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Don't mind me I'm just in another state of existential anxiety. The season 3 finale begins with a general how am I feeling? Type of check in. September & October can feel like a rough time for me as I anticipate the end of the year. I've been in a “trying my best” type of mood just carrying on with things.
I talk about doomscrolling into the rabbit hole of conspiracy theories and manifestation vs goal setting before starting my entertainment roundup of sorts.
Survivor 45 is pretty good!
A no spoilers version of my thoughts on Baldur’s Gate 3.
Getting back into Modded Minecraft
The excitement of Secret Life SMP dropping
Why I’m not watching the FNAF movie
Recent music finds: Jordan Ward & Teezo Touchdown

Post pandemic, America is deep in a loneliness epidemic as social isolation is at an all time high.

I've decided to be tactfully vulnerable and share my struggles with friendships, mainly desiring new friendships but struggling with social anxiety especially when getting to know people. I talk through and own some insecurities about my social life in hopes that you can find solidarity.

I also dive into what my healing journey has looked like, and what exactly is the work? It's important to point out that the rhetoric surrounding healing and self worth on social media lacks nuance and can be a slippery slope into more shame and isolation.

Remember: Prioritize joy even when you feel like crap!

How To Raise Your Self-Esteem by Nathaniel Branden

To Be Magnetic by Lacy Phillips

S2 E3 It's OK To Be Weird.

Sorry I missed last episode guys, Mercury was LITERALLY in retrograde. Plus like, every other planet or something. Today I'll be giving an overview of my understanding of astrology! Our favorite coping mechanism.

I wanted to acknowledge my perspective is through tropical astrology and the placidus house system. Recognizing the systems of astrology forming your understanding helps combat the muddy waters of appropriation and losing nuance to social media content made for generalized audiences.

I'll give a taste of information about houses, planets, signs, degrees, aspects, transits, rulers, and more. But of course, I'm not a professional. This episode is for entertainment purposes only. Assume nothing and do your own research!

Astrology 101 YouTube video with visuals

Astrology for Real Life by Theresa Reade (workbook)

Moon Matters Podcast

TimePassages / Astrograph (I recommend their premium app on either google play or the app store.)

Let's revisit the good old times, talking about music and games!

On the music side: my opinion on Travis Scott's UTOPIA as an outsider who's never listened to Rodeo or Astroworld, thoughts on some up and coming artists, and take on Kiana Ledé's recent album Grudges. I also ponder who I think could be the top artists on my Spotify Wrapped for 2023, and where I stand on being a "stan" vs a fan of an artist.
On the gaming side: my first solo platinum being Cult of the Lamb, and my first platinum (with help) being Elden Ring. I'm currently replaying Elden Ring to claim every achievement on my own! I've also revisited the Sims 4, pleasantly surprised to see some new updates, and mention my experience playing iconic open world titles such as The Legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom and Ghost of Tsushima.

Links mentioned:
It’s OK To Be Weird
Sunshine (Summer 2023 Playlist)
Blue Water Road Episode
Gov Ball Episode
Something Are Better Left Unfinished

A follow up from the previous episode! Let’s discuss what it’s been like post big chop, breaking my computer and getting a new one, and the transformative energy I’ve been going through lately.

What is the lion’s gate portal? I don’t know! I did go on an astrology tangent in this one too.

When it comes to recentering myself, I think about short term vs long term goals, and habits to maintain vs things that can be checked off a list.

I’m figuring out my creativity and how to approach my creative endeavors. Also navigating going through changes and detaching from the identity of who I “used to be.” Getting comfortable with who I am in the present moment.  Feeling like no one’s like me but everyone is the same, including me. Yin yang!

Hate your life? Have you tried letting go of the past and trying new habits? (sarcasm)

It’s a little over halfway through the year and I find myself questioning my progress on self imposed goals once again.

Lately, this has meant rearranging my frequently used spaces after a feng shui learning binge, purging my clothes by donating and selling a bunch, and navigating the guilt that comes with letting go of what didn’t work.

I've also made the choice to do the big chop and say goodbye to my self proclaimed “purple era.” Removing bleach fried hair will leave me with a pixie cut. You know what they say, hair holds memories and trauma. But for me, this means saying goodbye to the magic of 2022. 

This episode does ramble about self help and gratitude, with a general theme of making choices for my own benefit despite what other people might say.