I AM Rising Tina Marie Bertoli

This 4th episode was recorded when I was in my 2nd year of studying with Alchemy of Breath,  (my school), as a mentor. 

I share some of the trauma from receiving the actual diagnosis, multiple surgeries and the aftermath,  toxic drugs, not feeling safe in my body, and dissociating.  I share how breast cancer cracked me open to meet myself on the inside; how I truly met my light in the darkness by facing my death and my willingness to embrace the unknown.

In Alchemy of Breath, we did an exercise of writing a letter from our death bed, breaths away from our dying self to our current self. 

I share the letter to music as a healing process.  The 2nd half being very meditative provides the opportunity for you to inquire into your own life and experience, opening your heart to the moment and what comes up for you. 

 

I AM Rising Season 2, Episode 2; "The In-Between"

In this 2nd episode, I go a little deeper in sharing my journey through a life-threatening breast cancer diagnosis and 2 and a half year recovery.  I read a journal entry of when I was in the darkest of times.  This was after surgeries and chemotherapy and I felt dead on the inside just as much as the outside.  Some things I talk about are:


Once cancer is in the body it’s a wake up call; a calling to go inside.
Breathing new life to those parts that shut down/closed.
How we build up walls and create identities to protect ourselves
Cancer as a punishment vs cancer as a gift; how I slowly got there
Shame/guilt, embarrassment, closure, giving power away, and how toxic this is to the body.
How to feel whole vibrant alive again after severe trauma.
The choice to surrender.
What is the true medicine? How to navigate resistance.
Last few moments invitation to breathe, open, and drop in to embrace yourself. What new commitment can you make for yourself?

Season Two: Episode One of I AM Rising and a dramatic title that is based completely in truth.

Death, Rebirth; the Return. After 3 years of a healing recovery from a life-threatening breast cancer diagnosis, Tina opens up about her journey of meeting her death face to face.

In this first episode, she reads a part of her journal when she is in the darkest of places. After surgeries, and chemotherapy, no hair, no eyebrows, no eyelashes, feeling lost, dead inside, like a shell of a human being, wondering if she would ever even remotely feel like herself again, whoever that even was anymore.

She shares deeply and authentically and we peer into the depths of her suffering in the pitch-black, darkness. She then shares the total contrast of a journal entry a year or so later demonstrating a complete turnaround!

Tina lays the groundwork about some of what she did during this time to heal and paints a picture of what to expect for future episodes.

Mary Magdalene, a true embodiment of the Divine Feminine, has been around me for many years preparing me for the Goddess work that I'm currently doing in my work with women. Her consciousness and energy comes through with a "Sisterhood of the Rose", a powerful tribe of High Priestesses, Goddesses, and women throughout "her-story."

During a very difficult time of my life, I called out to her in pain, in frustration, in such a dark night of the soul, and she spoke to me, and to us, and this episode is her channeled message to bring hope, light, love and clarity in moving forward.

We are in a period awakening on this planet, and with this awakening comes many changes. There have been so many obstacles, challenges and hardships. So many of my clients and students have reached out to ask what is happening!

So, I asked my angels and guides why things have been so difficult, why so many of us are having challenges on a regular basis, and what is happening as a whole that we are stuck and unable to move forward.

And in meditation I received a powerful message that I channel and share with you on this episode, leading to a healing meditation at the end to help you move from any darkness in your life into the light...