The Shadow Sessions

Hiba Balfaqih

The Shadow Sessions is hosted by Hiba Balfaqih, an unconventional psychologist and trauma alchemist. We explore the stories that most people bury—particularly those tied to shame, trauma, and identity. Our goal is to shed light on the hidden corners of human experience, allowing listeners to hear stories that challenge societal norms and spark deep,introspective conversations.

Episodes

  1. Inside the Psyche of The Hacker who Infiltrated The White House

    3D AGO

    Inside the Psyche of The Hacker who Infiltrated The White House

    We’re taught to imagine hackers as men in hoodies—isolated, brilliant, dangerous. But what if the real story isn’t about code or breaches at all? What if it’s about psychology? In this episode of The Shadow Sessions, Hiba Balfaqih speaks with a man who infiltrated some of the most powerful systems in the world—impersonating CEOs, deceiving institutions, and accessing spaces he was never meant to enter. He had power, and he walked away before anyone could stop him. But this conversation isn’t about technical exploits or data breaches. It’s about identity. It’s about the psychology of control, the shadow of the trickster, and what happens when someone becomes whoever the world needs them to be in order to feel safe, admired, or untouchable. Advertised as a threat, treated as a weapon, shaped by fear and projection—until the performance cracks and the truth emerges. This episode explores how hacking can become a mirror for deeper human patterns: the need for mastery, the seduction of invisibility, and the cost of living behind masks. It asks uncomfortable questions about power, protection, deception, and the moment when control stops being safety and starts becoming self‑erasure. This is an episode for anyone interested in psychology, identity formation, shadow integration, cybercrime as a behavioral phenomenon, and what happens when the role you play becomes the only place you know how to exist.

    1h 13m
  2. A Childhood Without Safety: Growing Up Inside the Prison System

    JAN 15

    A Childhood Without Safety: Growing Up Inside the Prison System

    What happens when a child grows up without safety—and the system responds with punishment instead of protection? In this episode of The Shadow Sessions, host Hiba Balfaqih sits down with Sonny Van Cleaveland, whose life was shaped by incarceration before it was shaped by care. By the age of seven, Sonny was already inside the justice system. By sixteen, he was placed in an adult prison that became one of the most violent facilities in Michigan within its first month. This conversation exposes how early trauma, chronic threat, and institutional violence shape identity. Violence wasn’t defiance. It was adaptation. Survival became instinct. Harm became normalized. When a nervous system is raised in danger, morality doesn’t disappear—it gets overridden. But this episode is not just about prison. It’s about childhood trauma, moral injury, and how systems that claim to rehabilitate often reinforce the very behaviors they punish. It’s about how patterns form under pressure—and what it actually takes to interrupt them. Sonny’s story challenges the idea that people are “born dangerous.” It asks harder questions about responsibility, conditioning, and what healing looks like when no one ever modeled safety to begin with. This is an episode for anyone interested in trauma psychology, incarceration, nervous system survival responses, and the long-term impact of growing up without protection.

    1h 7m

About

The Shadow Sessions is hosted by Hiba Balfaqih, an unconventional psychologist and trauma alchemist. We explore the stories that most people bury—particularly those tied to shame, trauma, and identity. Our goal is to shed light on the hidden corners of human experience, allowing listeners to hear stories that challenge societal norms and spark deep,introspective conversations.

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