Ritual Alchemist

Brittany Loeser and Ellee Best

Have you ever had that moment where everything in your life just stops making sense? Like the things you used to believe, the way you used to live—suddenly feels like someone else's life? That’s your intuition inviting you into a more authentic life. We’re Brittany and Ellee, two friends who walked straight into the unknown and are figuring it out as we go. Ritual Alchemist is a podcast about spiritual awakening, intuition, shadow work, and what happens after you decide to stop abandoning yourself. Real conversations and practical tools to help you navigate the mess.

  1. 03.09.2025

    The Power of Inner Authority and Authenticity

    In this episode of Ritual Alchemist, Brittany and Ellee discuss the intricate journey of living life fully awake and present. They delve into the nuances of personal awakening, the importance of owning one's truth, and the challenges of breaking free from external validations and expectations. Through personal anecdotes and insightful reflections, they highlight the significance of self-trust, inner authority, and authentic living. The conversation emphasizes the need for self-honesty, the courage to make choices aligned with one's true desires, and the liberation that comes from stepping into one's sovereignty. Listeners are invited to explore their own inner landscapes and join a community that supports authentic living and personal growth.Time Stamps00:38 Dreams and Daydreams: A Reflection01:39 The Fear of Owning What You Want03:31 High School Reflections and Social Dynamics05:21 Breaking Free from External Judgments07:09 Medical Emergency and Self-Care09:42 The Pride in Suffering and Self-Denial12:24 Manifestation and Personal Boundaries16:05 The Importance of Honoring Your Truth18:59 The Consequences of Not Speaking Your Truth20:30 Breaking the Silence: Period Stigma21:10 Conditioning and Self-Perception21:38 Navigating Reality and Inner Authority22:49 Advocacy and Self-Expression24:12 Harnessing and Integrating Rage25:32 The Power of Speaking Your Truth26:36 Authenticity and Inner Authority28:04 The Journey of Self-Discovery32:06 The Importance of Inner Work38:42 Final Thoughts and Community Connection

    41 Min.
  2. 07.05.2025

    You Woke Up at Camp Earth. Now What?

    In this episode, we dive into what it means to wake up—the moment your soul's alarm goes off and you're suddenly lucid in the dream of life. We explore how this awakening can come in a flash or unfold gradually, and how we all signed up for different roles at Camp Earth. We talk about the guides and “camp counselors” who show up along the way, the red flags of energy vampirism, and the power of becoming a self-contained, sovereign being. If you’ve ever wondered why you feel pulled to certain people, places, or memories—or questioned your sanity when magic called your name—this one’s for you. Let’s walk together, flashlight in hand, remembering that every person is a teacher and every moment is a lesson. 1:34 — The Soul Alarm Analogy 3:50 — Ellee’s First Wake-Up Call (Pocahontas & Grief) 7:05 — Brittany’s Lucid Dream & Barbie Story 14:08 — Waking Up Gradually vs. All at Once 15:46 — Remembering Magic Is Real 18:24 — The Camp Counselor Metaphor 23:04 — Art as a Map for Awakening 27:30 — Discernment: Energy Vampires vs. Camp Counselors 30:20 — Becoming a Self-Contained Channel 36:25 — Intuition as a Safety Mechanism 39:04 — Meeting Familiar Souls Again 44:00 — Everyone’s a Teacher, Every Moment’s a Lesson Journal Prompts When did your soul's first alarm go off—and what changed in you afterward?Where are you currently giving your power away to others instead of trusting your own inner authorityWho in your life might be a “camp counselor”? What are they modeling for you? Connect with us on Instagram and TikTok @RitualAlchemist and join our Patreon at Patreon.com/RitualAlchemist

    49 Min.
  3. 30.04.2025

    Shadows, Shame, and the Self You Forgot

    In this soul-deep episode, we unpack the power of shadow work, the root of shame, and what it means to truly reclaim your inner authority. We talk about why our shadows form, how to illuminate them with compassion, and how shame is often what’s hiding behind self-abandonment, money wounds, patriarchal programming, and fear of judgment. We reflect on our personal stories, including family wounds, trauma, and moments that cracked us open to the truth of who we really are. This is an episode about remembrance, radical self-honesty, and the bravery it takes to finally say, “That’s not my name.” Timestamps 2:26 – Shadow work 101: Shame is the root. 5:24 – Your true self is hiding in the shadow, afraid to be seen. 9:04 – How shame, money, and patriarchy are intertwined. 11:52 – The shadow of shame is self-abandonment. 16:40 – Why judgment is scary and how to alchemize it. 21:09 – How accepting ourselves liberates others. 25:26 – Reclaiming inner authority and self-definition. 26:33 – Waking up is non-linear: different timelines and “advertisements” for awakening. 28:49 – From numb to vibrant: personal stories of awakening. 33:50 – “Risk rejection to receive real”: the courage to be fully seen. 40:41 – Self-inquiry as a portal to presence and power. Journal Prompts: Where am I still abandoning myself to fit in or avoid judgment? What’s one part of me I feel ashamed to show—and what might happen if I brought it into the light? Who or what have I given my authority to, and how can I begin reclaiming it today? Follow us on Instagram and TikTok @RitualAlchemist and join us on Patreon at Patreon.com/RitualAlchemist

    45 Min.
  4. 23.04.2025

    Everything Feels Hard and Here's Why [Energy Update]

    In this episode, Brittany and Ellee discuss the current cosmic energies, highlighting the impacts of the Aries new moon solar eclipse and Mercury and Venus in retrograde. They explore the idea that reality feels disjointed because of these shifts and liken it to a grand 'software upgrade' for humanity's consciousness.  They emphasize personal sovereignty, intuitive guidance, and the need to relinquish control, bringing the focus back to individual inner work and letting go of rigid systems. Practical examples, such as using synchronicities for manifesting and understanding human design as a navigational tool, are shared to help you in your own journey. The episode is a blend of astrology, metaphysics, and grounded personal experiences aimed at those feeling lost or alone in their spiritual transformations, reminding you that you are exactly where you are supposed to be. Timestamps: 00:46 Energy Update: Navigating the Weirdness 02:37 Astrological Insights: Eclipses and Retrogrades 06:12 Personal Growth: Embracing Change and Letting Go 24:38 Manifesting and Synchronicities: Trusting Your Intuition 33:47 Embracing Nuance in Beliefs 35:21 The Evolution of Consciousness Through Video Games 41:14 The Role of AI in Human Evolution 46:13 Radical Ownership and Boundaries 52:15 The Importance of Self-Sovereignty 57:58 Building a Supportive Community Join us on Instagram @ritual.alchemist and join us in our Patreon community! Patreon.com/RitualAlchemist

    1 Std.
  5. 16.04.2025

    No One Is Coming to Save Me: Masculine/Feminine Polarity, Suppression & the Art of Surrender

    Ellee and Brittany unravel the powerful distinction between releasing control in life versus surrendering in relationships. They discuss their internalized pressure to be "the perfect wife," and the unraveling of feminine energy under toxic dynamics. Together, they walk through the long road from trauma-driven performance to self-trust, the necessary death of old identities, and the healing that only comes when you realize—no one is coming to save you. Expect truth bombs about the feminine/masculine spiral, internal rage, PTSD, emotional suppression, and how to reclaim your voice. This episode also includes practical tools—somatic techniques, journal prompts, and pathways to community support—for anyone navigating their own unraveling or rebirth. Timestamps: 0:30 – Ellee’s early wiring: chasing safety through marriage and performance 9:21 – Marriage expectations vs. healthy polarity: the masculine/feminine dynamic 15:21 – Initiation moment: “No one is coming to save me”—stepping into sovereignty  20:41 – The spiral dance: how the feminine and masculine hold and mirror each other 28:12 – “Risk rejection to receive real”: letting yourself be seen in the mess 31:03 – Rage, reactivity, and suppression: Brittany’s story of PTSD, brain injury & masking 38:42 – The illusion of control: why surrendering can feel like death 42:34 – Tangible next steps: journal prompts, somatic practices, and reclaiming inner safety Journal Prompts: Where do I feel like I’m gripping or trying to maintain control? What emotion or truth am I afraid to look at? When do I most feel the urge to suppress or self-censor? What would it feel like to hold myself in safety when I’m dysregulated? Free month of Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/RitualAlchemist/redeem/4B464

    50 Min.

Info

Have you ever had that moment where everything in your life just stops making sense? Like the things you used to believe, the way you used to live—suddenly feels like someone else's life? That’s your intuition inviting you into a more authentic life. We’re Brittany and Ellee, two friends who walked straight into the unknown and are figuring it out as we go. Ritual Alchemist is a podcast about spiritual awakening, intuition, shadow work, and what happens after you decide to stop abandoning yourself. Real conversations and practical tools to help you navigate the mess.