Loving life again 💚

Hard road of thinking i was crazy.. yeaterday just realised what a dick i have been to those who wanted to help me.. they were the ego i portrayed in my mind, so i hope this helps and sorry.. i needed water not drugs lol i need some time and i need to share my jpurmey because its impoetant to cry and let things out and not practice abuse on any level of any kind.. what i have learned is i was sad. I thought i had no love when it was always around me.. you only truly pay when you dont give undivided attention to whats right in front of you.. i found love.. then heartbrake.. then unconditional love.. and then had to face my ego ( how i treated people yhat were helping me) and now im at the phase where i am ready to apologise for how i treaded people and just take some time away to get my shit together and drink water lol. Love you all and i am sorry for being a dick.. i am not a sodtcock 😂😂😂😂😂🕉💚