HOLD ON, LET ME OVERTHINK THIS‪.‬ Kape Cosmos

I’m hiding in the closet from my family because I feel overly stimulated. Our two bedroom house is small that I can’t get away for a bit. I was feeling really stressed out and need to get away before I lost my mind.

My mother died when I was 10 years old. It’s been a roller-caster ever since. I’m also 27 years old and it doesn’t get any easier. Growing up in a refugee camp and in a community that didn’t allow me to grieve has been hard. Just know i’m i really going through it. Noe that I’m a mom i don’t want Izaiah to go through what I did and is going through. they tell you you heal in time or it takes take to heal but to be completely honest you don’t heal. I’m sorry but It’s just not true. For me at least. I’m still grieving my mother, father and my little brother who passed. It doesn’t get easy only harder. You realize all the things they are missing or going to miss and that’s hard. It’s okay to feel and its okay to cry. Let yourself grieve for as long as you want.

On this episode I will be talking about that first boo-boo. Baby’s first big fall! Awhile back Izaiah rolled off the bed and hit his head on out hardwood floor. Yup! I was for freaking out! I called 911, they came look at him then said he looked goos and we should be good! This mama was not good! My mom gut told me t take him to the ER so that’s what i did. They checked and said he was ok he wasn’t bleeding or throwing up. Those are surely the signs they have you loo for.

In this episode I talked about my struggle with trying to quit a new job and continue with interviews for a different job. I’m also struggling with trying to figure out how to handle all the stress.