Herni's Thoughts Herni

Life's good...yeah but sometimes I just start wonder "why"...

Life isn't always what you think it'd be... Turn your head for a second and the table turns . Yeah, I know that I did you wrong, but will you trust me when I say I'll make it up to you someday. i gats face up , i gats get mine, coz I can't know the top till I get too low ..... I tried hard to make you want me ,but it feels like we're not meant to be ,and the truth will always haunt me ,tho it sets me free. Like a distant memory I'll leave again... I kinda know love can be so easy if i start by loving myself 🙂.

Hey
I looked forward to every single day thinking you might confess how you feel
Yh
I know I'm the one who doesn't wanna waste time ,coz I think I know how it's going to end
I really don't want to consume my emotions on you,cos I think it's a waste of time
But yet I'm trying
I'm trying not to know much about you, that'd be hard for me to go back to being strangers with you
I'm trying to understand that there's no sun for those who met at night ,just the moon
I'm trying hard not to spend the night with you and start Wondering what we are after the sun comes up,
Yh
I'm trying hard not to get involved in emotional exhaustion,coz it gets me even more lonelier
Yh
I'm trying

I believe there's this point in our life that we seem to have a dying wish and at that point in time, everything seem awkward and absurd... Yh ...funny tho,i guess I'm at that point rn , it's kinda like weird I'm sharing it out , but it's not to me ,it get things off my chest ..... I hope you enjoy listening

Herni💜: Hey, I mean you
I wonder when you're coming home
And if at all you'd come
I tell you,
You've been gone for too long
And I've been all alone...
I used to be your comfort zone
I used to be your one and only
I used to be the one you wanna hold
Remember?
I would wanna hold you, falling in your arms
Yeah...
We go through phases
I know some days are breaking
I Know some days are bulletproof
I know we keep on changing
But one thing is always true
I'll never give you up

Twas easy when we started
Coz twas everything I ever wanted
But this love feels different Everytime.
Coz we go through phases....
I'm not perfect but I'm trying
Yeah...
I wouldn't lie ,
It's amazes me
You moved on so easily from someone you once called home
It kills me inside
Yh ..
It hurts a lot
I know I miss you
I hope you miss me too
Coz I don't wanna Miss somebody who's not missing me
Don't you understand I'm trying!
And maybe I'm a mess
But God knows how
Mmmmm
I wish I had discipline for me
Coz I don't know how to turn down the way I feel
I guess I still need you to come home 😔
(Smiles)
I said home
The broken one?
Let's build it together again
So we can feel comfortable, trusted and open.
And errrhm.... Share our feelings
The truth is
For so long
I forgot that I've been stucked in one place than a cave of a lifetime
A deep dark cave
And then ,
I let out some egos outta my world
And you came around and brought the good out of me
For the first time I started to feel things again
I started to feel happy
But lately
I guess I'm feeling distant from you
I care, yh, I miss us
But I know you wanna move on.
And if I'm being really honest,
That's what scares me
I don't want things to change
That's why I think maybe I should stop the change
To turn back the clock
To make things go back to how they were
But I Know that's naive
It's just not how life works
Let's move on
Sometimes it's painful
Sometimes it's sad
Sometimes it's surprisingly happy

So you know what,
Keep on moving on
Who am I to stop you.
Make mistakes
Learn from them,
And when life hurts you, because it will
Remember the heart .
To hurt is good
It moves you out of that cave
But please keep the door open
The door of your heart
But I still hope you come home soon😔

Yeah, we'd rather be a lover than a fighter
'Cause all this while, we've been silent
Never felt a feeling of comfort,
And all this time, we've been hiding
And we never had the chance to speak up
We're so used to being quiet
But with the silence
We found peace in your violence
Can't tell us there's no point in trying
We're at one, and we've been quiet for too long
It's time for us to take it
We're the boss right now
Ain't gonna fake it
Not until you go down
'Cause this our game
And you better come to play
We used to hold our freak back
Now we're not letting go
We make our own choice, we run this show
So leave the lights on
No! you can't make us behave
So you say we're complicated
That we must be outta our mind
But you had us underrated
Now we're not gonna be silent anymore
Coz, you've taken our silence for weakness,
Now we *RISE*