ca


    Referenced Links:


    Glennon Doyle's 'We can do hard things' podcast


    What is Religious Trauma Syndrome

    • 17 min
    Rehab

    Rehab

    Hello and welcome to This Little Light of Mine, my name is James Powell and I'm so glad that you were able to join me for today's story episode entitled Rehab. 


    In today's episode, I'm taking you on the road with me to Philadelphia where I'm about to check into the trauma-informed rehab facility where I will be living for the next 30 days. Parts of me are still on a high from making the decision to attend, parts of me are terrified of what's right around the corner, and other parts of me are starting to have doubts that I may have made one of the biggest mistakes of my life in coming here.


    James


    www.thislittlelightofmine.ca

    • 19 min
    Silence is deadly: how to talk about suicide

    Silence is deadly: how to talk about suicide

    Hello and Welcome to This Little Light Of Mine, my name is James Powell and I'm really glad that you are able to join me for today's interview episode.


    Today I'm joined with David Laskovski who is joining our conversation on mental health and will be helping us delve a little deeper into the topic of suicide. David developed the HELP model, that provides new tools and resources to professionals in Toronto's Emergency Medical Services to intervene and help those who may be suicidal.


    Before we jump into today's episode I want to provide two important caveats. The first is a trigger warning. Suicide is an important and uncomfortable topic that touches many of our lives (even if we may not be aware that it does). While this conversation may be uncomfortable I know that it is a conversation that we need to get more comfortable with. That being said, the timing of this conversation may not be for everyone, right now. Please proceed with caution and listen to your body on what you need to be safe in this moment.


    The second caveat that I want to share is that David is my boyfriend. David has helped me grow in a number of ways over the past couple of years and I wanted to invite him on to share some of his kindness, wisdom, and love so that it might help others too.


    With David's expertise my hope and intention behind this episode is that we can all get a little more comfortable talking about this uncomfortable topic.


    James


    Episode links:


    Kevin Hines - Golden Gate Bridge


    Guide: How to talk about suicide

    • 55 min
    Coming out again

    Coming out again

    Hello and welcome to This Little Light of Mine, my name is James Powell and I'm so glad that you were able to join me for today's story episode entitled Coming out again.


    In today's episode I walk you some of the uncomfortable yet necessary events that followed my big decision to JUMP! from S02E05. I'm putting my decision to attend an in-patient trauma-informed rehab facility into action. It's time for me to get vulnerable, out myself in an entirely new way, and have conversations with my parents and with my employer, to share that I need to take time away to heal.


    I have so many thoughts and feelings come up when I think back to that time and space in my life. I was on a constant pendulum swinging back and forth between fear and relief.


    What I now know for sure, coming out is not a binary process. When we are growing and evolving, we are in a perpetual process of coming out.


    What are some areas of your life that you now feel safe enough to come out of your shell some more?


    James.


    https://www.thislittlelightofmine.ca

    • 22 min
    Pray FOR

    Pray FOR

    I'm joined with Bonnie Violet. Bonnie is a trans femme genderqueer spiritual drag artist, digital chaplain and host of 'A Queer Chaplin' and 'Splintered Grace' podcasts.  


    In today's interview episode Bonnie and I will be talking about the recent Netflix conversation therapy documentary, titled 'Pray Away'. 


    We'll be talking what we found, helpful, hurtful, and what we hope for, should a possible part two be in the works.


    Bonnie said it best when she said "Don't pray for me not to be trans. Don't pray for me not to be gay. Pray for me to get closer to God."


    Imagine what our world could be if we didn't ask people to change. Imagine what our world could be if we honoured the individuality that God designed into each of us.


    Imagine what our world could be if we helped and encouraged each other to go deeper within, to discover how beautiful they already are, instead of teaching people to Pray Away.


    What are you praying FOR?


    James


    http://www.thislittlelightofmine.ca

    • 59 min

Customer Reviews

4.9 out of 5
50 Ratings

50 Ratings

NK_Snix ,

I can’t wait for more

Love everything about this. The rawness, the realness, the truth behind one human beings journey through his personal hardships that can be related to so many others. It’s brilliant and I hope James that you never stop sharing your truth.

Foodscapes ,

5 PERFECT STARS

James is an incredible host. Connecting with his guests, while unpacking difficult topics with such ease and positivity is a true skill set. Exploring topics of queerness and healing, you walk away asking new questions and a more in depth perspective.

RichyRich0077 ,

LGBTQ mental health matters

Thank you for speaking up for LGBTQ mental health. This is a topic that many of us don't want to acknowledge, let alone share so bravely. Growing up in the Catholic church I was deeply wounded. I too can see the how the roots of religious trauma run deep in my life. Thank you for helping me see that I'm not alone and helping me see that I can be a gay Christian

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