Anti-Filter

Alison Doyle | Shannon Richard

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Just two girls yapping. A podcast for the mentally ill, the neurodivergents, and the truly unhinged.

2024-10-09

EP 14. Return Of The Vaginal Cyst & Monetizing High Protein Farts

In this episode of the Anti-Filter Podcast, hosts Alison and Shannon engage in a candid discussion about their personal experiences with health, fitness, and societal expectations. They share humorous anecdotes about health struggles, the complexities of dieting, and the realities of fitness coaching. The conversation also delves into the world of sex work, societal perceptions of women, and the importance of setting boundaries in coaching relationships. Throughout the episode, they reflect on self-improvement and personal growth, emphasizing the challenges and triumphs of navigating life as women in today's society. In this engaging conversation, Alison Doyle shares her personal journey through anxiety, content creation, and the importance of embracing struggles. She discusses the power of delusion in maintaining a positive mindset, the significance of setting boundaries in relationships, and the complexities of self-esteem. The conversation also touches on the influence of celebrity culture and conspiracies, providing a multifaceted view of modern life and personal growth. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and Weekly Catch-Up 02:47 Health Struggles and Personal Anecdotes 06:01 Dieting, Nutrition, and Body Image 09:10The Reality of Fitness Coaching 12:03 Sex Work and Societal Perceptions 14:50 Boundaries in Coaching Relationships 18:03 Self-Improvement and Personal Growth 31:31 Embracing the Struggle: Finding Strength in Adversity 34:48 The Power of Delusion: How Mindset Shapes Reality 39:20 Navigating Relationships: Setting Boundaries and Self-Care 49:28 The Complexity of Self-Esteem: A Rollercoaster Journey 55:20 Conspiracies and Culture: The Influence of Celebrity on Society

1h 3m
2024-10-03

EP 13. I Really Hate That Little Ginger B*tch And Jesus Too

In this episode of the Anti-Filter Podcast, hosts Alison and Shannon catch up after a long break, discussing personal updates, family dynamics, and the emotional impact of their experiences. They delve into Shannon's challenging experience at the Lost Lands festival, highlighting issues of safety and community. The conversation shifts to reflections on mental health, relationships, and the complexities of navigating life as neurodivergent individuals. They also touch on the importance of community support and the challenges faced within the autistic community. In this conversation, the speakers delve into the trauma and mental health challenges faced by Black communities, highlighting the historical mistrust in the medical system. They discuss the disparities in medical treatment, particularly for Black women, and the racial dynamics within the makeup industry. Personal anecdotes about navigating medical care and friendship dynamics reveal deeper issues of respect and boundaries. The conversation also touches on the influence of religious beliefs on personal identity and relationships, culminating in a humorous yet poignant reflection on societal expectations and personal truths. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and Catching Up 02:56 Family Dynamics and Personal Growth 06:02 Festival Experience: Lost Lands 17:58 Reflections on Mental Health and Relationships 29:48 Community and Identity in Neurodivergence 43:09 Trauma and Mental Health in Black Communities 46:20 Disparities in Medical Treatment and Outcomes 50:40 The Makeup Industry's Racial Dynamics 55:21 Experiences with Medical Care 01:00:21 Friendship Dynamics and Boundaries 01:11:12 Religious Influences and Personal Beliefs

1h 22m
2024-09-11

EP 12. Women's Happy Ending Massage Parlours & Transphobic Effects of Black Mould

In this conversation, Alison and Shannon have a lighthearted and humorous discussion about various topics, including JK Rowling's transphobia, black mold in JK Rowling's house, their own experiences with mental illness, their unconventional childhoods, and their masturbation habits. They also touch on the loss of Alison's Instagram account and the challenges of being open about sexuality on social media. In this conversation, Alison and Shannon have a lighthearted and humorous discussion about various topics, including their experiences with massages, polyamory, gluten intolerance, piercings, and family dynamics. They share personal anecdotes and engage in playful banter throughout the conversation. Alison and Shannon share personal experiences with mental illness and discuss the importance of finding humor in difficult situations. They reflect on their unconventional childhoods and the impact it has had on their lives. They discuss the challenges and complexities of polyamorous relationships, emphasizing the importance of open and honest communication. Alison opens up about her gluten intolerance and the impact it has on her training and overall well-being. Chapters: 00:00 Introduction and Setting the Tone 01:15 JK Rowling's Transphobia and Black Mold 03:48 Navigating Mental Illness with Humor 09:49 Unconventional Childhoods and Trauma 19:37 Discussing Personal Experiences 28:47 Openness About Sexuality and Masturbation 34:31 Funny and Uncomfortable Massage Experiences 36:20 Navigating Polyamory and Communication 39:11 Dealing with Gluten Intolerance and Training 43:53 The Challenges of Piercings and Rejection 51:27 Strained Family Relationships and Boundaries

1h 10m
2024-08-14

EP 10. Are Communion Wafers A Fast Acting Carb / Gluten Free?

Summary: In this episode, Alison and Shannon discuss their weekly catch-up and delve into the topic of friendship breakups. Alison shares her experience of connecting with a friend over religion and exploring her own beliefs. They also discuss the challenges of maintaining friendships while dealing with mental health issues, addiction, and attachment styles. The conversation highlights the importance of setting boundaries and prioritizing self-growth. In this conversation, Shannon and Alison discuss friendship breakups, the challenges of being a woman in a male-dominated world, and the importance of setting standards in relationships. They also express their admiration for Drew Afualo and the impact she has had on their lives. The conversation touches on topics such as addiction, self-validation, and the power of authentic friendships. Overall, the conversation highlights the importance of self-acceptance and finding connections that align with one's values and goals. Takeaways: - Friendship breakups can be challenging, especially for individuals with BPD or other mental health issues. - Exploring and questioning one's beliefs, including religion, is a personal journey that may lead to different conclusions for different individuals. - Maintaining friendships while dealing with mental health issues and addiction can be difficult, and setting boundaries is crucial for self-care. - Attachment styles can impact relationships, and it's important to recognize and address unhealthy patterns. - Closure may not always be possible in friendships, and accepting that people come and go in our lives is a part of personal growth. Friendship breakups can be challenging, but it's important to let go of connections that no longer align with your values and goals. - Being a woman in a male-dominated world can be tiring, but setting standards and prioritizing self-acceptance can help navigate these challenges. - Authentic friendships and connections are crucial for personal growth and support. - Self-validation is key in finding happiness and fulfillment. - Finding connections that align with your values and goals is more important than settling for relationships that don't meet your standards. Chapters: 00:00 Introduction and Weekly Catch-Up 01:00 Exploring Beliefs: Religion and Personal Journeys 09:27 Navigating Friendship Breakups and Mental Health 13:00 Challenges of Maintaining Friendships with Mental Health and Addiction 22:15 Understanding Attachment Styles in Friendships 27:23 The Importance of Setting Boundaries for Self-Care 38:53 Accepting the Ebb and Flow of Relationships 40:22 Navigating Friendship Breakups 43:23 Exploring Religion and Beliefs 51:56 Prioritizing Self-Happiness 01:14:45 Embracing Singlehood 01:19:13 Dreaming of the Future

1h 20m
2024-07-31

EP 9. Gifted Program Girlies AKA Wolf Packs of Undiagnosed Autists & Feeling Disconnected From Everyone

Summary: In this episode of the Anti-Filter Podcast, hosts Alison and Shannon discuss their experiences in school as undiagnosed neurodivergent individuals. They also touch on various topics such as politics, abortion, and their unhinged moments. Both hosts reflect on their struggles with bullying, feeling disconnected from others, and the impact of drugs and alcohol on their lives. They also talk about their experiences in gifted programs and the challenges of navigating social interactions as neurodivergent individuals. In this part of the conversation, Alison reflects on her healing journey and the importance of self-discovery. She discusses the lack of therapy and accommodations for autistic individuals, as well as the impact of exposure therapy. Alison also shares personal experiences from her childhood and the challenges of navigating social situations as an autistic person. She emphasizes the need for accessibility and accommodations in society and the importance of finding supportive and understanding friends. Takeaways: Undiagnosed neurodivergent individuals often struggle with feeling disconnected from others and navigating social interactions.Bullying can have a significant impact on a person's school experience and mental health.Drugs and alcohol can provide temporary relief from social anxiety and overthinking, but can also lead to negative consequences.Gifted programs can be both beneficial and challenging for neurodivergent individuals.Unmasking and embracing one's true self can lead to finding the right people and a sense of belonging. Self-discovery and healing are important aspects of personal growth.The lack of therapy and accommodations for autistic individuals can have a significant impact on their lives.Exposure therapy may not be suitable for all autistic individuals and can potentially cause trauma.Childhood experiences can shape a person's perception of themselves and their abilities.Finding supportive and understanding friends can make a positive difference in the lives of autistic individuals.Society needs to prioritize accessibility and accommodations for disabled individuals. Chapters: 00:00 Introduction and Weekly Catch Up 19:29 School Experiences and Unhinged Moments 23:09 Navigating School as Undiagnosed Neurodivergent Individuals 30:08 The Impact of Bullying and Feeling Disconnected 35:19 The Role of Drugs and Alcohol in Coping 39:15 Challenges and Benefits of Gifted Programs 40:43 Unmasking and Embracing Authenticity44:16Self-Discovery and Healing 46:34 Therapy and Accommodations 49:22 Challenges of Social Situations 01:09:03 Accessibility and Accommodations 01:15:33 Supportive and Understanding Friends

1h 21m
2024-07-17

EP 8. Narcissists & R*pists Bald Early And That's Law | True Lore & Untold Secrets

In this conversation, Shannon and Alison discuss their recent life changes and the challenges of dating while dealing with mental illness and trauma. They share their experiences with love bombing, narcissistic relationships, and the difficulties of finding a partner who respects and supports them. They also touch on topics like sex magic, polyamory, and the importance of setting boundaries in relationships. In this conversation, Alison and Shannon discuss their experiences with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and how it affects their relationships. They share personal stories of trauma, abuse, and the challenges of navigating romantic and platonic connections. They explore the intense emotions and fear of abandonment that come with BPD, as well as the difficulty in finding a balance between prioritizing their own needs and the needs of their partners. Despite the struggles, they emphasize the importance of self-care, healing, and finding love that meets them where they are. Takeaways Dating while dealing with mental illness and trauma can be challenging and requires setting boundaries and prioritizing self-care.Love bombing is a common tactic used by narcissists and can be harmful to individuals with BPD.Finding a partner who respects and supports you is crucial for a healthy relationship.Sexual compatibility and open communication about needs and boundaries are important in relationships.Exploring alternative relationship structures like polyamory can be a way to find fulfillment and connection. BPD can have a significant impact on relationships, both romantic and platonic, due to intense emotions and fear of abandonment.Individuals with BPD often prioritize their partner's needs over their own, which can lead to neglecting their own well-being.Healing and self-care are crucial for managing BPD and maintaining healthy relationships.Finding a partner who understands and supports their unique needs can be challenging but is essential for a successful relationship.Small wins and habit formation, such as making the bed or doing the dishes, can have a positive impact on mental health. Chapters 00:00Introduction and Weekly Check-In 05:00 The Challenges of Dating with Mental Illness and Trauma 18:19 The Importance of Respect in Relationships 26:29 Exploring Alternative Relationship Structures 42:31 Intense Emotions and Sexual Encounters 43:53 BPD and Suicidal Thoughts 44:37 The Rollercoaster of Relationships 49:10 Challenges of Dating with BPD 49:39 Memory Loss and Trauma 51:00 Body Image and Insecurities 52:19 Self-Worth and Validation 52:47 Personal Growth and Healing 01:15:32 Celebrating Small Wins 01:17:30 Reflections on BPD and Self-Love

1h 24m
2024-07-10

EP 7. Funeral Gropers, Fatherless Father's Day, Healing From Past Trauma and Fitness / Nutrition Sustainability

In this episode, Shannon and Alison discuss their personal relationships with food and their experiences with binge eating and restrictive eating. They share their struggles with body image, eating disorders, and societal pressures. They also talk about the importance of understanding your own eating patterns and finding a balance in your fitness journey. The conversation touches on topics such as body shaming, the impact of trauma on mental health, and the challenges of healing from past experiences. In this conversation, Shannon and Alison discuss the importance of finding a coach who aligns with your values and can provide support in your fitness journey. They emphasize the need for secondary advice and support, especially for those struggling with nutrition. They also touch on the transformational power of the gym and how it can help individuals with mental health issues. The conversation delves into personal experiences with bullying, apologies, and behavior change. They also discuss the challenges of the fitness and nutrition industry, the importance of sustainability, and the need to prioritize small, sustainable changes. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and Weekly Check-In 03:05 Dealing with Trauma and Grief 11:03 Father's Day and Emotional Challenges 22:08 Body Shaming and Unrealistic Beauty Standards 32:42 Understanding and Addressing Binge Eating and Restrictive Eating 41:38 Finding Balance and Support in a Fitness Journey 42:37 Finding the Right Coach 45:29 The Transformative Power of the Gym 49:54 Apologies and Behavior Change 54:07 The Importance of Sustainability in Nutrition 58:40 Starting Small and Prioritizing Sustainable Changes 01:15:20 Navigating the Challenges of the Fitness Industry

1h 25m
2024-06-12

EP 5. Breaking the Stigma: The Impact of the Patriarchy on Men's Mental Health Month

Summary: In this episode, Alison and Shannon discuss their personal experiences with mental health and Men's Mental health month. Alison reflects on her journey of self-improvement and finding purpose in creating content. They explores the desensitization to suicidal thoughts and the importance of living with purpose. The conversation then shifts to men's mental health and the impact of the patriarchy on their well-being. Alison and Shannon discuss the need for open conversations and support for men's mental health. In this conversation, they discuss various topics related to men's mental health and the importance of open communication and support. Shannon and Alison share personal experiences and highlights the need for men to address their mental health and seek help. Shannon emphasizes the role of women in holding men accountable and focusing on their own well-being. The conversation touches on disability advocacy, gender inequality, trauma, and the impact of societal expectations on mental health. Overall, the discussion promotes understanding, empathy, and the importance of self-care. Takeaways: Living with purpose can help alleviate the challenges of mental health conditions.Desensitization to suicidal thoughts can occur over time, but it is important to seek support and live with purpose.The patriarchy and societal expectations can negatively impact men's mental health.Open conversations and support are crucial for men's mental health.Education and understanding are key to challenging and changing harmful beliefs and behaviors. Men's mental health is often overlooked and undiagnosed, and it is important to address and support men in their mental health journey.Open communication and sharing experiences can help break down stigmas and create a supportive environment for men to talk about their feelings and seek help.Women play a crucial role in holding men accountable and encouraging them to prioritize their mental health.Personal experiences and trauma can shape individuals' perspectives and behaviors, but it is essential to take responsibility for one's own healing and growth.Self-care and focusing on one's own well-being are important for both men and women, and it is necessary to set boundaries and surround oneself with supportive relationships. Chapters: 00:00 Introduction and Personal Experiences with Mental Health 02:51 Desensitization to Suicidal Thoughts and Living with Purpose 20:29 The Impact of the Patriarchy on Men's Mental Health 23:24 Challenging Harmful Beliefs and Behaviors 32:05 Supporting Men's Mental Health and Challenging Societal Norms 36:08 Disability Advocacy and Awareness 38:34 Importance of Open Communication39:32Gender Inequality and Women's Struggles 43:23 Opening Up About Sexual Assault 46:47 Undiagnosed Mental Illness in Men 50:12 Men Who Wear Their Heart on Their Sleeves 53:28 Taking Responsibility for Healing 57:17 Importance of Mental Health for Everyone 01:08:17 Different Perspectives on Pain and Trauma 01:09:40 Women Focusing on Themselves and Setting Boundaries

1h 14m
2024-06-05

EP 4. Complexities of BPD & Interpersonal Relationships, Real Reason Why I Left My Gym, Gaslighting / Puking Blame Game

Alison and Shannon discuss their experiences with mental illness, therapy, and relationships, shedding light on the challenges and stigmas associated with BPD and other mental health conditions. They also explore the impact of trauma, self-regulation, and the complexities of interpersonal relationships within the context of mental health struggles. The conversation covers themes of setting boundaries, managing relationships, and dealing with challenging situations. It delves into the complexities of neurodivergent friendships, communication, and the impact of trauma on mental health. The narrative also explores the importance of self-regulation and the challenges of navigating social interactions. The conversation covers topics related to relationships, boundaries, mental health, and content creation. It delves into experiences of gaslighting, setting boundaries, and the impact of neurodivergence on personal interactions. The speakers share insights on self-worth, self-improvement, and the challenges of navigating social dynamics. The conversation also explores the intersection of gender, sexuality, and societal expectations in the context of content creation and online presence. Takeaways The challenges and stigmas associated with BPD and other mental health conditionsThe impact of trauma and the complexities of self-regulationThe role of interpersonal relationships within the context of mental health strugglesThe shortcomings of the mental health system and the need for improved support and understanding Setting healthy boundaries is essential for maintaining positive relationships and protecting one's mental well-being.Neurodivergent individuals face unique challenges in navigating friendships and social interactions, requiring understanding and support from others.Communication and self-regulation are crucial skills for managing relationships and addressing conflict effectively.The impact of trauma on mental health can influence behavior and coping mechanisms, requiring empathy and understanding from others. The impact of gaslighting on personal relationships and the challenges of setting boundaries.The intersection of neurodivergence, mental health, and self-worth in personal interactions.The complexities of navigating societal expectations, gender, and sexuality in the context of content creation and online presence. Chapters: 00:00 Introducing the Anti-Filter Podcast 05:18 Validating Self-Diagnosis and Assisted Suicide for BPD 11:37 The Deep Impact of Mental Health Struggles 30:11 Navigating Neurodivergent Friendships; Setting Boundaries and Building Understanding 32:11 Communication and Self-Regulation in Challenging Relationships 39:01 Trauma, Mental Health, and the Impact on Social Interactions 51:02 Navigating Relationships and Boundaries 54:31 The Impact of Neurodivergence on Self-Worth 01:19:46 Challenges of Content Creation and Societal Expectations

1h 14m
2024-05-15

EP 3. Gym Girl Progression; Model to Overweight, Cardio Only to Delt Queen

Welcome to the third episode of the anti-filter podcast. Today I go over the standard gym girl progression of doing insane levels of high-intensity cardio, to wanting a fat dumpy to wanting mini pumpkins as shoulders. I dive into my life story, my history with ED and fitness and how I've progressed as a fitness coach. ** Trigger Warning ** ED, SA and Suicide mentioned

48 min
2024-05-08

EP 2. Dare I Say, Daddy Issues? Thanks Gordon

Welcome to the second episode of the anti-filter podcast. Today I discuss my daddy issues, the 4B movement in South Korea where women are legit swearing off men and how trauma affects our daily lives. I talk about how it's easier as a woman to tell people not to touch me because I'm autistic, running away from kisses on first dates, and how my dad called children's aid society on himself after I told him he molested me - he didn't. I discuss the correlation between hypersexuality and BPD and BPD switching. *** Trigger warning *** SA is mentioned throughout this episode.

28 min
2024-04-30

EP 1. Sexting to Kinetic Sand Videos, Trauma Talk, Ozempic and Boric Acid Suppositories

Welcome to the first episode of the anti-filter podcast. We discuss how tf can you not eat chicken ( thousands have died in our pursuit of mid physiques ). We discuss how much we love our gym and how beneficial it is to be around people who are driven and have the same passions as we do. We talk about how the stage will always be there, getting fluffy and doing bodybuilding for the right versus wrong reasons. We discuss how much steroids cost and how expensive it is to be a bodybuilder. We get into sexting, kinetic sand videos and feeling pressured to send nudes without wanting any in return. We discuss people who are performative and spotting inauthenticity a mile away. Lastly, we get into pay pigs and how people will prioritize their fetishes over groceries. ** TRIGGER WARNING ** SA is mentioned

55 min

12 Episodes

Just two girls yapping. A podcast for the mentally ill, the neurodivergents, and the truly unhinged.

Creator

Alison Doyle | Shannon Richard
Years Active

2K
Episodes

12
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