Confessions of an Aging Ingenue Jenni Tooley

Have I told you about the time I held a memorial service for the death of my film?
This episode may sound a little morbid but it's not.  It's also a pretty big risk to be this honest, but I'm up for it:)
This one's about grieving a dream so that you can honor it and then make space for the next beautiful thing.
It's about letting go of expectations and honoring reality.
It's about acknowledging and celebrating what you have actually accomplished.
It's about acknowledging and celebrating what you have actually accomplished.
And letting go of what I had hoped would happen for STUCK and its peeps.
 
Uncensored. Unedited. Just Jenni.

This one’s about how I started breaking the habit of underrating myself and playing small by saying “no” to an audition, got the role anyway, and was able to negotiate gas and accommodations. How I was scared the whole time I was doing it because I felt like “I was doing something wrong and someone was going to be mad at me”. How my brain plays tricks on me to try to protect me. And how I am slowly overcoming that.
There’s also a lot in here about my experience with SAG-AFTRA “local hire” contracts. The importance of doing a cost benefit on a project before I agree to audition. And the importance of standing for myself without standing against others.
Unedited. Uncensored. Just Jenni.

I’m not a singer. Oh wait…
This one is about the stories we tell ourselves. How they aren’t necessarily reality. And learning to own myself.  
A 30 year saga of perfection. Specific definitions. Blocking my own way into rock stardom;)
The saga continues. 

What do you do when you lose a location at 10pm the night before the shoot?  Why cancel the shoot and go to bed of course.  What do you do the next day? Go to lunch with a friend and let your co-producer(god) take care of it.
This one's about what I've learned about going with the flow.  That freaking out and succumbing to anxiety is rarely the answer.  And that God(the Universe, whatever you want to call it) will really do for me what I cannot do for myself.
A nice combo of getting inside the filmmaker's process and good old personal growth.
Unedited.  Uncensored.  Just Jenni.

This one is about Year 9 & 11 of shooting of Boyhood. The surreality and hilarity of being on food stamps while a movie I was in was winning Golden Globes and Oscars. And how comparison kicks my butt.
I’m also talking about the importance of leveraging what you have— even when what you have didn’t get the results you expected.
Unedited. Uncensored. Just Jenni.

Of course, this one is in parts- it was a 12-year process! And I am talking about my whole experience!
Part 1 is about my return to the industry, a really unusual audition process, how being myself was the best thing to do, how laying down boundaries really works, and how god challenged every one of my insecurities and knew I would do it anyway because I was in a safe place where I didn’t want to fail.
This one also includes a weather forecast!
If you want to know how Boyhood was made this is a must-listen!