CPTSD Medicine Podcast Dr. Tanner Wallace

Take a moment to pause, breathe, and prepare yourself for today's healing message. This episode is about knowing how you want to tell your story in hindsight, and it is the fifth big idea of Season 12 (listen to previous episode for the first four!). Today, I want to explain what happens when you say "yes" to becoming a CycleBreaker, how to weave love and joy into everything you do, why it's vital to plan and structure your healing with intentionality, and how to ensure that your energy levels always match the task at hand. I end today's episode by reminding you of the sacredness of this healing work, and it's worth noting that storytelling and meaning-making are two sure ways to harness pure Personal Power. Also, be sure to check out our brand new website for our training programs, course offerings, and group therapy options at cptsdmedicine.com! I f*cking love you.
 
Key Points From This Episode:
Why now is the perfect time for us to revisit the intricacies of CPTSD medicine. 
A pop quiz on the four main points we've covered so far in Season 12 of this podcast. 
Today's big idea: how do you want to tell your story in hindsight?
What happens when you say "yes" to the mission of cycle-breaking. 
Weaving grace, mercy, forgiveness, and acceptance into joy, abundance, fulfillment, and love. 
How merely thinking about how you will tell your story creates gateways to healing.
The value of structuring, planning, and being intentional about your healing journey.
Understanding your energy levels and knowing your limitations.
What the CPTSD Medicine Healing Protocol says about storytelling and meaning-making.
How to harness pure Personal Power.
An invitation to remember the sacredness of healing work.
 
Quotes:
 
“We're on the right track. Things are moving, things are shifting, the momentum is building, and it's so deeply meaningful.” — Dr. Tanner Wallace [02:45]
 
“[When] you add this level of intentionality to what you're doing, it has to be aligned with the energy you have.” — Dr. Tanner Wallace [18:23]
 
“There is so much more possibility for what is ahead than what the most injured, weary Parts of you believe.” — Dr. Tanner Wallace [23:14]
 
“We often miss the value of everyday moments because we are waiting for something to happen for us to be happy - but this waiting is a trap, a trick, a falsehood.” — Dr. Tanner Wallace [23:31]
 
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Believe it or not, complex trauma recovery can truly change the course of human evolution. Today on the CPTSD Medicine Podcast, I am breaking down the fourth big idea of CPTSD Recovery and and discussing what it means for the collective to recover from complex trauma. Tuning in, you’ll hear about a conflict I had with my partner, how that acts as an example for changing human evolution, why CPTSD recovery is all energy work, and more! We delve into how your CPTSD work will benefit the collective before discussing how you can ‘do’ complex trauma recovery as opposed to just ‘touring’ it. Finally, I end with a prayer that will remind you to break down any barriers standing in the way of your recovery. Be sure to check out all the exciting things happening in the CPTSD community and thank you for listening in!
Key Points From This Episode:
 
What is happening in the CPTSD community at the moment. 
Introducing myself to newcomers and all about my Held by Tanner Instagram account. 
The difference between ‘touring’ recovery and ‘doing’ recovery. 
What we are doing for week four of the Amplified Self-Energy Season 12 Challenge. 
I share a story that acts as an example of changing the course of human evolution. 
The importance of connecting and debriefing with your long-term partner. 
Why CPTSD recovery is all energy work and will change the course of human evolution. 
How helping yourself helps the collective and the benefits of mentors and coaching. 
The ways you can apply complex trauma recovery so you can be part of these changes. 
Asking yourself what is standing in the way of your recovery and how you can break past it. 
 
Quotes:
 
“Complex trauma recovery will indeed change the course of human evolution because we’re changing the energy that’s running individually and collectively.” — Tanner Wallace [13:43]
 
“Lean in to connect when in distress!” — Tanner Wallace [21:44]
 
“If there’s a source of dark energy that isn’t stopped at its source, then there’s always going to be complex trauma.” — Tanner Wallace [32:13]
 
Links Mentioned in Today’s Episode:
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In this season, we’ve been exploring the central teachings of CPTSD recovery, and today, we unpack the third big idea: there is no separation. The concept that there is no separation can be a difficult one to engage with. It requires careful context to ensure that it’s deeply understood and does not unnecessarily trigger our Parts or self-doubt. Therefore, if today’s episode is particularly triggering to some of your Parts, Entities, or Energies, it’s important that you stop, step back, return to daily devotional practices, and skip this episode or revisit it when you are further in your healing journey. For those tuning in, you’ll learn why the idea that there is no separation is foundational to CPTSD recovery. You’ll be invited to contemplate your relationship with your parents in the context of your recovery and the importance of locating them in a much larger narrative. I also reflect on my own healing journey thus far and share what I wish I had done differently, before reflecting on the compassion I feel for my mother today and how healing has allowed me to become a stronger CycleBreaker. To find out why there is no separation and discover the gifts and medicine that come with healing, don’t miss this installment of the CPTSD Medicine Podcast!
 
Key Points From This Episode:
 
What is meant by the third big idea of CPTSD recovery: there is no separation.
CycleBreaking and the overarching goal of changing the course of human evolution.
Following us through the Directional Callings and the Energetic Stewardship that needs to happen.
Liminal Directional Calling and why it’s so unfamiliar to us as humans.
The Self-Energetic Frequencies we focus on in Liminal Directional Calling.
Contemplating our relationship with our parents in the context of CPTSD recovery.
Understanding our parents as part of a much larger narrative (and inheritance) of hurt.
Why the most wounded Parts of us need permission to speak the truth.
Regrets from my personal healing journey: speaking publicly about my parents.
Why you might need physical separation from your family during active CPTSD recovery.
Energetic and developmental differentiation and maintaining regulated emotional connection.
Understanding the difference between differentiation and separation.
Blame, humiliation, and separation: elements that go against cycle-breaking.
How healing facilitates CycleBreaking and evolving to the point of being a CycleBreaker
A guided invitation to connect with the essence of your parents.
 
Quotes:
 
“We find ourselves in these liminal spaces. I haven't fully released the past, but I also haven't landed completely in the future.” — Tanner Wallace [12:11]
 
“If we zoom out a little bit, we see ourselves, our children, our parents, our lineage, [and] our ancestors all woven together in a much larger narrative and inheritance of hurt.” — Tanner Wallace [19:45]
 
“Parts of us have been harmed significantly by our parents not being able, willing, or available to stop the trauma. But they didn't start the trauma. They're swimming in it, along with us.” — Tanner Wallace [20:10]
 
“Our most wounded Parts need permission to speak the truth. It's an essential part of CPTSD recovery.” — Tanner Wallace [20:35]
 
“Cycle-breaking is when the threads are repaired, restored, rejuvenated, [and] regenerated: internal attachment restoration and external attachment restoration.” — Tanner Wallace [28:17]
 
“Let’s neutralize the zing of responsibility so that it's available to us as mature adults on a healing path. Responsibility, accountability: these are the frequencies of cycle-breaking.” — Tanner Wallace [36:37]
 
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Welcome back! Your timing is perfect as today, we are re-examining the biggest and most important ideas of CPTSD recovery. Dr. Tanner Wallace uses her professional journey as a case study to highlight the undeniable value of finding your true Personal Power, and she begins the conversation by reminding us of the goals of the CPTSD Medicine Podcast. In line with what this podcast aims to achieve, Dr. Wallace shares the three philosophies that make up the CPTSD Medicine training program, the importance of finding your Source Power, the dangers of Circumstantial Power, the Frequency of Knowing, and how to steward your Identity Energy Center. We also learn about the core concepts of CPTSD recovery, and Dr. Wallace encourages all listeners to engage with the CPTSD Medicine community on all platforms.       
 
Key Points From This Episode:
 
Dr. Tanner Wallace reminds us of the goals of this podcast and encourages us to engage across all platforms. 
Three philosophies that undergird the CPTSD Medicine training program. 
Dr. Wallace walks us through her professional journey but this time, from a different perspective. 
The importance of finding your source of power and truth. 
Understanding the core concept of CPTSD recovery that everything you need to heal is already inside of you. 
The Frequency of Knowing; stewarding our Conviction/Identity Energy Center. 
Circumstantial Power versus Personal Power. 
The Eternal Directional Calling of the CPTSD Medicine healing protocol
A reminder and warning of the damage-potential of Circumstantial Power.  
Dr. Wallace calls us to remember and embrace our Personal Power. 
 
Quotes:
 
“It is my intention that something lands, from what I say today, that completely changes your life. That is the standard we set in the CPTSD Medicine universe.” — Dr. Tanner Wallace [00:36]
“I loved the authenticity of the scientific process; I loved the co-creation of knowledge in small groups.” — Dr. Tanner Wallace [11:00]
“I remember Nicole [Casteel] saying to me in some form or another, ‘This is an opportunity for you to learn where your power is sourced.’ And when she said that to me, it brought me to my knees.” — Dr. Tanner Wallace [25:30]
“Everything you need to heal is already inside of you.” — Dr. Tanner Wallace [28:02]
“If your Identity Center or G-Center is defined, then you know who you are; you always have since birth, and it’s just a matter of owning that identity without compromise, and not entering into implicit contracts with other humans who want you or need you to be somebody different.” — Dr. Tanner Wallace [32:23]
“When we have access to pure Personal Power, everything becomes more stable.” — Dr. Tanner Wallace [34:32]
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It’s important to have anchoring concepts when we take on the huge transformative process of healing from CPTSD. This is how we remind ourselves why we are doing what we’re doing, especially when things get a little wobbly or uncertain. Season 12 is all about the big ideas of CPTSD recovery. Tune in for a deep dive into what it means to both grieve the fact that no one saved us as children and take responsibility for our own healing as adults. We explore what it truly means to be a Cycle Breaker, and the work required to alchemize the wisdom of healing into CPTSD Medicine to support us on the path to healing. This episode includes practical tools on what to do when we feel Protective Parts coming online as a response to challenges or stress, how to balance, receive, and provide energy to others, and more. Learn how to distinguish the idea of being rescued from the notion of finding support, along with many other key insights to encourage you on your healing journey. Thanks for listening! 
 
Key Points From This Episode:
 
The value of having big ideas to anchor the process of CPTSD recovery. 
How two teachings underpin the structure of CPTSD healing in this community.
A story to introduce the big idea this episode discusses. 
Understanding what happens when the proportionalities of the energies you are running shift.
A resource to support the pathway to recovery: Pete Walker’s Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving.
What it truly means to take radical responsibility and understand that no one is coming to save you.
Accepting the mission of being a Cycle Breaker. 
What the true resonance of love causes within our lives. 
Tanner’s careful study of her belief in God and what it means to her.
Distinguishing between the notion that no one is coming to save you and the idea that no one is going to support you.
Why is it only appropriate for someone to save you when you are a child.
How to respond when Protective Parts are activated as a response to challenges or stress.
Balancing “receiving and providing” energy.
Grieving the past that led to your complex trauma. 
 A healthy revision of the idea that no one is coming to save you.
 How the wisdom of healing is alchemized into CPTSD Medicine.
A blessing to close off this episode.


Quotes:
 
“For those of you who are familiar with the energy of complex trauma, when your proportionalities of energies you’re running shifts, you’re actually kind of a different person.” — Tanner Wallace [07:53]
 
“CPTSD recovery introduces an understanding of our humanness that transcends time in a lot of ways.” — Tanner Wallace [13:52]
 
“If you’re listening to this podcast, you’ve been called to the mission.” — Tanner Wallace [18:18]
 
“The resonance of love is an energetic force that softens rough edges, restores motivation, that explains things without words, that rights the wrongs without a single action because love is a frequency.” — Tanner Wallace [20:26]
 
“I want you to listen, learn, and have the wisdom come into your body so that it can become The Medicine.” — Tanner Wallace [38:51]
 
Links Mentioned in Today’s Episode:

Parts of Me Therapy
Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving
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Welcome to a brand new season of the CPTSD Medicine Podcast! In this new season, we embark on a profound exploration of the central teachings of Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD) recovery. I'm thrilled to guide you through each of the 12 foundational principles, and in today's brief introduction, I invite you to prepare your heart and mind for the enlightening journey ahead. As we delve into these big ideas, you'll discover invaluable insights and practical tools to help you navigate your own path toward healing. Throughout the season, we'll uncover the essence of each principle, shedding light on why it's crucial for your recovery journey. I'll also share strategies to help you extract the most wisdom from each episode and integrate it into your daily life, whether through journaling prompts, mindfulness practices, or community support, allowing you to deepen into the medicine that is available to all of us through this podcast. Thanks for tuning in!
Key Points From This Episode:
The overarching theme of Season 12 and why it’s relevant to your recovery.
What you can expect from the upcoming episodes and how to get the most out of them.
Ways to structure your implementation or actions taken from listening to this podcast.
Objectives for the CPTSD Medicine movement and your journey from novice to expert.
A sneak peek of the next episode in the season!
Reasons to join the Students of the Medicine Community.
Quotes:
“When you’re given a [big idea, story, phrase, or memory prompt], it will provide you with key anchors into what’s important – and what you are orienting towards without being so prescriptive that you won’t be able to innovate.” — Tanner Wallace [0:09:11]
 
“[The CPTSD Medicine movement is] a group of lifelong learners that are intellectually curious, willing to study, willing to put the time in to become an expert but also [know] that, at some point, we have to [step up and ask] as a novice and risk holding Protective Parts.” — Tanner Wallace [0:19:42]
 
Links Mentioned in Today’s Episode:
Students of the Medicine Community
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