30 min
Episode 11 - MY STORY: Cranes in the Sky unfertility
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- Personal Journals
I am back with another episode of my own story and general catchup about my/our journey so far and how I'm dealing with the break of IVF. Over the last few weeks, Solange's song 'Cranes in the Sky' has taken a whole new meaning for me. "I tried to drink it away. I tried to put one in the air. I tried to dance it away. I tried to change it with my hair. I ran my credit card bill up. Thought a new dress would make it better. I tried to work it away. But that just made me even sadder. I tried to keep myself busy. I ran around in circles. Think I made myself dizzy. I slept it away, I sexed it away. I read it away. It's like cranes in the sky. Sometimes I don't wanna feel those metal clouds. Yeah it's like cranes in the sky. Sometimes I don't wanna feel those metal clouds".
In an effort to not deal with my grief, I have done all these things. Solange explained the meaning of the song as this excessive building up, and not really dealing with what was in front of us - and the same rings true for the recently resurfaced wave of PTSD I'm currently going through which has been building up for a while now. I'm keen to know how you guys cope with the grief of failed embryo transfers and the general grief of a life NOT as you imagined it?
I am back with another episode of my own story and general catchup about my/our journey so far and how I'm dealing with the break of IVF. Over the last few weeks, Solange's song 'Cranes in the Sky' has taken a whole new meaning for me. "I tried to drink it away. I tried to put one in the air. I tried to dance it away. I tried to change it with my hair. I ran my credit card bill up. Thought a new dress would make it better. I tried to work it away. But that just made me even sadder. I tried to keep myself busy. I ran around in circles. Think I made myself dizzy. I slept it away, I sexed it away. I read it away. It's like cranes in the sky. Sometimes I don't wanna feel those metal clouds. Yeah it's like cranes in the sky. Sometimes I don't wanna feel those metal clouds".
In an effort to not deal with my grief, I have done all these things. Solange explained the meaning of the song as this excessive building up, and not really dealing with what was in front of us - and the same rings true for the recently resurfaced wave of PTSD I'm currently going through which has been building up for a while now. I'm keen to know how you guys cope with the grief of failed embryo transfers and the general grief of a life NOT as you imagined it?
30 min