The Teenager's Diary Shadow Sparkling

Generally, I asked anyone about what type of person are you – hug or kiss. Of course, this question comes later on when I had built the bridge of intimacy with that person. Most of the people say that it varies on the situation. And then, the hug types come in. I myself, prefer hugs more than kisses. Why? Well, hugs give you that brotherhood, ‘you matter’ feeling that sometimes we CRAVE. And it’s alright. You are not alone. Sometimes, IT GETS TOO HEAVY TO BEAR OUR BURDEN AND IT’S GOOD TO GIVE OUT THROUGH THE MEDIUM CALLED, ‘HUG(S)’. Well, I’ll be a little personal now…

Okay, true love has been done. There is no doubt. It has been done from my side. I know it. Well, read the entry “TRUE LOVE?” once this is over. Love that had started was somewhat… unknowingly done (you can say that, sorry I didn’t find a better word). Whatever at the first moment, it was a crush. She was then transformed into my lust. Yeah, that’s true. I even jerked off quite a times just thinking about her 😜. And now, after that incident… I look at her in a totally different way. It’s very different from the way I looked at her. It is. It’s like a human looks at its most precious which was previously its food. All that said 🙂… let’s dive deep.

We are surrounded by large & small companies. And among them, there are some for every individual, in which he believes in. He/she believes that this/that company is going to soar high up. This/that company is going to be helpful. So much that when asked, he himself wants to be a part of the company. But just because you like it, the manager of the company isn’t going to give you a job. Right? So, the best way to contribute to the growth of something in which you believe in, is by owning that stock of that company. See that’s it. And then hold it, don’t sell it. Keep it till you really need the money. And this money is going to work by itself. It doesn’t sleep. And this thing you are doing, just buying some stocks of company is investing. And when you do it INTELLIGENTLY, this investing goes on to become your best source of making money. You just gotta wait.

Leave it… That kinda doesn’t matter as much as the fact you have dreamt down after looking at your surroundings… You know what I mean, don’t you? How many times DID YOU DECIDE TO DREAM SMALL after seeing that your current situation might not be good enough to fulfill your future big dreams? DREAMS MADE SMALL IS A HUGE CRIME. Well, darkness is always a part of everything. Light cannot exist without dark. And surrendering to the darkness is even worse. Surrendering your big dreams are not forgiveness worthy…

Why not die? That’s something which has been enraging a war at a part of my life. WAR is truly the right word. I was in depression and suicidal at some points in life. A storm was ravaging inside me. It tore away pieces of everything that existed. I destroyed a part of myself. But through that process, I might have discovered another path to be WHAT I TRULY WAS.

Well, it’s not easy to be an OVERTHINKER. There runs around a million, sorry, a gazillion (I don’t know how much is it) thoughts in our head, and if you are a pro, all of the thoughts (except some) are just replied with ‘uh-oh’. There are thoughts of all categories. All f*cking categories. All kinds of f*cking categories. A thousand ones out of a trillion thoughts probably are worth thinking about. But to segregate (an important word), is time-consuming and along the way, you forget a lot. Well, thankfully the pen and paper come to rescue. Thanks.