4 episodes

I am Fredrik Liljegren, and this is my weblog / podcast.
I don't really know what will come out of this, but it will most probably be quite a mix of self development, spirituality, relating, biohacking, gardening, brewing (mead & beer), parenting, learning and growing. And oh, barefooting of course.  Perhaps some spiritual science?
Welcome.


This podcast is the audio version of my blog.

Ramblings of fiddur Fredrik Liljegren

    • Religion & Spirituality

I am Fredrik Liljegren, and this is my weblog / podcast.
I don't really know what will come out of this, but it will most probably be quite a mix of self development, spirituality, relating, biohacking, gardening, brewing (mead & beer), parenting, learning and growing. And oh, barefooting of course.  Perhaps some spiritual science?
Welcome.


This podcast is the audio version of my blog.

    It's OK

    It's OK

    I have many teachers, inner and outer.  Every morning, in my ceremony, I meet up with some of them.
    This morning, when meeting the mistress of ovate, she was a young girl, sitting on the grass, playing with something on the ground.  Without looking at me, she tells me "It's OK to cry, you know."  I felt the tears flowing up, a tension I was barely aware of softening a bit.  There was no sympathy or pity or any emotion in what she said, just the simple naturalness of the statement, relaxed and soft.
    Then she came in the form of a young woman. "It's OK to be horny, you know?"  Her statement a little bit playful, poking at my fear of showing emotion.  My years of feeling wrong for ever having an arousal that wasn't reciprocated. I could go into how the society deems any man with an erection a danger, because a few cannot control themselves, but no, this is my fear of being wrong, my fear of letting anyone see that I'm moved or touched.  These last 2-3 years has been a journey of finding acceptance for parts of me I wasn't even aware I had rejected, and even less having the idea that it could be accepted by anyone else. Not digging for any background of why I inhibited my own emotions so much in the first place, I feel the gratitude of my community of teachers in everyone I meet and feel safe with. A softening opens up, allowing both tears and arousal at the same time.
    Joining in, she now comes as an old crone, chuckling a bit and stating "It's OK to die, you know."  ...  It is, I know. I've often imagined myself living for quite many years ahead, and I couldn't really feel into any fear of dying.  I seldom feel fear about anyone else dying either. It's just death, the most certain part of any life.
    It's OK.  I sit with these statements for the rest of my ceremony.  Grateful for inner teachers and my daily practice.
    Thank you.

    Its ok
    0:00/2:38

    Surrender as religion

    Surrender as religion

    My religion is surrender.  My spiritual path is relaxation.
    Surrender to whatever there is, because it is the only thing that is. What comes to your attention, is the reality to attend.
    The path of relaxation leads to the most beautiful of destinations: Here.
    All that tension does, is fighting to get away from here.  Tensing up to keep away the discomfort, which in the end is just the discomfort of the tension that it tries to keep away.
    So relax.  Nothing is under control.
    There are practices on the path of relaxation, the path to here; what's a spiritual path without a discipline? 😉
    There is yoga asana, for how else will I relax when leaning sideways from a ladder screwing a beam in place?
    There is still meditation, the relaxation of just observing, the mind, the sensations, the emotions.
    There is ceremony with spirits that as frankly as a child points out to me where I'm still deceiving myself, so I can relax tensions I didn't know I had.
    There is ceremony again, with powers filling me with the presence of awareness to catch myself wanting to flee from here, when here is where I am, the only where I am.
    There is qi gong and other energetic practices, giving me the energy to see the melody, to feel the beauty, and to hear the softness of reality.
    And relating... In it all is relating. Relating to what is, to who is.
    Relating when relaxed, surrendered;  I am free to love.

    Surrender as religion
    0:00/2:19

    Yoni-massage — Worshiping the Source of Creation

    Yoni-massage — Worshiping the Source of Creation

    I first came across "tantric massage" 20 years ago through a book by Kenneth Ray Stubbs.  But it wasn't until the fall of 2019 when I received a lingam massage and my own energy channels opened up widely that I really started to experience the depth and width of it and started giving yoni massages more often to a couple of women.  Studying more (both video courses of yoni- and taomassage, and live teachings), I now combine it with my knowledge of energy channels like the microcosmic orbit and the body's yin/yang flow, and it has became a ceremony of worshiping the divine feminine.
    In our society, many men have littered the path into the yoni with their own lower urge to release themselves, dump their load, fed by sexualized imagery.  And that, together with shame and all shoulds and should-nots, leaves scars in the hearts of women, blocking off parts of their feeling, their openness and ultimately the creative forces themselves.  Few people have a healthy relationship with their own sexuality, and a so called "tantric massage" can help to heal this, to release blockages and de-armour this source of all creation.
    In being honored to deeply touch the inner essence of a woman, to experience her whole being open up in an increasing flow, I really feel the base point of the creative forces in the universe.
    A tantric yoni massage opens up for a full flow of life through the very potent energy source of the womb, opening up for healing in all areas of life.  It is beautiful to witness and a deep honor to facilitate and assist in opening this flow.
    The word yoni is sanskrit, योनि and has many meanings: place of birth, source, origin, spring, fountain, place of rest, repository, receptacle, seat, abode, home, lair, nest, stable, the womb, uterus, vulva, vagina, female organs of generation. – Christopher Hareesh WallisTreading the path toward the origin must be done with open intuition, feeling into the woman and building trust, step by step releasing tension.  It is always different, but here is what this ceremony could be like:
    Before I meet her, I make sure that I am in my own flow.  I do my daily ceremony, renewing and affirming connection to ancestors and helper spirits, and let go of any blockages in my own body.  I put myself into a mindset of grace, a state of reverence of the divine, doing qi gong to have my energies in order.  Clearing and setting the space.
    Meeting her, feeling the flow of love, I hold the space in openness.  I feel into her body with my awareness, and let her express where she is in her beingness right now, what draws her attention and where insecurities might lie.  Meeting in a long hug, relaxing, and sitting down in eye gazing for a while, allowing for whatever comes up.
    The massage starts with guiding her into a relaxed state.   I place my still hands on energy centers, for her to let her thoughts rest, let go of disharmony, receive acceptance, open up for curiousity and freedom in centeredness.  She is reminded throughout to breathe deeply all the way down to the perineum.  With flowing strokes I start to balance and invite flow to her energy channels all through the body.  I move as in qi gong, breathing out when stroking away from my body, breathing in on the way back.  Only soft touch on yin channels, a gentle pressure on yang.  Tactile massage mostly, some muscle massage where needed, mostly on neck and shoulders (but when more tension is present, deeper muscle work could be done before the energy massage to get an uninterrupted flow).  Following the microcosmic orbit going up her spine and neck, down the front to perineum…  Flowing out in legs and arms.  I activate energy centers in her heart and sacrum with a soft knocking, then mixing the chi from those energy centers in a flow around the spine.  All the while I keep a meditative mind and the energy in my own body flows up my spine and out into my hands with every breath.
    After massaging the whole body - neck, h

    Awakening through semen retention

    Awakening through semen retention

    I'm quitting ejaculation, and it is changing my life!
    This is my personal journey how I came to do "Semen Retention" and the experiences following that the last 3-4 months.  It's personal; for generic information, follow the links at the bottom.
    Trigger Warning!  This post includes a lot of metaphysical woo-woo 😏
    My experiences include:
    Great energy in all my endeavors.Increased presence, feeling of being me and standing in my own power.Getting rid of social anxiety.Deeper personal relating, eye contact, open honesty.Accelerated personal development, facing fears and expanding comfort zone.Full body orgasms without ejaculation.Less need for sleep (delayed effect, goes away with a single ejaculation).Decrease in body fat.My journey includes a lot more than just semen retention, but it was a step that profoundly accelerated everything.  I have a hard time expressing how big this shift has been for me; each week has felt like a month of active self development, and I can only hope to inspire someone else to try this out and get their own amazing new perspective on life!
    I am beautiful and f****d up in the most glorious way! - Fia, Shedding SkinsFirst encounters with non-ejaculationBack in 2000 I bought some of Mantak Chia's books.  The one I studied most teaches how to awake and use the microcosmic orbit, circulating the qi energy for improved health.  The other ones are about "sexual kung fu"; I read some and tried practicing non-ejaculatory sex in 2001 with what later became my wife, but I was not very successful, rather it was just frustrating for us both with me stopping constantly.  He talks about not ejaculating, and that there are great benefits from circulating the jing energy stored in the semen through the microcosmic orbit, but I never managed to experience that back then…
    The teaching is that according to taoism and traditional chinese medicine, our semen contains huge amounts of jing, and by frequent ejaculation (like every week and more…), that energy is lost and instead a lot of otherwise available energy goes to producing new semen.  There are physical parts of this, like nutrients required for the body to form new semen, testoterone increases after 7-10 days without ejaculation etc.  Jing energy from semen can be transmuted to other types of qi and used for bodily healing, and if you learn to move it through the microcosmic orbit, it leads to even more healing and eventually spiritual enlightenment.
    In ayurvedic terms, they talk about ojas, a type of energy said to promote mental strength, stability, endurance, patience, calmness, good memory and sustained concentration, happiness, contentment and bliss!
    But, most importantly the effect is one of the change in mindset; regarding yourself, your sexuality, and your relating to other people, especially the people of your arousal.
    A meeting of hearts 💞Jumping ahead to the summer of 2018.  We had our annual shamanic gathering here at Hökås gård, with people offering different workshops.  This year, Ove & Maria held a "Hearts meeting" ceremony with breathing together in double circle and then sitting in couples breathing through each other, eye gazing, for a long while; breathing deeply, laughing, crying, seeing the full beauty of this woman I only knew as an acquaintance before.  It was very intimate, and at times arousing.  The rest of that weekend during the gathering, I was frequently sexually aroused, and honestly had a hard time not looking at all the beautiful women as sexual beings, and at the same time feeling shame for having that association in a non-sexual context.  I tried going for masturbation, but my heart was not interested, it didn't feel right…
    After the gathering, I started feeling an urge to meet people, being more personal.  Up to this, most of my free time outside work and family I dedicated to projects and open group activities; the activity was the focus, not the person.  Now I was interested in being more p

Top Podcasts In Religion & Spirituality

Ascension Catholic Faith Formation
D-Group
Hank Smith & John Bytheway
Joel Osteen
Blaze Podcast Network
BibleProject