Wild Obedience Man

by CRUMB

I basically wake up and record whatever is on my mind for 10 minutes. enjoy for the whole jimmy: crumbdaily.substack.com

  1. 25/08/2025

    Season 3, Episode 3 - Pumping the brakes (AGAIN! 🤬🥵😭🤣)

    Episode 3 — “I Can’t Do This Anymore” 😊👍🏽😎Today’s Sky-Level Question: What if the setbacks in your life aren’t roadblocks, but God pumping the brakes so you don’t drive off a cliff? Episode NotesThis one is raw. I woke up ready to sprint, ready to launch, ready to finally hit “go” on everything I’ve been building for the past year and a half. And then, within 24 hours: My Substack got accidentally deleted.My wife and I forgot it was our anniversary.My cabin filled up with six kids and a mountain of chaos (again). And in that chaos, I broke. I said out loud: “I can’t do this anymore.” But here’s the truth: I don’t think God is stopping me. I think He’s slowing me down. He’s pumping the brakes because He loves me enough to make sure I don’t build CRUMB on sand. The Lesson: The Forever CodeIn the middle of the mess, God showed me something clear: my priorities have been out of order. For too long, I’ve been putting mission and work above house, above order, above the little things. So here’s the Forever Priority Code I’m committing to live by — no exceptions: Seek GodLove wifeLead kidsReset houseSteward bodyAdvance mission (one domino)Check moneySteward calendar & communicationSharpen with brothersGive + serveLearn truthScan heartEnjoy joyReview + reset Emergency, mercy, or Spirit-redirect — those are the only reasons this order flexes. Otherwise, it’s fixed. Why It MattersWithout this order, my ADHD gets worse.Without this order, my wife and kids pay the price for my ambition.Without this order, I scramble, burn out, and end up confessing, “I can’t do this anymore.” With this order? Peace. Stability. Presence. And the foundation CRUMB actually needs. Pumping the BrakesSo yes, I’m frustrated. Yes, it feels humiliating to pause again. But better to pump the brakes now than crash later. This week, I’m practicing the Code. Locking it in. Resetting my house before my work. Putting my wife before my mission. Living the buckets before I try to multiply the mission. And when CRUMB does launch — God willing — it will be from a place of order, not chaos. 🎧 Listen in as I talk through all of this in real-time: the setback, the breaking point, and the unexpected grace in God pumping the brakes. 📄 If you want to see the Forever Code laid out (and download it for yourself), you'll be able to grab the free starter pack I put together once I get the Substack rocking. September 1st is the new goal.

    2 min
  2. 25/08/2025

    🎙️ Season 3, Episode 2: What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Stronger

    🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 52 Title: What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Stronger Description: It’s August 25th at 7:13 a.m., and I’m standing on the side deck of the Global Mercy, overlooking Freetown, Sierra Leone. Yesterday felt monumental—I launched my Substack with my first article, celebrated with Krystal, spent the day with my kids at the pool, and even relaxed with a show at night. But this morning, something felt off. When I opened my laptop, I discovered that my entire Substack—my “official launch”—was deleted. Turns out I accidentally erased it while cleaning up an old account on my phone. So here I am again, back at square one, sharing a Crumb Confessional because that’s what this is about—real life, raw obedience, setbacks, and starting over. I sang Kelly Clarkson’s “Stronger” to Krystal in the shower, laughed it off, and remembered: this is life. Setbacks, restarts, and spiritual warfare that tries to keep me down. But I’m committed to coming back stronger, to keep telling people about Jesus, and to let this be part of the story. I talk about: Launching my Substack article and celebrating with Krystal.Spending the day at Country Lodge with my family.Accidentally deleting my entire Substack account.Processing frustration, laughter, and perspective.Singing “What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Stronger” to Krystal.Recognizing spiritual warfare in setbacks.Committing to rebuild and move forward stronger. 💡 Highlights & Timestamps: 00:00 – Morning on the deck of the Global Mercy, overlooking Freetown. 04:15 – The excitement of launching my Substack and sharing it with Krystal. 09:10 – Realization that the whole Substack was deleted by mistake. 14:00 – Singing Kelly Clarkson in the shower as comic relief. 18:45 – Seeing the setback as part of spiritual warfare, but choosing resilience. 🧠 Core Takeaway: Setbacks happen—sometimes by our own mistakes—but they don’t define the story. What matters is how we respond, and whether we let it make us stronger in Christ. 🙏 Closing Line: Crumb Confessional #52 — Try to keep me down, devil, you’re not going to succeed.

    5 min
  3. 14/07/2025

    🎙️ Season 2, Episode 14b: This is day one

    🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 14b Title: This is day one Description: It’s Monday, July 14th, and today marks the official launch of the full CRUMB ecosystem. I got the Instagram, TikTok, YouTube, Threads, and X accounts live. The bios are up. The banners are done. The podcast episodes are uploaded. The merch store is ready. Everything is finally public. And yet—this is just day one. I reflect on the weight of how long it took to get here, the invisible labor no one sees, and the emotional tension of launching big and getting almost no feedback. This is my honest confession of the spiritual, emotional, and mental grind it takes to obey, show up, and trust God anyway. I talk about: Launching CRUMB on every major platformFinalizing the branding, bios, and merch storeReliving the tension of putting it all out thereFighting discouragement when no one sees itConfessing the desire for validationCelebrating that I finally got to this starting linePraying for supernatural consistency over the next 171 days 💡 Highlights & Timestamps: 00:00 – “Today we launched on Instagram, TikTok, YouTube…” 01:20 – “The bio says: truth, daily death, eternity” 02:35 – “I finally have all three podcasts live at the same time” 04:00 – “I’ve gotten maybe 2 minutes of real attention total” 06:10 – “This is what it’s like to really start something” 07:55 – “I confess the desire to be seen and validated” 10:30 – “I’ve always waited till the last minute… but this is the launch” 13:15 – “It sucks to put your dreams out there. It really does.” 15:45 – “Lord, I turn all these feelings over to you…” 17:10 – “Give me supernatural consistency for the next 171 days” 🧠 Core Takeaway: Obedience doesn’t begin when it looks good—it begins when no one sees it, and you do it anyway. 🙏 Closing Line: Crumb Confessional #61 — This is day one. It’s real now. Let’s march.

    13 min
  4. 14/07/2025

    🎙️ Season 2, Episode 14a: Kiss my ass, devil

    🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 14a Title: Kiss my ass, devil Description: It’s Monday, July 14th, and I just lost the coolest recording ever—so here we go again. I’m launching on Instagram, YouTube, and yes… TikTok. I wasn’t going to, but it’s too easy to get traction, and I need American eyes on this. The first post? “Kiss my ass, devil.” That’s how I feel after 15 years of being taken out in subtle and not-so-subtle ways. This isn’t polished branding—it’s raw freedom. I talk merch, content plans, and that sacred discombobulated energy that says: we made it. We're doing this. I talk about: Losing my first recording and redoing it with fireDeciding to launch CRUMB content on TikTokNeeding U.S. exposure vs. Sierra Leone TikTok algorithmWhy “Kiss my ass, devil” is the first post and product lineLaunching the “numb or crumb” merch storeThat giddy, goofy breakthrough feeling when the war shifts 💡 Highlights & Timestamps: 00:00 – “I just recorded the coolest thing ever… and it didn’t get recorded” 01:10 – “Instagram, YouTube… and TikTok. Yes, I’m doing it.” 02:15 – “Kiss my ass, devil… we made it.” 03:40 – “Maybe not the best way to launch a Christian men’s brand…” 04:25 – “numborcrumb.com — you can stay numb or you can crumb” 05:05 – “Sticker for your bum, hat for your head… it’s happening” 🧠 Core Takeaway: Sometimes breakthrough sounds ridiculous—but when you’ve been in bondage, freedom starts loud. 🙏 Closing Line: Crumb Confessional #60 — Kiss my ass, devil. We made it.

    2 min
  5. 13/07/2025

    🎙️ Season 2, Episode 13h: Blastin’ aliens and riding sharks

    🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Season 2, Episode 13h Title: Blastin’ aliens and riding sharks Description: It’s still Sunday, July 13th, and I cap off the day with full-on dad mode. The kids and I are deep in imagination—fighting aliens, riding pirate ships, blasting venom from fang guns, and soaring to the stars. I guide the game, cheer them on, and slip in some gentle direction as we prep to wind down. We laugh, shout, and dream together. In the background, I get ready for a special evening with Grandpa at the ballgame. But this moment? This is the real stuff. I talk about: Fighting imaginary aliens with my kidsCreating characters with blasters, webs, and electro-powersFlying to Mars, then switching to a pirate ship on the oceanHelping the kids transition from play to restPrepping for a baseball game with GrandpaThe sweetness of ordinary fatherhood 💡 Highlights & Timestamps: 00:00 – “How big is the alien? What kind of blasters are you using?” 02:15 – “Protect your sister… work together as a team” 04:10 – “You want to go to the moon? Mars? The stars?” 05:25 – “I get to sit in Diamond seats with Grandpa” 06:40 – “Now you're on a pirate ship… and here come the sharks!” 08:05 – “All right, are we grinding down?” 09:10 – “Don’t throw your shoes—put them by the door” 09:45 – “I’m going inside, okay?” 🧠 Core Takeaway: Obedience can look like spiritual fire—or just staying present in the wild, sacred chaos of fatherhood. 🙏 Closing Line: Crumb Confessional #59 — Blastin’ aliens, wrangling sharks… and then it's time to shower and lead.

    6 min

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I basically wake up and record whatever is on my mind for 10 minutes. enjoy for the whole jimmy: crumbdaily.substack.com