Make Your Monday Awesome

Love this podcast. The episodes are so succinct and quick that they almost leave you wanting more. Always an insightful listen.

I love this podcast. Short episodes that always come with some new ideas to change my life for the better. It has been a lifesaver in the pandemic lockdown.

This podcast definitely resonates with me. Where I am in my life and who I have grown to be seems to be a wedge between me and another significant Person in my life . Someone I should be very close too. The more I grow and the more I learn the more they seemed to dislike me. Now to the point of hate. Seems like a strong word but at this moment it suits the situation. I have gone through everything with this person but she believes everyone is against her. She sees me as the completely opposite of the person I strive to be. I’ve spent many years trying to keep the peace. Just listening and never giving feedback unless she asked and if she asked then if I didn’t say what she wanted to hear she wouldn’t talk to me for weeks or months. she has spent many years growing in resent of me. Her anger and judgement of me have became so apparent that other people started to witness it which led to conversations I would otherwise not of had . I realized I hid all the horrible things she did to me. I now look back and realize I was just protecting her. I didn’t want her to be held responsible for her actions or words because I knew who she was inside and I thought she would come back to us. But it never happened. 20 Years past and it’s only got worse. I am now without her. I have mixed emotions about it. But I feel, for now, it is best that she is not in my life. I am a strong person in the sense that regardless of what others say or do to me , I know who I am and what I believe. I also accept people For who they are ( we don’t alway have to agree) and try always to see the good in someone and the silver lining in a situation. But I now know I also cannot continue to be controlled and be treated terribly for being myself. Your right though, deep inside you hold On to it and wonder. But sometimes you have to let go and move forward. Now from a distance I worry about her and still miss the person I once knew. I have at his point accepted my removal from her life. I accept it because it’s not my choice but i lost the worst parts of her when she left and that feels like an improvement to my life. I choose to remember all the good parts of her and hope that one day she will return. I have to trust she will find her way back to me. None of us are perfect.