SOBER AS F*CK

Sober as F*ck

Sober as F*ck is a raw, unfiltered podcast on sobriety, mental health, and personal growth. Hosted by Jess and Ryan, each episode delivers real stories, practical tools, and honest conversations about rebuilding your life with discipline, clarity, and purpose. From addiction and recovery to mindset, fitness, and relationships, this show is for anyone sober, sober curious, or ready to level up. Expect powerful guests, actionable insight, and real talk that actually moves you forward. New episodes every Wednesday.

  1. The Hidden Cost of “Functioning” Alcoholism and How Jamie Holliday Broke Free

    3D AGO

    The Hidden Cost of “Functioning” Alcoholism and How Jamie Holliday Broke Free

    What happens when a high-functioning corporate professional realizes alcohol is slowly destroying everything he loves? In this raw and deeply powerful episode of Sober as F*ck, Jamie Holliday shares his journey from childhood trauma, addiction, and emotional survival to over 3,000 days sober. Raised in a chaotic environment filled with violence, drug trafficking, addiction, and instability, Jamie spent decades using alcohol to numb pain he never fully processed. From hiding alcoholism behind career success to standing on the edge of losing everything, Jamie opens up about the moment he realized sobriety was the only path forward. We dive deep into: • High-functioning alcoholism and hidden addiction • Childhood trauma and emotional survival • The connection between sobriety, mental health, and fitness • Why community and fellowship are essential in recovery • How scuba diving became meditation and healing • The role yoga and breathwork played in rebuilding his life • Therapy, vulnerability, and learning to process pain • Recovery after years of self-destruction • Breaking generational cycles and becoming a present parent • Finding peace after addiction Jamie’s story is honest, emotional, inspiring, and proof that recovery is about far more than quitting alcohol. It’s about rebuilding your identity, learning self-worth, and finally finding peace in your own skin. Whether you're sober, sober-curious, struggling with addiction, battling mental health challenges, or simply trying to become a healthier version of yourself, this conversation will stay with you long after it ends. Follow Jamie Holliday: Instagram: @yogafromtheheights Website: YogaFromTheHeights.com 🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE - SAFPODCAST.COM 🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck 📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan 🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok 🎥 YouTube: Sober as F*ck Podcast Follow. Share. Send it to someone who’s ready to level up.

    1h 22m
  2. Marley Doran: You’ve Got Demons to Figure Out | How Alcohol Turned Me Into Someone I Didn’t Recognize

    MAY 13

    Marley Doran: You’ve Got Demons to Figure Out | How Alcohol Turned Me Into Someone I Didn’t Recognize

    From blackouts, rage, and shame spirals to full sobriety and radical self-awareness, Marley Doran’s story is one of the most honest conversations we’ve had on Sober as F*ck. In this episode, Marley opens up about growing up around generational alcoholism, navigating Hawaii’s heavy drinking culture, working in the restaurant industry while getting sober, and the moment her partner told her the words that changed everything: “You’ve got to get those demons figured out.” We talk about the neuroscience behind addiction, emotional regulation, intrusive thoughts, sober routines, relationship healing, recovery outside of AA, and what it really looks like to rebuild your identity after alcohol. Marley also shares why she recently gave up marijuana after over two decades and what it means to finally call herself “sober as f*ck.” This episode is raw, funny, emotional, and deeply relatable for anyone questioning their relationship with alcohol, weed, escapism, or self-worth. Topics include:• Blackouts and alcohol-fueled rage• Shame, anxiety, and relationship damage• Reframe and neuroscience-based recovery• Working in the restaurant industry while sober• Mocktails, NA drinks, and sober culture shifts• Quitting marijuana after quitting alcohol• Decision fatigue and rewiring the brain• Healing without perfection• Identity, grief, and emotional growth• Learning to feel instead of escape If you’ve ever wondered whether life actually gets better without alcohol, this conversation answers that question honestly. 🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE - SAFPODCAST.COM 🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok🎥 YouTube: Sober as F*ck Podcast Follow. Share. Send it to someone who’s ready to level up.

    1h 13m
  3. Jess & Ryan: Why Sobriety Still Feels Hard After 2+ Years | Peace, Burnout, and Real Growth

    APR 29

    Jess & Ryan: Why Sobriety Still Feels Hard After 2+ Years | Peace, Burnout, and Real Growth

    Most people think sobriety is the finish line. It’s not. It’s the starting point. In this raw and unfiltered episode of Sober as Fck*, Ryan and Jess break down what actually happens after the milestones, after the routines, and after the chaos starts to fade. Ryan opens up about approaching 3 years sober and the unexpected reality that comes with it: peace. Not the fake kind. The kind that comes from letting go of control, slowing down reactions, and finally accepting that life is unpredictable no matter how much you plan. They unpack: Why reacting vs responding can change your entire life The truth about burnout in sobriety and why it hits harder than expected How journaling becomes a high-level tool for emotional control and clarity The shift from chaos addiction to calm, and why that transition feels uncomfortable at first Why discipline and routine eventually need evolution to avoid stagnation The real impact sobriety has on relationships, communication, and conflict How independence, boundaries, and self-responsibility shape the next generation This episode also dives into a major mindset shift most people avoid:You are not in control of everything, and peace comes from accepting that. Ryan and Jess also share: Their upcoming May “Level Up” Challenge focused on mental, physical, environmental, connection, and discipline growth Milestone moments with Ryan hitting 3 years sober and Jess approaching 2 years How small daily changes, not massive overhauls, create long-term transformation If you feel stuck, burned out, or like you’ve lost momentum in your sobriety or personal growth, this episode will reset your perspective and give you practical ways to move forward. Because real growth isn’t about perfection.It’s about awareness, adjustment, and continuing anyway. 🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE - SAFPODCAST.COM 🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok🎥 YouTube: Sober as F*ck Podcast Follow. Share. Send it to someone who’s ready to level up.

    31 min
  4. Rethinking Alcohol and Redefining Your Life with Catherine Gray

    APR 15

    Rethinking Alcohol and Redefining Your Life with Catherine Gray

    This week on Sober as F*ck, Jess and Ryan sit down with Catherine Gray, Sunday Times Bestselling Author of The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober, author of Sunshine Warm Sober and her newest release Little Addictions, plus a globally recognized speaker and leading voice in the sober-curious movement. Catherine Gray has helped reshape how people view alcohol, identity, and mental health. Her work has reached millions worldwide, empowering people to rethink their relationship with drinking and step into a more intentional, high-performing life. In this episode, Catherine shares her personal journey and the mindset shifts that allowed her to walk away from alcohol and completely rebuild her life. This conversation goes beyond sobriety. It’s about identity, clarity, and raising your standards. We get into: • Why you don’t need a rock bottom to make a change• How alcohol subtly impacts confidence, mental health, and identity• The shift from using alcohol as a reward to seeing it as a limitation• How to recognize when alcohol is no longer aligned with your life• The psychology behind lasting change and self-control• What actually happens when you remove alcohol and level up your life Catherine also breaks down the emotional side of letting go, including identity shifts, internal work, and how to build a life that feels clear, grounded, and fully aligned. If you’ve ever questioned your relationship with alcohol or know there’s more available for your life, this episode gives you a direct and powerful perspective. Connect with Catherine Gray: 📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unexpectedjoyof🔗 Linktree: https://linktr.ee/CathGrayBooks📚 Books:• The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober• Sunshine Warm Sober• Little Addictions (out now) 🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE - SAFPODCAST.COM 🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok🎥 YouTube: Sober as F*ck Podcast Follow. Share. Send it to someone who’s ready to level up.

    55 min
  5. From Rock Bottom to Global Impact: Sober Dave on Addiction, Identity & Rewriting Your Life

    APR 8

    From Rock Bottom to Global Impact: Sober Dave on Addiction, Identity & Rewriting Your Life

    What happens when alcohol stops being something you do and becomes part of your identity This week on Sober as F*ck, Jess and Ryan sit down with Sober Dave, author, coach, and host of the One for the Road podcast. His story has reached people all over the world and continues to inspire lasting change. Sober Dave shares his journey from growing up in South London to building a life centered around alcohol, and ultimately choosing a completely different path. His story is honest, powerful, and deeply relatable. In this episode, we explore • How early life experiences shaped Sober Dave’s relationship with alcohol • The shift from social drinking to daily habits • What it really looks like to live as a high functioning drinker • The turning point that led Sober Dave to choose a new path • Why sobriety is about identity, not just behavior • How to move from feeling stuck to building a life that feels aligned Sober Dave also breaks down the mindset behind lasting change, including • Reframing your relationship with alcohol • Understanding limiting beliefs that keep people stuck • Why many people question their drinking long before they change it • The importance of community and connection • How to build momentum and stay consistent This conversation goes far beyond alcohol. It is about growth, awareness, and creating a life that feels intentional and meaningful. ABOUT DAVID: Author of One for the Road — a direct, honest look at stepping away from alcohol and rebuilding your identity with clarity Host of the One for the Road Podcast — conversations centered on sobriety, mindset, and personal growth Trauma-Informed Sobriety Coach — focused on addressing deeper patterns that drive behavior Founder of the HPR Method — a structured framework designed to help high performers remove alcohol without sacrificing performance 500+ clients supported worldwide — working with individuals ready to elevate their lives Host of International Retreats — including transformational experiences in Thailand Leader of the Sober Sessions Community -- ongoing support, accountability, and connection Sober Dave has been sober for over seven years and continues to inspire a global community through his content, coaching, and conversations. CONNECT WITH DAVID: • Instagram: @soberdave • All Links + Resources: https://linktr.ee/soberdave • Book: One for the Road • One for the Road Podcast • Coaching: Freedom From Alcohol in 90 Days • 1:1 Sessions: Power Hour with David • Community: Sober Sessions Group • Retreats: Thailand + International Experiences Key Takeaways • You do not need a dramatic moment to choose a different path • Awareness is often the first step toward change • Growth comes from consistency and intention • Identity plays a major role in long term transformation • A supportive environment can change everything Connect with Us Listen and watch on Apple Podcast, Spotify, and YouTube ➡️ PODCAST LINK IN BIO‼️ Website: SAFPODCAST.COM Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan TikTok: @soberaftok YouTube: Sober as F*ck Podcast Merch and coaching available on our website

    1h 12m
  6. Jess & Ryan: he Accountability Hack That Rewires Your Brain (Not Willpower)

    APR 1

    Jess & Ryan: he Accountability Hack That Rewires Your Brain (Not Willpower)

    Most people get accountability completely wrong.** It’s not about discipline, motivation, or “trying harder.” It’s about building a system that makes success inevitable. In this episode of Sober as F*ck, Ryan and Jess break down the exact accountability framework that took a simple two-minute daily plank and turned it into a full year of consistent habits, mental clarity, and real behavioral change. This isn’t theory. It’s a repeatable system that works. You’ll hear how micro-commitments and daily check-ins with the right accountability partner can radically increase follow-through, eliminate excuses, and rewire your habits without burnout. Ryan shares how this approach, combined with community support, has helped sustain long-term sobriety, including 666+ days alcohol-free, while building structure, discipline, and purpose. This episode dives deep into: * The psychology of accountability and why willpower fails * How to build a system that forces consistency (even when you don’t feel like it) * The power of accountability partners and real-time check-ins * Habit stacking, daily rituals, and identity-based change * Why community is the missing link in sobriety and mental health * The rise of non-alcoholic alternatives and shifting social norms. * Creative motivation tools, from sobriety milestone traditions like “marbles” to viral habit challenges * How to stay consistent during high-risk seasons, social pressure, and lifestyle transitions Ryan and Jess also unpack the cultural shift happening right now where sobriety, mental health, and self-discipline are no longer fringe topics but becoming mainstream movements. From social media trends to evolving drinking culture, the landscape is changing fast, and those who build systems will win. This is not about quitting one bad habit. It’s about replacing chaos with structure, isolation with community, and short-term motivation with long-term identity. If you’re serious about: * Building habits that actually stick * Strengthening mental resilience and discipline * Staying sober or sober-curious in a high-pressure world * Creating structure without relying on motivation …this episode gives you the blueprint. Small actions. Daily accountability. Massive results.

    23 min

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Sober as F*ck is a raw, unfiltered podcast on sobriety, mental health, and personal growth. Hosted by Jess and Ryan, each episode delivers real stories, practical tools, and honest conversations about rebuilding your life with discipline, clarity, and purpose. From addiction and recovery to mindset, fitness, and relationships, this show is for anyone sober, sober curious, or ready to level up. Expect powerful guests, actionable insight, and real talk that actually moves you forward. New episodes every Wednesday.

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