ADHD Impulsivity, hyper fixating and how I just had to have the tent! And the intense feelings that come with wanting everything

A friend said that the first part of your ADHD diagnosis is filing through memories and past life experiences and making sense of things. And this was an example of something that popped into my head this week.

I get SO sad when I can't have the things I want. And that sounds like a spoilt brat right? But I don't have many other ways to describe it. I don't outwardly stamp my feet (well not often!) but I feel a deep sadness. Because when I get an idea into my head, and I spend hours researching it (to the detriment of others around me) I feel like I can't stop until I've made it a reality, or I've quite literally lost the flow. Like gone numb from it.

My tent story is a CLASSIC example of how it doesn't matter what anyone says to me, I'll ignore it all. Which is scary. Scary that I get so much satisfaction from hours of looking at things (what a waste of precious time) and that I've spent years putting energy into so many things that never worked out.

This is the side of ADHD that is my biggest struggle. One I still struggle with now. One that can cost money and arguments. But I'm getting better at recognising the patterns and trying to understand my feelings better so I don't put my energy and time into the wrong things. Thank you ADHD!

I don't have the answers - but this isn't something I hear all the time so maybe it resonates with you? And maybe you can take a step back now and try to evaluate what's actually happening before you fall into the black hole.

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