The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast

Amanda Lynette Arnier, MLS
The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Podcast

Prepare to be captivated by The Dichotomy Diaries, an invitation to embark on an extraordinary journey through a web of eerily similar firsthand accounts. Brace yourself for tales of manipulation, domestic turmoil, narcissistic intrigue, and financial deceit—all driven by the intoxicating illusion of love. In Season One, you’ll be introduced to nine remarkable women, each unaware of their shared connection: the enigmatic figure who upended their lives. Dive headfirst into their stories, commencing in the present day, as one courageous wife & host, Amanda Arnier navigates the treacherous waters of a chaotic divorce. Along the way, she unravels a trail of women left in her husband’s turbulent wake. This is a narrative that delves deep, exposing the shadowy underbelly of financial domination, escorting, and compulsive gambling, all concealed beneath the veneer of a seemingly perfect partner. Join us on a journey that will both shock and inspire, as we explore the complexities of love’s dichotomy and the resilience of those who emerge from its depths. Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @manda.miura TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries

  1. EPISODE 1

    S1:E1 - The Sin City Serpent

    Want the SCOOP & UNEDITED Visual Timeline for ALL The Dichotomy Diaries Episodes AND MORE?... Click below. You won't want to miss how Season One ENDS...  PATREON IS LIVE!!! and MERCH IS LIVE!!! Dear Diary (& Listeners), There is nothing more difficult than losing a loved one.  The pain one experiences when they can no longer hug, kiss, smell, confide in, and share life with a loved one is unlike any other.  Imagine experiencing this pain abruptly. There's just one difference, your loved one isn't dead. They ran away, entirely aware of the pain they knew this would cause you.  How does one manage the stages of grief and the confusion intertwined in such a malicious act- at the hands of someone they trusted?  It's fucking hard, but it is possible. I am proof.  This inaugural episode of The Dichotomy Diaries is called The Sin City Serpent. You will relive with me; meeting the Mormon/Latter Day Saint (LDS) man I married. We will dive into the spiraling, dark world where his career choice lived. You will experience the love-bombing, narcissistic tendencies, and financial abuse and manipulation first hand. Together we will dissect how deep trauma bonds are formed. And how trauma responses can look different for everyone.  You may find yourself, like me- asking these questions... Why does she offer love to those who treat her so poorly? Why does she exhaust herself for the sake of others' comfort? Why does she anchor her "home" in another person rather than within herself? These questions and more will be answered throughout Season One.  If you're looking for "The Tea", you have come to the right place. Every episode released will get you closer and closer to the center of what just might be, the cruelest love scam of all time. Stay tuned for surprise BONUS episodes featuring special guests and the highly anticipated upcoming episodes featuring the NINE WOMEN who DICK got to first; and how all of this was unknown, until now. If you're looking for an amazing story on True Crime, Narcissistic Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Financial Abuse, Manipulation, Sex Work, and Spiritual Abuse. You're in the right place. Brace yourself, this is just beginning.   With Truth, Courage, and Pain, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

    1h 34m
  2. EPISODE 2

    S1:E2 - Shroom Things & Wedding Rings

    Want the SCOOP & UNEDITED Visual Timeline for ALL The Dichotomy Diaries Episodes AND MORE?... Click below. You won't want to miss how Season One ENDS...  PATREON IS LIVE!!! and MERCH IS LIVE!!! Dear Diary (& Listeners), I had a profound realization this week.  It's easy to view all that has happened as a loss. A devastating, painful loss.  Recounting my relentless effort and hope left me with this overwhelming feeling of emptiness.  How could I have given and given with absolutely nothing in return? Why did he never feel or notice how hard I was trying to love him? Was I actually loving him? And then it clicked. Sometimes, the way we learn the true meaning of Unconditional Love- is by experiencing the pain of its absence. This wasn't one big L. My Try, My Consistency, My Persistence...it was all unconditional, always.  This week you will start to see Dick's true colors start to emerge. Lies wrapped in manipulation presenting themself as love are sprinkled all over this episode. You'll meet a few Sugar Daddies, Our Bishop, and find yourself front row to the epic way Dick proposed...   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

    1h 24m
  3. EPISODE 3

    S1:E3 - Electric Daisy Abandonment

    Want the SCOOP & UNEDITED Visual Timeline for ALL The Dichotomy Diaries Episodes AND MORE?... Click below. You won't want to miss how Season One ENDS...  PATREON IS LIVE!!! and MERCH IS LIVE!!! Dear Diary (& Listeners), You know how some people say, "God will never give you more than you can handle"? After recording this episode, I found myself thinking about that phrase a lot. The process of outlining my relationship with Dick for this podcast has been filled with sorrow, but it has also brought understanding. There were so many painful moments I experienced during this time that had been subconsciously tucked away in a file cabinet in my mind. Unpacking those file cabinets feels like I am experiencing them again, for the first time, right along with you. I probably have some of the same questions you all are having: Why didn't I just let him leave for good? How many times does Dick have to tell me he doesn't want to be with me before I actually believe him? But the biggest question of them all is... Why didn't leaving him ever cross my mind? So, I did a little soul searching, and what I realized was heart-wrenching. I subliminally laid everything I had at his feet: my money, my family, my love, my support, and my future. I continued to trust him even when he gave me every reason not to. I was scared not to trust. I was scared to lose the ONE thing I had left... Him. God would never give me more than I can handle, right? This week, you'll learn more about my proposal, wedding planning, and events leading up to the big day. We will uncover yet another Sugar Daddy, dissect the gambling more, and experience the worst abandonment up until this point in the story. You'll also begin to understand his explanation behind leaving, followed by our plan to fix the core problem. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

    1h 23m
  4. EPISODE 3 BONUS

    S1:B3 - [EXPERT BONUS] Let's Chat with Vanessa Reiser, LCSW

    Want the SCOOP & UNEDITED Visual Timeline for ALL The Dichotomy Diaries Episodes AND MORE?... Click below. You won't want to miss how Season One ENDS...  PATREON IS LIVE!!! and MERCH IS LIVE!!! Dear Listeners, In this exciting Bonus Episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I interview the beautiful, bad ass, Vanessa Reiser, a Licensed Clinical Social Worker from The Big Apple who's got a BOOK coming out soon! (Pre-Order Link Below!) We talk about SO many juicy topics including the connection between narcissistic abuse and cults, the behavior and mindset of narcissists and psychopaths, and dissect the experience of victims down piece by piece. We touch on the confusing role most family members take in (not) warning others about the narcissist in their life. Join us as we break down the challenges of conveying the complexity of narcissistic abuse in a concise manner others. A topic that I've really struggled with lately... This episode also explores trauma bonding and addiction in narcissistic relationships. Vanessa and I talk about the repetitive cycle of love bombing, devaluing, and discarding, which creates a trauma bond and intense addiction to the makeup session. Vanessa emphasizes the need for support and understanding for those trying to extricate themselves from these relationships, comparing it to drug addiction. Not to mention the post-separation abuse that can occur, which more often than not, includes attempts to destroy the victim's life. I had SO MUCH FUN chatting in up with Vanessa and learning all the things from her not only about my relationship with Dick, but about important topics and congruencies I wasn't even aware of. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Be sure to check below for Vanessa's website, how to find her on Social Media, and Pre-Order her new book: Narcissistic Abuse: A Therapist's Guide to Identifying, Escaping, and Healing from Toxic and Manipulative People.    @vanessareiserlcsw-narcissi5380  Website: https://www.tellatherapist.net Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/vanessareiserlcsw TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@vanessareiser BOOK PRE ORDER: https://www.amazon.com/dp/0306833174   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Guest: Vanessa Reiser, LCSW Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

    1h 1m
  5. EPISODE 4

    S1:E4 - Promises, Panic & Poppers

    Want the SCOOP & UNEDITED Visual Timeline for ALL The Dichotomy Diaries Episodes AND MORE?... Click below. You won't want to miss how Season One ENDS...  PATREON IS LIVE!!! and MERCH IS LIVE!!! Dear Diary (& Listeners), I cried recording part of this episode.    And it got me thinking... Why did THIS episode make me cry? What is it about my wedding that sparks the tears?   You’d think that reliving the abandonments, the emotional abuse, and all the other subpar efforts confused as love would make me sad...   I know the answer.   This episode didn’t make me cry because I was reflecting on that moment of my wedding ceremony. Tears started flowing in the studio because right then; I felt as if I may never get to experience such a meaningful moment again. I felt hijacked. Such important meaningful moments, all hijacked by a human incapable of love and compassion.   The thing is...it’s all bullshit. We don’t just get ONE shot at happiness. We get as many as we give ourself. So this is me publicly throwing away the self-limiting doubts. I finally feel happy again.I know who Amanda Lynette Arnier is. I love that bad ass, resilient bitch. Someone will love me. Far better than I could ever imagine before.   In this episode you will join me for my beautiful wedding in Sedona, AZ. You will also spend an evening in the emergency room. Followed by a road trip to Colorado, Dick’s self-proclaimed LEAST FAVORITE state. Be sure to share, like, and review. Your feedback and support mean everything.   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier & Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

    1h 9m
  6. EPISODE 4 BONUS

    S1:B4 - [EXPERT INTERVIEW] Let's Chat with Dr. Nadine Macaluso, LMFT, PhD

    Want the SCOOP & UNEDITED Visual Timeline for ALL The Dichotomy Diaries Episodes AND MORE?... Click below. You won't want to miss how Season One ENDS...  PATREON IS LIVE!!! and MERCH IS LIVE!!! Dear Listener's, I cannot tell you how excited I was to book this interview, with Dr. Nadine Macaluso. While most of you may not know her immediately by just mentioning her name- most of you probably know her story. Dr. Nadine Macaluso was married to Jordan Belfort, The Wolf of Wall Street. Her character, name changed, was played by the beautiful Margo Robbie in the Scorsese director box office hit! Join Dr. Nae and I as we discuss so many topics dear to both of our hearts. In this episode Dr. Nadine Macaluso, a licensed marriage and family therapist, shares her story of being married to Jordan Belfort, the Wolf of Wall Street, and how it led her to write a book and become an advocate for trauma bonding and pathological lovers. She discusses the challenges of having her life portrayed in a movie and the lack of control she had over the narrative. Dr. Macaluso emphasizes the importance of self-reflection and understanding one's own vulnerabilities in order to break free from toxic relationships. She also explores the concept of cognitive dissonance and the difficulty of leaving an abusive partner. The conversation explores the themes of healing from trauma bonds, finding one's voice, and navigating new relationships after abuse. Dr. Nae and I emphasize the importance of self-compassion and grace in the healing process. The conversation also touches on the challenges of co-parenting and the impact of trauma bonds on children. We both share their personal experiences and offer hope for post-traumatic growth and reinvention. Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda   Be sure to check below for Dr. Nadine's website where you can order her book Run Like Hell and explore many of her free tools, like the Self Compassion Assessment we discussed in this episode. Give Dr. Nae a follow on her social media, all linked below as well! ‪@TheRealDrNadine‬ Website: https://drnae.com/about-dr-nadine-mac... Free Assessments by Dr. Nae: https://drnae.com/assessments/ Order Run Like Hell Book Here: https://drnae.com/run-like-hell-book/ Instagram:   / therealdrnadine   TikTok:   / drnaelmft   Twitter:   / therealdrnadine   Facebook:   / drnaelmft     WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

    54 min
  7. EPISODE 5

    S1:E5 - Sergeant Steroids

    Want the SCOOP & UNEDITED Visual Timeline for ALL The Dichotomy Diaries Episodes AND MORE?... Click below. You won't want to miss how Season One ENDS...  PATREON IS LIVE!!! and MERCH IS LIVE!!! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- NOTE: This episode's audio is less than desirable, but if you can make it through- I PROMISE Episode's 7 on are INCREDIBLE. I really taught myself all of the things. Please do not judge The Dichotomy Diaries based on this Episode's audio quality. Dear Diary (& Listeners), When I tell you I have had the busiest three weeks of my life. I am nowhere close to joking.  You know, sitting back right now with my feet up on my desk and my hair up in a bun- I feel pretty damn accomplished.  I did some shit I didn't even think I was capable of... I just recorded, edited, and fully produced an entire podcast episode BY MY SELF! I put myself out there to create new relationships with actual human people. I gritted my teeth through the discomfort of social anxiety and what I uncovered on the other side is so f*****g special.  (Not me basking in the new incredible friendships I have created) Now you're probably like "Wait, Amanda...You're so extroverted. How could you possibly have social anxiety...?" Let me let you in on a little secret.  When you are alienated from everyone you love and continue to self isolate through healing- you straight up lose those skills.  I'm also just going to be blatantly honest... The trauma I endured while with Dick, made me develop an anxious speech pattern where I LONG PAUSE almost every time I speak, when asked a question. I also swear to (Non-Mormon) God, that I developed a stutter.  This is what happens when you are so afraid of constantly saying the wrong thing. Walking on eggshells virtually every second of your life, does crazy shit to your brain. And when you have an immensely unique and complex brain, you need to socialize. Otherwise, you end up in a prison of your own thoughts. It wasn't very fun, but thankfully as you can hear- no more stutter and shorter pauses. WIN. During this episode we dive DEEP into the World of Financial Domination. You will meet Jamie, a client of 9 years and begin to understand the "why" behind this secret fetish lifestyle that so many live behind closed doors. Join me as my two oldest friends and I explore all things FinDom in Episode 5, Sergeant Steroids.   Forever Speaking My Truth, Amanda Arnier, MLS   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music: Ashley England Sound Production: Amanda L. Arnier Guests: Brittany Ryan & Jenny Jeske Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

    1h 58m
  8. EPISODE 5 BONUS

    S1:B5 - [EXCLUSIVE INTERVIEW] by Behk & LAH from Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!

    Want the SCOOP & UNEDITED Visual Timeline for ALL The Dichotomy Diaries Episodes AND MORE?... Click below. You won't want to miss how Season One ENDS...  PATREON IS LIVE!!! and MERCH IS LIVE!!!   Dear Listeners,  I did an interview a while back with two LOVELY ladies by the name of Behk & LAH. If you haven't heard it yet, you're about to.  Enjoy! Amanda --------------------------------------------------- In this special collaboration episode, Behk & LAH of "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" sit down with Amanda Arnier, the insightful host of "The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast." Together, they explore emotional intricacies in relationships, focusing on the challenges of dealing with narcissists and toxic people.  Topics Discussed: Meet Amanda Arnier of the podcast, The Dichotomy Diaries Trust – is it earned or a gift? Why Amanda started “The Dichotomy Diaries” podcast The importance of sharing our stories The case of Dick The dual mothership theory by Dr. Vaknin  We’re Carl Jungians Attachments Amanda’s healing journey What's next for “The Dichotomy Diaries?” Amanda brings her unique perspective from "The Dichotomy Diaries," where she recounts her relationship with Dick and shares the experiences of other women who were also involved with him. This episode discusses the complexities of narcissists, strategies for navigating toxic dynamics, and the importance of sharing these stories for healing. Please tune in for an intimate and revealing dialogue that offers a deeper understanding of Amanda’s mission and the powerful stories she shares with her audience. Subscribe and listen to "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!" and "The Dichotomy Diaries" on your favorite podcast platforms. Don't forget to rate, review, and share!    Book mentioned in this episode: The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Values, and Spiritual Growth by M. Scott Peck M.D.   Content Warning: This episode discusses various forms of toxic abuse, narcissistic abuse, and any topics that may disturb some listeners. Listener discretion is advised.  We are not doctors or therapists; you should not take our opinions as medical advice.   Hosts: Behk & LAH Follow us on Instagram + Facebook @ngcompod Production & Design: LAHarden Music: No Reason Why by Anchor Help us keep the show going on Patreon Narcissists, Gaslighters, Cheaters, Oh My! Podcast's Patreon The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast's Patreon   WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEASON TWO'S STORY!  If you or anyone you know has experienced anything similar and is willing to share, please click the link below to schedule a time to chat with me.  Season Two Story Pitch Call Email: TheDichotomyDiaries@yahoo.com Music & Sound Production: Ashley England Patreon: The Dichotomy Diaries Merch: The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast Storefront YouTube: Video Recordings of Episodes! Podcast Website: www.TheDichotomyDiaries.com Insta: @TheDichotomyDiaries TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: The Dichotomy Diaries

    1h 10m

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Prepare to be captivated by The Dichotomy Diaries, an invitation to embark on an extraordinary journey through a web of eerily similar firsthand accounts. Brace yourself for tales of manipulation, domestic turmoil, narcissistic intrigue, and financial deceit—all driven by the intoxicating illusion of love. In Season One, you’ll be introduced to nine remarkable women, each unaware of their shared connection: the enigmatic figure who upended their lives. Dive headfirst into their stories, commencing in the present day, as one courageous wife & host, Amanda Arnier navigates the treacherous waters of a chaotic divorce. Along the way, she unravels a trail of women left in her husband’s turbulent wake. This is a narrative that delves deep, exposing the shadowy underbelly of financial domination, escorting, and compulsive gambling, all concealed beneath the veneer of a seemingly perfect partner. Join us on a journey that will both shock and inspire, as we explore the complexities of love’s dichotomy and the resilience of those who emerge from its depths. Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @manda.miura TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries Facebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries

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