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The Podcast that talks Faith. No Filter. Got questions about God you don’t feel like you can ask in church? Drawn to Jesus, but disconnected from the polished, clean-cut side of religion? You’re not alone, and you’re in the right place. This is Filthy Hope. A safe space for conversations about Jesus, life, and the grey areas in-between. Join Rev. Ness, Rev. Jon, and our guests as we explore tough and taboo topics, like doubt, hardship, trauma, shame, and finding hope through it all.

  1. Reality of mortality: what death & grief teach us about living

    5 DAYS AGO

    Reality of mortality: what death & grief teach us about living

    CONTENT WARNING: This episode includes discussion of death and suicidal ideation. Listener discretion is advised. If you need support, Lifeline is available in Australia 24/7 on 13 11 14.  What happens when you confront the one thing we’re all guaranteed: death?  0:00 – Trailer 0:38 – Intro: Faith. No Filter. 1:28 – Death is inevitable 4:37 – Why is death scary? The fear of the unknown 5:22 – Fear of dying vs. Fear of death 6:27 – Ness’ near-death experience (SCAD heart attack) 7:52 – Peace in the face of impending doom 8:17 – Post-traumatic fear: when peace turns to anxiety 11:21 – Living well vs Living in fear 12:23 – The sad irony of grief 13:39 – Near-death experiences and altruism 30:25 – How to live well in the face of loss In this episode of Filthy Hope, hosts Rev Ness Williams-Henke and Rev Jon Humphries enter one of life’s hardest conversations: the reality of mortality. Together, they explore why death feels so frightening, how the fear of it can quietly limit our lives, and how grief reshapes the way we move through the world. Rev Ness shares her own near-death experience during a SCAD heart attack, reflecting on the profound paradox of unexpected peace she felt in the moment and the life-limiting anxiety that followed. The conversation explores how living well, supporting one another, and focusing on love are the antidotes to the paralysing fear of the inevitable unknown. #FilthyHope #ChristianPodcast #Death #GriefAndLoss #FaithAndMortality #LifeAndDeath #NearDeathExperience #LivingWell #DeathAnxiety #HopeInLoss #RadicallyHonest #FaithNoFilter

    33 min
  2. Life after sexual assault: the role of justice in healing trauma

    23 MAR

    Life after sexual assault: the role of justice in healing trauma

    CONTENT WARNING: This episode includes discussion of sexual assault and grooming. Listener discretion is advised. If you need support, you can contact 1800RESPECT on 1800 737 732 (Australia, 24/7), Blue Knot Foundation on 1300 657 380, or Lifeline on 13 11 14. What does justice look like when trauma never fully leaves you? 0:00 – Trailer 0:38 – Intro: Faith. No filter. 1:05 – Court Case: two years leading up to trial 1:29 – Trigger warning: grooming & sexual assault 3:25 – Sexual assault and CPTSD 5:18 – Post-traumatic growth 7:41 – Defining assault 13:51 – Every detail proven in court 17:18 – The brutality of cross-examination 27:41 – The insidious process of grooming 57:51 – How trauma affected Sarah’s faith In this episode of Filthy Hope, hosts Rev Ness Williams-Henke and Rev Jon Humphries continue their conversation with Sarah Rose, who shares her experience of being groomed and sexually assaulted by a trusted professional, and the long, retraumatising process of seeking justice through the courts. Sarah speaks candidly about complex post-traumatic stress disorder, the reality of cross-examination, the insidious nature of grooming, and the courage it takes to tell the truth when your memory is fragmented by trauma. This episode explores the tension between justice and healing, the importance of believing survivors, and the kind of faith that does not explain away suffering but meets us in it. It is an honest and powerful conversation about responsibility, resilience, and finding hope even after profound betrayal. #FilthyHope #ChristianPodcast #SexualAssaultAwareness #GroomingAwareness #TraumaAndFaith #CPTSD #JusticeAndHealing #BelieveSurvivors #HopeInTheDark #FaithNoFilter

    1hr 6min
  3. When trust is abused: trauma, truth & holding your ground

    15 MAR

    When trust is abused: trauma, truth & holding your ground

    CONTENT WARNING: This episode includes discussion of sexual assault and grooming. Listener discretion is advised. If you need support, you can contact 1800RESPECT on 1800 737 732 (Australia, 24/7), Blue Knot Foundation on 1300 657 380, or Lifeline on 13 11 14. What does justice look like when trauma never fully leaves you? 0:00 – Intro: Faith. No filter. 0:27 – Court Case: two years leading up to trial 0:51 – Trigger warning: grooming & sexual assault 2:47 – Sexual assault and CPTSD 4:40 – Post-traumatic growth 7:03 – Assault is not just penetration 13:13 – Every detail proven in court 16:40 – The brutality of cross-examination 27:03 – The insidious process of grooming 57:13 – How trauma affected Sarah’s faith In this episode of Filthy Hope, hosts Rev Ness Williams-Henke and Rev Jon Humphries continue their conversation with Sarah Rose, who shares her experience of being groomed and sexually assaulted by a trusted professional, and the long, retraumatising process of seeking justice through the courts. Sarah speaks candidly about complex post-traumatic stress disorder, the reality of cross-examination, the insidious nature of grooming, and the courage it takes to tell the truth when your memory is fragmented by trauma. This episode explores the tension between justice and healing, the importance of believing survivors, and the kind of faith that does not explain away suffering but meets us in it. It is an honest and powerful conversation about responsibility, resilience, and finding hope even after profound betrayal. #FilthyHope #ChristianPodcast #SexualAssaultAwareness #GroomingAwareness #TraumaAndFaith #CPTSD #JusticeAndHealing #BelieveSurvivors #HopeInTheDark #FaithNoFilter

    49 min
  4. Philip Yancey scandal: what grace really means

    9 MAR

    Philip Yancey scandal: what grace really means

    What’s so amazing about grace when a pillar of faith falls from a great height? 0:00 – Intro: When Leaders Fall from Grace 2:10 – The Scandal of Philip Yancey 4:30 – My Personal Connection to ‘What’s So Amazing About Grace’ 6:50 – The Irony of Experiencing Shame While Reading About Grace 9:15 – Cancel Culture vs. The Need for Truth  11:40 – The Addiction Crisis in Church Leadership 14:05 – Missing the Mark: Redefining Sin as "Missing the Mark" 16:20 – Metanoia: The Radical Shift of Mind and Heart 18:45 – Facing the Truth of Our Own Greed  21:10 – Hope in the Brokenness In this episode of Filthy Hope, hosts Rev Ness Williams-Henke and Rev Jon Humphries reflect on the recent scandal surrounding Christian author Philip Yancey and his eight-year affair, wrestling with what grace really means when a leader falls. Rather than offering judgment, they explore the irony of a writer known for What’s So Amazing About Grace? becoming the subject of public condemnation, and ask deeper questions about sin, repentance, accountability, and redemption. This episode examines cancel culture, the danger of power and entitlement in ministry, and the truth that we are all broken vessels in need of ongoing transformation. It is an honest conversation about failure, forgiveness, and the reminder that our hope is never in a person, but in God. #FilthyHope #ChristianPodcast #GraceAndRedemption #PhilipYancey #ChurchScandal #FaithAndFailure #CancelCulture #Repentance #HopeInGod #FaithNoFilter

    30 min
  5. The power of welcome: belonging in divided times

    2 MAR

    The power of welcome: belonging in divided times

    What does real welcome look like in an increasingly tribal world? 1:00 – Intro: Faith. No filter. 1:42 – Talk about welcome and inclusion 2:53 – Tribalism in the church and corporate world 7:24 – Positive psychology and the PERMA model 8:57 – First Nations Welcome to Country 12:14 – Fear, hatred, and the loss of neighborliness 13:07 – Hostility and tribalism in sport and politics 17:24 – Disneyland: a welcome on steroids 30:25 – The three phases of welcome In this episode of Filthy Hope, hosts Rev Ness Williams-Henke and Rev Jon Humphries explore the power of welcome in a world increasingly marked by fear, hostility, and tribalism. From corporate culture and positive psychology to First Nations Welcome to Country and even Disneyland, they reflect on what it means to move beyond surface-level friendliness toward genuine inclusion. This episode unpacks the difference between multicultural and cross-cultural communities, the danger of losing neighborliness, and the three phases of true welcome: being greeted warmly, being seen for who you are, and being invited to contribute. It is an honest and hopeful conversation about how the Church and society might rediscover belonging in a divided world.#FilthyHope #ChristianPodcast #WelcomeAndInclusion #ChurchAndCulture #Belonging #PositivePsychology #CrossCultural #FaithInAction #HopeForSociety #FaithNoFilter

    37 min
  6. Turning pain into purpose: hope & healing after abuse

    23 FEB

    Turning pain into purpose: hope & healing after abuse

    CONTENT WARNING: This episode includes discussion of child sexual abuse. Listener discretion is advised. If you need support, counselling is available at 1800RESPECT on 1800 737 732 (Australia, 24/7) or Lifeline on 13 11 14. Can hope and healing really grow out of abuse and brokenness? 0:00 – Intro: Ness’ story 0:41 – Content warning: child abuse 1:46 – Abused at six: life shifted 2:26 – Dissociative Identity Disorder as survival 4:48 – Trauma-informed humour and brokenness 5:28 – From victim to advocate 12:30 – Coping through alcohol and distraction 17:16 – Alcohol, sex, and trauma 21:02 – Affair and rock bottom 24:10 – The firecracker moment In this episode of Filthy Hope, hosts Rev Ness Williams-Henke and Rev Jon Humphries share Ness’s personal story of childhood abuse, trauma, and the long journey toward healing. Ness reflects on the ways she coped with deep brokenness, including dissociation, anxiety, alcohol, and shame, and how therapy, faith, and a powerful encounter with God began to reshape her life and identity. This episode explores what it means to move from victim to survivor to advocate, and how hope can emerge even after profound harm. It is an honest, courageous conversation about trauma, post-traumatic growth, and the calling to bring what was hidden in darkness into the light for the sake of others. #FilthyHope #ChristianPodcast #ChildAbuseAwareness #TraumaAndFaith #HopeAndHealing #SurvivorStories #PostTraumaticGrowth #FaithWithoutFilter #FromVictimToAdvocate

    35 min
  7. Finding God in despair: a life shaped by shame & hope

    16 FEB

    Finding God in despair: a life shaped by shame & hope

    CONTENT WARNING: This episode includes discussion of suicidal ideation. Listener discretion is advised. If you need support, Lifeline is available in Australia 24/7 on 13 11 14. What if the parts of your story marked by shame are not the end? 0:00 – Intro: Jon’s Story 0:44 – Unpacking the word “bastard” 1:50 – The filth and hope in being adopted 3:11 – Content warning: suicidality and the lowest point 3:50 – The lawn mower epiphany 5:49 – The premature surprise 8:35 – Any excuse to skip church 11:37 – A hint at ministry 15:40 – The gardener’s prophecy and the elder’s question 20:56 – “Why be normal?” Pushing boundaries in faith In this episode of Filthy Hope, hosts Rev Ness Williams-Henke and Rev Jon Humphries turn the lens inward as Jon shares his own life story, shaped by adoption, shame, despair, and an unexpected encounter with God. Jon reflects on growing up adopted, grappling with identity and suicidality, and the quiet moment that shifted everything, discovering he could not be snatched from God’s hands. This episode explores how faith can take root in the most ordinary and painful moments, and how God can bring hope, calling, and purpose from stories marked by shame. It is a raw and honest reflection on despair, resilience, and the long journey of becoming who God is already calling you to be. #FilthyHope #ChristianPodcast #FindingGod #FaithAndMentalHealth #AdoptionStory #HopeAfterShame #Testimony #MessyFaith #ChurchAndLife

    27 min
  8. Holy friction: how an "A-hole" became my ministry partner

    10 FEB

    Holy friction: how an "A-hole" became my ministry partner

    What happens when God puts you in ministry with someone you can’t stand? 0:00 – Intro: Welcome back to Filthy Hope 0:28 – Ness thought Jon was a jerk 1:00 – The hard question 2:28 – Secretly hoping for rejection 4:46 – Reunited at Ravenswood 5:33 – Learning in school chaplaincy 7:16 –  Creative approach to ministry 8:56 – The homeless man chapel service 15:30 - A series of unfortunate events 17:43 – Reframing life experience as gifts In this episode of Filthy Hope, hosts Rev Ness Williams-Henke and Rev Jon Humphries reflect on the unlikely beginning of their friendship and ministry partnership. From first impressions, bruised egos, and uncomfortable questions, to shared risk-taking, creative ministry, and deep trust, they explore how God can use conflict, honesty, and “holy friction” to shape both calling and character. This episode looks at how the parts of our stories we would rather avoid, whether tension, failure, or messy humanity, can become the very ground where meaningful ministry and real friendship are formed. #FilthyHope #ChristianPodcast #FaithAndFriendship #MinistryLife #ChurchStories #MessyFaith #HolyFriction #HopeInTheFilth

    29 min
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The Podcast that talks Faith. No Filter. Got questions about God you don’t feel like you can ask in church? Drawn to Jesus, but disconnected from the polished, clean-cut side of religion? You’re not alone, and you’re in the right place. This is Filthy Hope. A safe space for conversations about Jesus, life, and the grey areas in-between. Join Rev. Ness, Rev. Jon, and our guests as we explore tough and taboo topics, like doubt, hardship, trauma, shame, and finding hope through it all.

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