Gajok • 가‪족‬ Jieun and Greg

Happy Asian American Native Hawaiian Pacific Islander Heritage Month, friends. 🌼

In honor of this month, for the next 10 days, Greg and I are giving away a free and exclusive gift to every person that joins our Patreon Community.

Between May 21 and May 31, every new subscribing Patreon Member — all tiers included — will receive a dandelion enamel pin made by New Jersey-based South Asian American artist, Rubeena Ianigro.

Here are the 4 steps to becoming a Patreon Member:

① Go to our Patreon page: patreon.com/jieunandgreg② Choose a membership tier③ Enter your payment info and subscribe④ You’re in! Your dandelion pin is on its way 💌

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These last five years, I've been on a journey of being the most myself that I can be, and giving less fucks about what other people will think about me. Grief has made me give way less f***s than ever before. I'm proud of the way that I'm fundraising this year. I'm just honoring my very limited capacity and not pushing myself too far beyond my boundaries, and then feeling resentful and bitter for doing too much and not getting enough back in return. I'm proud of myself for continuing to learn how to untangle my worth from the external validation of others. I'm proud of myself for surviving the most nightmarish year of my fucking life. I'm proud of myself for every little thing I did and didn't do to get here. I'm even proud of every mistake I made along the way, because it got me to where I'm at today. I'm so fucking proud of you, Jieun.

Happy Asian American Native Hawaiian Pacific Islander Heritage Month, friends. 🌼

In honor of this month, for the next 10 days, Greg and I are giving away a free and exclusive gift to every person that joins our Patreon Community.

Between May 21 and May 31, every new subscribing Patreon Member — all tiers included — will receive a dandelion enamel pin made by New Jersey-based South Asian American artist, Rubeena Ianigro.

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Thank you, Lindsey Fiegelman, for being the second person to become a Patreon Member during our AANHPI Patreon Fundraiser! In this episode, I read my essay, "The Resilience and Strength of the Humble Dandelion." This is why I chose the dandelion to be our Patreon gift this year.

Happy Asian American Native Hawaiian Pacific Islander Heritage Month, friends. 🌼

In honor of this month, for the next 10 days, Greg and I are giving away a free and exclusive gift to every person that joins our Patreon Community.

Between May 21 and May 31, every new subscribing Patreon Member — all tiers included — will receive a dandelion enamel pin made by New Jersey-based South Asian American artist, Rubeena Ianigro.

Here are the 4 steps to becoming a Patreon Member:

① Go to our Patreon page: patreon.com/jieunandgreg② Choose a membership tier③ Enter your payment info and subscribe④ You’re in! Your dandelion pin is on its way 💌

Click the button below and become a Patreon Member today.

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Shoutout to Sharon for becoming our first Patreon Member to subscribe during our fundraiser! An epiphany that I had today, while I was talking to Greg, was that I've been unknowingly living by this mantra for the last year: "I'm going to do what I can, when I can, with what I have." And it's kind of mind-blowing what I can accomplish and achieve when I lower the bar and give myself a fighting chance to win. I feel so much better about myself when I'm not berating myself for not being able to achieve something impossible, when I have -1000 in the tank. And from this place of pride in myself for simply existing, the byproduct is joy and creation. That's pretty fucking cool.

Happy Asian American Native Hawaiian Pacific Islander Heritage Month, friends. 🌼

In honor of this month, for the next 10 days, Greg and I are giving away a free and exclusive gift to every person that joins our Patreon Community.

Between May 21 and May 31, every new subscribing Patreon Member — all tiers included — will receive a dandelion enamel pin made by South Asian American artist, Rubeena Ianigro.

Here’s are the 4 steps to becoming a Patreon Member:

① Go to our Patreon page: patreon.com/jieunandgreg② Choose a membership tier③ Enter your payment info and subscribe④ You’re in! Your dandelion pin is on its way 💌

Become a Patreon Member today.

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I recorded this episode so late because I was working on sending out our newsletter announcing our Patreon AANHPI Heritage Month Special Offer, creating graphics, and sharing the announcement on Instagram. Dandelions hold a lot of meaning to me. I feels like they accurately represent us and our year — resilient, resourceful, and persevering. They miraculously grow out of places that nothing should grow. Out of death, springs new life. Out of devastation, springs beauty.

Happy Asian American Native Hawaiian Pacific Islander Heritage Month, friends. 🌸 For the month of May, I will be fundraising for our salaries on Patreon. If you have benefited from this podcast, our music, my writing, or any other art we've created, we invite you to subscribe and become a Patreon Member today. As independent artists, we heavily rely on the support of our community — that's you. If you believe in us and the work that we're doing, invest in us so we can continue to create meaningful art for years to come. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/jieunandgreg

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Humans need rest! Rest is so hard for me. I burnt myself out and had to pay for it. And I'm still paying for it. I'm learning how to rest and take care of myself better, but over-functioning is a really hard habit to break for me.

Happy Asian American Native Hawaiian Pacific Islander Heritage Month! For the month of May, I will be fundraising for our salaries. If you have benefited from this podcast, our music, my writing, or any other art we've created, we invite you to subscribe and become a Patreon Member today. As independent artists, we heavily rely on the support of our community — that's you. If you believe in us and the work that we're doing, invest in us so we can continue to create meaningful art for years to come. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/jieunandgreg

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I watched a very beautifully filmed documentary short called "Sammy's Final Arrangement," by Oof Stories. You can find the film on Vimeo, and I highly recommend it. He talks about life and death, and how death is a catalyst for life. I don't know if I completely agree, because I think death is also just death. But I do think that being so close to death makes you realize just how short life really is. Some grievers hate flowers — I happen to love them even more in grief. They brought beauty to a really devastating and dark thing that happened to me. I feel like I see so much meaning and beauty in so many things in the aftermath of 아빠's death. I also feel the weight of tragedy and suffering in so many things in the aftermath of 아빠's death. Grief is to constantly live in the tension.