Living Zen

Teàrlach Eshū Kilgour

Spontaneous Zen talks given in the Rinzai tradition by Ven. Eshu Martin, abbot of the Victoria Zen Centre in Victoria, BC, Canada. www.zenwest.ca If you enjoy this podcast, rate it,review it, and share it with your friends on Twitter, Facebook and face to face. www.zenwest.ca Check out the Living Zen Podcast app on the iTunes app store!

  1. 3 days ago

    Holding Your Seat — March 17, 2026 — Dharma Talk

    There were daffodils on the altar when I gave this talk — narcissus, named after the figure who fell in love with his own reflection in the pond. It turned out to be exactly the right image for what the practice is. The central metaphor is one I return to often: imagine yourself sitting on the bank of a river. As the body settles, things begin to flow past — thoughts, memories, to-do lists, feelings you didn't know were there. Sometimes a gentle leaf. Sometimes something much harder. The first real work of practice is simply learning to hold your seat. Not grabbing what comes (figuring this out, fixing this, engaging with this). Not running from what's too hard to face. Just sitting here. Watching. What develops through this practice, over time, is spaciousness. A gap between what happens and how we respond. It follows us out of the zendo — into conversations where we'd normally snap back, into moments where we'd normally be swept along by old patterns. Suddenly there's a beat more time. A moment to notice. A moment to choose. I also talk honestly about what the tradition sometimes calls revulsion — that particular agony of watching yourself, with full awareness, do the thing you swore you weren't going to do again. As painful as that is, it's actually what gives birth to real change. The awareness alone isn't enough. It's the accumulated weight of witnessing yourself that finally generates the energy to step outside the pattern. And the daffodil: rooted, head bent toward the water below. A good model. The Living Zen Podcast arises from my teaching work with Zenwest Buddhist Society, a Zen practice community on Vancouver Island. If you love these talks and want to hear them without the ads, come join us on Red Mountain Way on Patreon. Members get every episode ad-free, plus additional teachings and reflections. I'd love to have you there. Another meaningful way to support is simply sharing — passing an episode to someone who needs it. For those seeking one-to-one Zen support, information about my Zen Mentorship work is available through Monarch Trancework. Thank you for listening. Thank you for practicing.

    18 min
  2. 14 June

    The Third Treasure — March 10, 2026 — Dharma Talk

    Life keeps getting harder to afford — in time, in money, in simple presence. And yet here you are. This talk moves through the Three Treasures — Buddha, Dharma, Sangha — not as a Buddhism 101 survey, but as a question about how we actually live. Buddha: not just the historical man, but the principle of awakening itself — a pattern that repeats across human history — and at its deepest, our own nature. Not something to acquire. Something to recognize. The teaching is not that something is missing. The teaching is that we've been walking around thinking something is missing. Dharma: not just the recorded teachings, but the living transmission happening right now, in every form, every practice. When the Dharma eye is open, there is no circumstance — no situation, no relationship, no difficulty — that is not the teaching. And then Sangha. The one I'll be honest with you about: the one I've personally found the most difficult. Sangha is community — but not a drop-in class or a service you attend. The moment you walk through the door, you're already part of it. What you carry comes with you. Whatever awareness you've cultivated, whatever weight you're bringing — it's in the room, shared by everyone in it. It's an energetic potluck. And at the deepest level, Sangha reveals something we've never actually escaped: we were in community before we were born. There is no outside to return from. The practice of taking refuge is the practice of remembering that. The Living Zen Podcast arises from my teaching work with Zenwest Buddhist Society, a Zen practice community on Vancouver Island. If this work resonates, I share additional teachings through Red Mountain Way on Patreon. Becoming a member helps sustain this work — and I'd love to have you there. Another meaningful way to support is simply sharing — passing an episode to someone who needs it. For those seeking one-to-one Zen support, information about my Zen Mentorship work is available through Monarch Trancework. Thank you for listening. Thank you for practicing.

    21 min
  3. 31 Jan

    The Body is the Dharma — January 20, 2026 — Dharma Talk

    In this talk, I reflect on form as a living, embodied Zen practicioner. Drawing on Rinzai Zen forms — gassho, sasshu, posture, breath, walking, and bowing — I explore how Zen is practiced through the body itself. The forms of practice are not symbolic gestures or rules to get right; they are precise, lived expressions of activity, receptivity, and stillness. This talk explores: plus, minus, and zero as lived experiences of movement, rest, and sitting how posture and mudra help call us back when attention drifts breath as a continuous expression of birth and death walking, chanting, and bowing as embodied Dharma activity how practice meets collapse, fatigue, distraction, and return — without judgment From the meditation hall, the reflection widens into life itself: how we are born and die many times over the course of a single lifetime, how identities fall apart and reform, and how practice supports us in learning — again and again — how to inhabit the world. Nothing here is about doing practice "correctly." The invitation is simply to notice what is happening — in the body, in the breath, in this moment — and to come back. About this podcast The Living Zen Podcast arises from my teaching work with the Zenwest Buddhist Society, a Zen practice community based on Vancouver Island. You can listen at https://livingzen.libsyn.com, or find Living Zen on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and wherever you get your podcasts. If you'd like to support this work more directly, I share additional teachings and reflections through Red Mountain Way on Patreon. Becoming a member there helps sustain this teaching work. Another meaningful way to support the podcast is by sharing it — telling friends, passing along episodes, or sharing on social media. Comments, likes, and shares are always appreciated. I do read them, and they help others find their way into practice and community. For those seeking one-to-one Zen support, information about my work is available through Monarch Trancework. Thank you for listening, and for practicing together.

    23 min
  4. 24 Jan

    Animacy in Zen — January 13, 2026 — Dharma Talk

    Animacy in Zen   In this episode of Living Zen, I reflect on Zen form — not as something merely procedural or symbolic, but as something alive.   This talk explores how breath, movement, sound, chanting, bells, incense, and shared attention all participate in the life of practice. Rather than treating form as a set of rules to perform correctly, the talk invites listeners to notice how the practice itself is already active, relational, and responsive.   Drawing directly from lived experience in the Zendo, this reflection looks at Zen ritual as something animated and participatory — a field we step into together — long before we "get to" sitting. It's a grounded, embodied inquiry into what is actually happening while we practice.   Living Zen is a podcast about Zen practice as it's lived — sincere, embodied, and woven into real human lives.   Links & Resources:   Zenwest — the Zen practice community where these talks arise https://www.zenwest.ca   The Red Mountain Way (Patreon) — ongoing teachings, reflections, and recordings https://www.patreon.com/redmountainway   Monarch Trancework — one-to-one guidance, mentorship, and practice support https://www.monarchtrancework.com   If you find Living Zen meaningful, one of the simplest ways to support the podcast is by liking, subscribing, or sharing it. These small, cost-free actions help the podcast grow and reach people who may not yet know about it.   Wherever you're listening from, thank you for your time, your attention, and your practice.

    19 min
4.8
out of 5
17 Ratings

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Spontaneous Zen talks given in the Rinzai tradition by Ven. Eshu Martin, abbot of the Victoria Zen Centre in Victoria, BC, Canada. www.zenwest.ca If you enjoy this podcast, rate it,review it, and share it with your friends on Twitter, Facebook and face to face. www.zenwest.ca Check out the Living Zen Podcast app on the iTunes app store!

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