8 episodes

Usually when we talk about suicide we say those four magic words: "just ask for help". But Honor Eastly knows it’s not that simple. At times heartbreaking, and desperate – but also darkly funny, and charming, No Feeling Is Final is a story of difference, identity, and why we should stay alive.

No Feeling Is Final ABC listen

    • Society & Culture
    • 4.7 • 319 Ratings

Usually when we talk about suicide we say those four magic words: "just ask for help". But Honor Eastly knows it’s not that simple. At times heartbreaking, and desperate – but also darkly funny, and charming, No Feeling Is Final is a story of difference, identity, and why we should stay alive.

    01 | The Voice

    01 | The Voice

    "Mum says my boyfriend is a keeper. Right now, for practical reasons, he is in fact the keeper of all the medications I am currently taking."

    We all have that voice in our head. The one that is brutally honest. It’s a good thing, right? Except when it really isn’t.

    WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language.

    If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody:

    Crisis lines
    Lifeline on 13 11 14
    Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800
    MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978
    Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467
    Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36
    Headspace on 1800 650 890
    QLife on 1800 184 527

    Chat services
    Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/
    Sane: https://www.sane.org/
    eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/
    Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx

    Further information
    Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760
    My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next. (ABC Life): http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474
    Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970
    Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

    • 26 min
    02 | The Vast Wasteland

    02 | The Vast Wasteland

    "Hunting for a psychiatrist is a lot like hunting for 'The One'. Only much more expensive and with a tiny dating pool."

    A desert. A gameshow. A desperate attempt. Miles of red tape. And finally, an answer?

    WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language.

    If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody:

    Crisis lines
    Lifeline on 13 11 14
    Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800
    MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978
    Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467
    Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36
    Headspace on 1800 650 890
    QLife on 1800 184 527

    Chat services
    Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/
    Sane: https://www.sane.org/
    eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/
    Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx

    Further information
    Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760
    My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next. (ABC Life): http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474
    Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970
    Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

    • 26 min
    03 | A Good Patient

    03 | A Good Patient

    "I keep trying to say the most honest thing, and it keeps changing."

    There are no good snack options in psych hospital. And it’s really hard to not look crazy.

    WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language.

    If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody:

    Crisis lines
    Lifeline on 13 11 14
    Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800
    MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978
    Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467
    Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36
    Headspace on 1800 650 890
    QLife on 1800 184 527

    Chat services
    Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/
    Sane: https://www.sane.org/
    eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/
    Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx

    Further information
    Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760
    My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next: http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474
    Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970
    Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

    • 30 min
    04 | 60,000 thoughts

    04 | 60,000 thoughts

    "We have 60,000 thoughts each day. I will try to track every single one of them."
    On the other side of psychiatric hospital there’s less of things.

    In this episode Honor speaks about her experience with psychiatric drugs. We'd like to emphasise that this is just that — her experience. If you’d like to learn more about the science of these medications, these two articles are a good place to start;

    More data, more answers: picking the optimal antidepressant (The Lancet)
    https://www.thelancet.com/journals/lancet/article/PIIS0140-6736(18)30421-5/fulltext

    Comparative efficacy and acceptability of 21 antidepressant drugs for the acute treatment of adults with major depressive disorder: a systematic review and network meta-analysis (The Lancet)
    https://www.thelancet.com/journals/lancet/article/PIIS0140-6736(17)32802-7/fulltext

    WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language.

    If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody:

    Crisis lines
    Lifeline on 13 11 14
    Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800
    MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978
    Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467
    Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36
    Headspace on 1800 650 890
    QLife on 1800 184 527

    Chat services
    Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/
    Sane: https://www.sane.org/
    eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/
    Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx

    Further information
    Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760
    My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next: http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474
    Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970
    Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

    • 29 min
    05 | Emotionally Deluxe

    05 | Emotionally Deluxe

    “So, where do you go when you feel like a masticated maraschino cherry?”
    How to collect your tears, the existential angst of the shampoo aisle, and the boy returns.

    WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language.

    If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody:

    Crisis lines
    Lifeline on 13 11 14
    Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800
    MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978
    Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467
    Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36
    Headspace on 1800 650 890
    QLife on 1800 184 527

    Chat services
    Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/
    Sane: https://www.sane.org/
    eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/
    Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx

    Find out more about..
    The Big Feels Club: https://bigfeels.club/
    Intentional Peer Support: https://www.intentionalpeersupport.org/what-is-ips/

    Further information
    Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760
    My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next: http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474
    Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970
    Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

    • 34 min
    06 | Now is the time for cake

    06 | Now is the time for cake

    "Endings. Endings. Everywhere."

    Graham doesn’t think I am broken, but I still suspect I might be.

    WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language.

    If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody:

    Crisis lines
    Lifeline on 13 11 14
    Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800
    MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978
    Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467
    Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36
    Headspace on 1800 650 890
    QLife on 1800 184 527

    Chat services
    Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/
    Sane: https://www.sane.org/
    eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/
    Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx

    Find out more about..
    The Big Feels Club: https://bigfeels.club/
    Gareth Edwards: http://gareth-edwards.com/bigfeels/

    Further information
    Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760
    My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next: http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474
    Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970
    Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

    • 39 min

Customer Reviews

4.7 out of 5
319 Ratings

319 Ratings

Rooroorooroorooroo ,

Deeply moving

So beautifully narrated. Uncomfortably melancholy but I gripping

siscodiscopisco ,

Listen!

Such a beautiful podcast. Worth a listen. Thanks for being so honest and open, Honor.

SGSAU ,

Extraordinary, valuable contribution to society

A must listen for anyone with issues of low self worth, depression and anxiety

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